I DON'T know if you knew this... and it MAY become a shock.... But I don't own Ouran High School Host Club. I know... I know... BIG SHOCKER there. Sorry my fans.

lol well, I'd like to thank Ashley for her fucked up review :D lmao jk and thank you SuikaChan555 for her nice review :D

The only people I own in this story is Dani... Who originally wasn't even supposed to have a part but thats ok xD

enjoy! (This chapter depresses me lol)

I know I forgave Hikaru, but I can't help but be mad at him. Why is he so blind? It's just no fair at all. I love him more than I should.

I turned to face him in the limo. Just to steal a quick glance.

"Well you're awfully quiet." Hikaru stated kind of obnoxiously.

"Sorry, I'm just out of it I suppose." I admitted and he glared at me.

"I can't believe how much you lied to me Kaoru." He barked and the car stopped and he got out of it. My expression dropped.

"Hikaru! What do you mean?" I called and he stopped walking and turned to me with a dangerous look.

"I'm your twin brother, do you think I don't know when something is bothering you? Huh? I know you lied to me today. I'm not entirely sure on what but I know you did and that's what hurts the most Kaoru!" He yelled and I blinked and looked down at my feet.

"Hikaru--"

"Save it Kaoru." He growled and stomped off.

Right now I was reliving bliss. I was under a few trees that I remember very well sitting under with my lovely brother Hikaru. I know he's angry at me, he has a right to be but just think about it, he took away my innocents and doesn't even know it happened. What's fair about that?

"What's wrong Master Kaoru." One of the maids asked and I looked up and shook my head.

"Nothing. I just wish to be left alone." I sighed and she smiled somewhat.

"Are you sure Master Kaoru? I know when your upset you usually talk to Master Hikaru about what's bothering you. But it seems that you two are in a predicament. If you need me to, I could stand in as a replacement for the time being if you need to talk to me." She smiled cutely.

"What's your name again?" I asked with my eyebrow raised.

"My name Master Kaoru? That's Daniana. Ana or Dani for short." She introduced and I pulled my legs to my chest and let my chin rest on my knees.

"Tell me about yourself Dani." I said and she smiled slightly and sat down in front of me.

"I'm 23, I moved here from America and I've seen situations much like your in before. My mother was a politician and my father was a lawyer. I too had a twin." She said and that perked my interest.

"What was she like?" I asked and she giggled.

"Well much like you and Hikaru we were identical and inseparable. But as you see, we finally split ways. It's kind of funny... I've had all of those chances and never said a thing. I do regret that the most. She's married now. Well Master Kaoru, I'm sorry to leave you but it seems I'm being summoned." Dani turned her head to be met with the head maid of the house calling her from the sliding door. "If you ever need to talk, I've been through these things. I have a twin. Talk to me." She said and got up leaving me alone.

Daniana was pretty cute. She was pale with long brown hair and green eyes. She had a birthmark near the corner of her left eye and she was kind of short and slender.

But I wouldn't chose her over my Hikaru dearest even if he wouldn't choose me over Haruhi.

I know he likes her. It's pretty obvious. It breaks my heart to pieces but it's... obvious....

It's kind of funny... I've had all of those chances and never said a thing. I do regret that the most. She's married now.

Could she be hinting something I have to do?

I stood up and looked up at the house and dashed inside and looked for my twin. I couldn't stand him being angry at me anymore.

When I got to our room he wasn't there. Where was he?

I sighed. Of coarse he wasn't there. Why would he be?

I laid on the bed and closed my eyes. I knew I wanted to be with Hikaru but for some reason my energy was completely drained. So I fell asleep.

Hikaru, why are you doing this to me? My heart is breaking because of it. Why do you like Haruhi. I could do things for you that she never would.

"Hikaru." I whimpered in my sleep and a tear ran down my cheek.

No sooner later did I feel arms wrap around my waist and pull me towards them. My eyes opened and I turned to see Hikaru. He was calm looking but he looked drunk. My expression softened. That's when he started kissing down my neck.

My eyes stung. How much longer was I going to let him get away with this?

He turned me over and I could see the lust in his eyes. He was drunk alright.

He pressed his lips to mine hungrily and I sat there and took it.

My name is Kaoru Hitachiin. My twin brother is Hikaru Hitachiin. I'm in love with him but he'll never know.

I closed my eyes and kissed back. I wanted him like this. I really did.

I just wanted him to be sober.

"Will you remember?" I asked softly when he pulled away. He paused. I didn't know what he was thinking. I do remember that glare though.

"..You.. Sayin... Th-at... I-I'll for-get or sumthin?" He slurred and I turned my head and nodded.

"You already did." I whispered and felt his soft hands pull off my shirt.

He kissed down my chest, fondled me. I wanted to moan, but I couldn't help but want to cry too.

The thing that hurt me the most you might ask?

Hikaru slammed himself inside of me roughly. I yelped and closed my eyes tightly. But this brought us closer right?

Wrong.

"Haruhi.." He moaned.

