Every single one of my teachers has been telling me that I should enjoy my senior year. How am I supposed to do that when they keep handing me all these assignments? School just started, a week ago, and I have like a ton of homework that needs to be done and handed in on monday. Well, there goes my weekend, which was going to start of this epic year with my friends. I let out a string of bad words as I close my locker with a loud bang. I was alone in the hallway, and even if there WAS anyone, I wouldn't have cared if they heard. The books that I had taken out of my locker were being stuffed down my bag.
"Fucking book, just get down there you piece of shit!" I was frustrated. I didn't care if I got homework, but the first week? Really?
"Watch out with the swearing Santana, or I'll have to wash your mouth with soap" Jasper said and leaned against the lockers. He loved sneaking up on me and scaring me. Usually I would jump and scream, not being prepared, but this time I was too angry to be scared.
"Yeah, whatever" I replied. I wasn't in the mood for jokes right now, I just wanted to go home and get this shit done.
"Everything okay?" he asked. It wasn't like i tried to hide the fact that I was pissed off right now, but if I wanted to hide it, I could. Even then, Jasper could always tell what was up with me. He could read me like an open book. Sometimes, that could be scary, like when I didn't want anyone to know, but most of the times, it came in handy. I'm not the kind of person that likes talking about my feelings, I'd rather keep them inside. So he just had to look me in the eyes and he would know right away.
"I think you already know the answer to that" I snapped. I didn't mean to. He knew that, his face fell for just a second before he gave me a soft smile.
"I do. Is it the homework you have gotten this week that makes you angry?" he asked sincerely.
"Yeah. I have homework in four subjects. I'm sorry but you'll have to start of this year without me. I have to study" I said. We started walking down the hallway to the entrance and Jasper put his arm around me as we walked.
"There's no way in hell we are going to have fun without you" he said and opened the door for us. "We'll help you with everything and you'll be done in no time and after we can celebrate that and start off this year. Sounds good?"
"That sounds great. I need your brilliant minds right now" I said as he pulled me into a hug.
"We would do anything for you, and you would do the same for anyone of us" he said quitely.
It's true. I would do anything for my friends. We're like family. To me family isn't all about who you are related to. To me, family is the people WHO love you for you, they never try to change you into someone they want you to be. They accept all your flaws no matter how bad those flaws may be. I think of my best friends as my family, I love them and I wouldn't want to change anything about them.
"Besides" he said and pulled away from the hug. "It's not as fun making fun of you if you're not there" he said and chuckled.
"Wow thank you Jasper" Maybe this weekend wouldn't be so bad after all.
"Seriously Santana you should know this!" Bella said furiously. They had been helping me with the same subject for two hours. Bella, Jasper and Sophia had come over right away to help me with the studying, we had started with history and then spanish, but I didn't need any help with that, I'm fluent. Now we had moved on to math, which wasn't my strongest subject, in fact I almost had an F in math. I never understood geometry and when you should use pi or any other formula or anything else really.
"I just don't understand why this minus all of a sudden turns into a plus" I was frustraded with Bella. She knew I wasn't good at math, why did she get so angry?
"Because Santana, we learned this in seventh grade!" Bella said almost screaming.
"Okay! Calm the hell down you two" Jasper stepped in and stopped the argument that was building. "Bella, relax, breath okay" He said and then looked over at me. "And Santana, I can't explain it but that's the rule of math sometimes. Things aren't always explainable. Okay?" He explained to me calmly.
"Okay, but when am I gonna use this ever?" I asked. It wasn't my dream to become a math genius or anything like that.
"Never. Unless you have a job that involves math, or if you have kids and they need help with this" Sophia said. Whenever Bella and I fought or when me and Jasper fought she would back off. She didn't like confrontations, she would rather turn the other cheek and just avoid arguing. But whenever I was angry or frustrated with something she was an expert at making me calm.
"Can we stop this now? My head hurts, I need to do something fun" I couldn't think anymore, I needed to get out of my room and out of the house. I needed to do something fun with my friends. "I say we should start off this year now"
"Yeah I think that is a great idea. Let's go and have some fun!" Sophia agreed.
I looked at Jasper and I didn't have to ask, I could tell by the way he smiled he was in. "Bella?" I looked over at her. "You in for some serious fun?" I asked. She looked unsure at first but after a few seconds she cracked a smile.
"Of course I'm in" she pulled out her phone and started clicking on it. "I just have to call Evan. He texted me before I got here and asked if I wanted to hang out" Bella stepped out of the room to make her call.
"So, got any ideas?" I asked Jasper and Sophia.
"I heard that Puck is having a party, how about we start our night there?" Jasper asked and looked at me and Sophia. Puck was on the fotball team and one of the popular people in school. Also he was in glee club, which really was a geek club. Dancing and singing showchoir, I joined my sophmore year. I liked it, I loved to sing, but before I joined I only sang in my room or in the shower, alone.
"Yeah that could be fun. We go there, dance, drink, talk have some fun. Then we move on to something else" Sophia said.
"Absolutely" I said. "It sounds like a plan"
The three of us went down the stairs, we had been waiting in my room for Bella to come back but it had been almost half an hour so we decided to go see what took her so long. When we got down the stairs she sat on the sofa still talking to her boyfriend. It sounded like he wasnt too happy she wouldn't spend any time with him tonight.
