Rating: PG13- for yaoi, BoyxBoy, Gayness, Sho... oh you know what I mean!!!

Disclaimer: I do not in any shape form or fashion own Furuba. (duhr)

AN: okay, I put up another chapter. Please review...

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I never really hated him. Granted I thought I did when I was younger, but thats only because I was under the influence of Akito and my goddess of a mother (Ha!). I just wanted to abide by there rules and try to make people happy. Even after my mothers death I still tried to be a good son. My six year old mind thought I could redeem myself of the nasty rumors about the "cat" boy. I was a fool. I started to relize that after he started taking lessons from Shessiou. He was strong. Stronger than I cared to admit. That always made me frustrated. Even after I figured out I didn't hate him anymore I wanted to push him.Push him till' he cracked. To beat him when he was at his breaking point. It was a weird thought, to fight someone you care about. Okay, it's true I care about that god forsaken rat. Hell, mabey more. I don't know. Anyway, I don't think I ever broke him. Until three days ago.

It was a regular fight. Yelling, insults, the usual. Then it changed. Got more personal. Dark things from the past where brought back. Things I had wanted to keep dark forever.

" Just stay out of my face!! I don't ever want to see that monsterous face of yours again!!!" the purple haired boy's words have been ringing through my ears.

" How did it get that far??" I wondered. "Why did he loose control?"

That scared me. Yuki always had his composure. Just as I had my pride. It was a part of him. So why did this fight make it any diffrent? That very thought is what I have been contemplating over the last three days. It made me seem as is I was in a diffrent world because I was thinking to much.

"Isn't that what I wanted? Didn't I want to push him. But now that I have, I would do anything to take it back." Tears burned in my eys, threatning to fall. I willed them not to. Then I would of really hit bottom.

"Kyo-Kun!!" Torhu's voice rang up the stairs. Honestly, I didn't want to talk to her, to anyone really. I felt sick, but I obliged and answered.

"Yeah?!"

"Can you please go to the store fo me? I'm afraid I just don't have the time."

"Sure." Mabey getting out of the house would do me some good. I hated what I had done. I would do anything to take it back. What is that old saying, be careful what you wish for, oh it's crazy how true it is.

To make it worse, over the past few days that damn rat had the nerve to ignore me. Of course, I might ignore me to, he probably thinks I'm gonna kill him. Of course I had been avoiding him a little. I don't like being called a monster, who would?

I looked up and noticed I'm in front of the store. It's amazing how your body can seem to function with out your mind. I even seem to have the list, which is now balled up in my fist and damp from sweat.(ew)

I tried to make out the smeared handwriting. This trip was taking way longer than planned. It had to have been an hour by now, mabey two? The mostly filled grocery basket was really starting to way down on my arm, it didn't hurt, that wold be patethiec, it was just getting anoying. My mind wandered back to (who else?) Yuki.

"How can we go back to normal. Is there a way? I don't want to stay silent with him forever, I love him to much to do that."

"The Hell!?!?!?!?!?!"

I was in shock over what my head had just declared. My basket had dropped to the floor. Cans, boxes, and vegitables were scattered everywhere. I swooped down and shoved it back in. I could feel peoples eyes on me. Probably wondering if I had hunningtons deseise or something. I raced to the casheir and quickly paid. My heart was pounding in my head. I wondered how everyone else couldn't hear it.

"Do I really love him? Gaw just talk about random and out of nowhere!! But sereously..."

"Do I?"

The last part was said aloud. I took in my surrounding and noticed I was in the forest on the road back home. I again breifly wondered how a body can do thing without the brain knowing. I was out of breath and panting. I needed to lie down.

I sat instead, up aginst a tree.

"Even if I DID like him, would he like me back? Psh, no. Of course not."

I started to think of him. How his violet eyes and silky hair matched perfectly with the moon. How soft his skin was. I had come into contact with him enough to know what it felt like. My cheeks started to heat up.

"What am I saying, uhhh thinking, I don't love the rat, there is no way. I don't, no way no how. I don't, don't I?"

I was starting to get fed up with these thougths. I had been gone way to long by now. It had to have been at least three hours by now. I stood, and walked on. Then I was was shocked at the sight before me. It was a very dirty, and very sweaty Yuki. He was panting, hard. As if he had been running a while.I walked towards him and he threw his arms around me in a tight embrace. My face shot to a violent red. The grocerys have slipped from my grasp. I stutter incoherently until he startes to speak.

"Thank you Kyo,thanks for always being there."

This confuses me, what does he mean by that. I stand there and started to wonder even more about that random, stupid, lovely, caring rat.

I guess I've been shocked so much today those adjectives don't suprise me as much as they would of earlier. I must be growing immune. I smile inwardly and start to walk home.

" I do." sings my heart. Oh this is going to be a long (and interesting) rest of the day.

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I might might might write a third chapeter. Depends on reviews... Love yall!!