(Message from Paige: That was the depressing part BTW lol)

I was curled up in the bathtub crying my eyes out. It wasn't on. I was fully clothed. I couldn't be near Hikaru right now. After he finished up he nuzzled against me. I was shaking. I couldn't believe that just happened. My heart ached more than it ever could. Or should. Someone knocked at the door.

"Occupied!" I yelled and they knocked again. "Occupied!" I yelled louder.

"I'm aware Master Kaoru." I heard Dani say softly. "Do you need someone to talk to?" She asked and normally I'd say no but I NEEDED someone right now.

I jumped out of the tub and opened the door. Her expression dropped and she looked at me closer. The only light was a nightlight that was in the bathroom.

"Master Kaoru, are you ok?" She asked and I ushered her in and closed the door.

We sat on the floor... Well she did, I laid on the floor curled up. She pulled me closer to her and stroked my hair as I cried. I've never felt so calm before.

"Master Kaoru." She whispered tenderly. I looked up at her and she pursed her lips. "What happened with you and Master Hikaru?" She asked and I looked away from her with tears blindly running down my face. The only thing I could think of was having her talk to me.

"Dani, what was your sister like?" I asked quietly and she smiled.

"My sister was almost like me but she was much more demanding. Much like Master Hikaru." She said softly and it broke my heart to hear his name. I let out more tears. "What does my sister have to do with anything?"

"Were you two close?" I asked close to sobbing.

"Yes Master Kaoru, we were very close indeed. We told each other everything and we were always there for each other. We never lied to each other and we were blunt with one another." She admitted and I nodded.

"Did you love her?" I asked with more tears running down my face.

"Did I love her? Of coarse I loved her. She was my twin sister." Dani whispered and I looked at her and she stopped stroking my hair.

"No. Did you love her." I asked more stern and her expression faded and she put on a sad smile.

"So this is what it's about." She finally came out with and I glared.

"Answer my question." I snapped and she smiled at me.

"Yes Master Kaoru. I loved her, very much." She pulled my head onto her lap like a mother would it's child and stroked my hair. She hummed as she did it making me tired. I liked Dani. She didn't ask major questions but she knew everything already.

I was starting to fall asleep and I loved how she sort of rocked herself back and forth giving me the impression of being rocked as well.

And so my eyes closed.

I woke up in the same position I was in before. Dani didn't leave my side. In fact she was the one that woke me. She had her cell phone opened.

"It's time to get ready for school Master Kaoru." She said and my eyes widened.

"Dani, you stayed with me for 4 hours??" I asked surprised and she smiled.

"Master Kaoru you should take a shower. There's fresh towels." She said and got up when I moved my head. "I'm here if you need me."

Wow, Dani.

I smiled and turned on the shower when she left.

Was this finally a true friend? I wouldn't let anyone else have her. Hikaru could have Haruhi all he wanted but I will have Dani. I don't like her in that way, no! But she seems more like an older sister or a mom to me than anything else.

I digress.

"Kaoru, why wont you talk to me?" Hikaru groaned and I turned to him and my heart broke more.

"Why bother? I'm not Haruhi. Isn't that who you'd MUCH rather talk to? Spend time with?" I turned my head and walked downstairs to get breakfast. But... I didn't eat anything. I stared at it. Hikaru was glaring at me from across the table and that's when Dani walked in.

"Master Kaoru, you should really eat." She said with a smile and I couldn't help but be confused. Me and Hikaru were sitting in completely different seats than we used to.

"How'd you know it was me?" I asked and she smiled.

"Master Kaoru, I of all people should know how to tell twins apart. After all, I am one. So eat up, don't be upset." She said and walked off and me and Hikaru stared at her while she walked away.

"So that's what it is, is it? Your ignoring me to get close to her?" Hikaru snapped and I glared at him.

"Oh you WISH it was like that. I'm ignoring you because your so insensitive!" I yelled.

"Boys! Boys!" Our mom yelled and we turned to her.

"Mom?" We questioned in unison.

"Yes, I'm back from France for now. Stop arguing at the breakfast table." She ordered and both of us stood up and glared at each other.

"Fine we'll argue elsewhere." We said together and stormed out of the room. Neither of us ate.

"Just tell me WHY your being so jealous all of a sudden!! You never cared that I liked Haruhi before!" He shouted and I stayed quiet.

"Really now?" I said and walked out of the house.

Hikaru, I've always loved you more than a brother should love his brother. I just hadn't really taken it into consideration until me and you shared that night together. It made me feel like you actually loved me back. But throughout the whole time you were thinking of Haruhi.. That isn't fair... Is it?

Class seemed to be really quiet with us not talking. Usually we were the main focus but we just refused to talk. Well. To each other. I honestly didn't talk to anyone... Hikaru talked to Haruhi however.

He was either doing that because he wanted to or he wanted to annoy me. Whatever he did, it definitely annoyed me.

"It seems were down two loving twins.." Kyoya said while looking at me and I sighed.

"That sucks for you, doesn't it?" I whispered and he stopped typing and paused.

"Why don't you tell him what's hurting you Kaoru." He finally said and I shook my head. "It is him that's causing you pain, isn't it?" He concluded and I stared at him awe-struck. Kyoya really does know just about everything.