"Hey Bella! Are you ready to go?" Sophia asked. Bella didn't hear us coming down the stairs so she was startled and jumped in her seat when Sophia called her.
"Uhm.. yeah. You can go outside I'll be right there" she said and turned back to talking with Evan.
We had been sitting in the car for at least 10 minutes. What was taking so long, she had already talked with him half an hour before we went out here. "Did she die or something?" I asked clearly irritated. I wanted to get to this party before everyone was totally wasted.
"I was just gonna ask the same thing" Jasper said, also irritated.
"Should we go check on her ?" I asked. We all knew Evan had a temper, maybe Bella was trying to make him calm down. That could take a while.
"I'll go" Sophia said and stepped out of the car. Jasper and I saw her go inside my house. A few more minutes passed and there were no sign of Bella or Sophia.
"Come on! What the fuck are they doing in there" I was getting angry now. I hated to wait, I didnt have the patience to wait for more than a few minutes.
"I'll go and check" Jasper said. Just as he was about to get out of the car the front door opened and Sophia and Bella came out and walked towards the car.
"Finally, what took you so long?" I asked and started the car as soon as they closed the door.
"He was angry that I wasn't gonna go over to his house after I had been here" Bella said quietly.
"Didn't you tell him that we had plans?" Jasper asked Bella.
"I forgot to tell him. I've had som much on my mind this week it just slipped" she explained. Bella did have alot to think about. She and Evan are getting married in May. Sure it's like eight months left but a wedding takes a lot of planning and no she wasn't pregnant. Me and Sophia along with Bella's oldest sister had gotten the honour of being bridesmaids.
"Well fuck him. He's not gonna ruin our night or our weekend" I said.
We arrived at Puck's house, there were no chance you would've gone to the wrong house. There were cars parked everywhere, people on the front lawn, red solo cups scattered around, not to mention the music that was blasting through the house.
"Here we are" I said as I parked my car. "Even a deaf-blind person would know there is a party here. The grounds shaking from the bass" I stated as the four of us walked up to the door of Puck's house. The door was open so we just walked right in, of course we were invited. "I'm gonna go and get a drink" I said.
"I'll come with you" Jasper said and took my hand so we wouldn't get lost in the crowd of people. "It looks like the entire school is here!" he yealled over the music.
"Only the important ones!" I yelled back. We made our way to the kitchen, where Puck, Finn and a few other glee club members hanged out. The music was significant lower in here.
"Look who it is!" Puck exclamaited when he saw me and Jasper. "It's the beards" he said laughing. Earlier that week both me and Jasper kind of had come out to the glee club. They were all very accepting, and they promised not to tell anyone. Puck had been drinking which made him tell the truth. Luckily it was only glee club member in here. It had felt good to tell more people about my secret.
"Puck be nice" Quinn said.
"I am nice. I'm just keeping it real" he said with a faux ghetto voice.
"You're just mad that you will never get on this" I said and pointed to my body.
"Well, yeah. Lezpez you have smoking hot body. Sure you're gay?" he asked with a wink.
"Oh yeah. I'm sure" I said and fake gagged.
I took out to red solo cups, the first one I filled with vodka and some 7-up and gave it to Jasper. The second cup was a rum and coke. My favourite.
"So, Santana" Quinn stepped closer. "How are things?" she asked. Quinn could be a mean bitch, she had become nicer over years but from time to time she would release her inner bitch.
"Things are good, great even" I said and took a sip of my rum and coke.
"Have you told you're parents yet?"
I furrowed my eyebrows. Why is she asking me that? Quinn and I were friends but I didn't consider us that close. "No I haven't yet" I said. "Why?"
"Just wondering. You know glee club will always be there for you" and with that she walked away dragging her newest boyfriend with her. I stood there watching Quinn as she left the kitchen. Why did she seem to care so much all of a sudden? My thoughts were broken by a buzz in my pocket. I took out my phone to see what it was, it was a text. It was from that girl I had met on the internet.
"Are you having fun? :)" she wrote.
"Just got here, but so far so good. Wish you could be here so I could meet you ;)" I quickly texted back. I did wish she could be here, I wanted to meet her to see if she is like I'm imagine her to be. My phone buzzed.
"Oh yeah? Would you talk to me if I was there?" What did she mean by that, why wouldn't I talk to her? I was just about to write a reply when my phone got snatched from my hands. I looked up from my hands to see who it was that took it. Infront of me stood Jasper with the phone in his hand.
"Looking for this?" he asked and held the phone up, just then it buzzed indicating I had gotten a new text. "Who could that be" he tried to unlock the phone, thank god for password protection.
"Jasper" I said threatening. "Give me the phone" I held my hand up for him to put the phone in. Instead he put my phone in his pocket and dragged me by the arm upstairs away from the loud music and the crowd of people. He led me into a bathroom and locked the door behind us.
"It's time to finish our conversation from earlier this week" he started. "Who is this girl?" he asked.
"It's nobody" I tried to quickly grab my phone out of his pocket but he was faster then me.
"I don't think so" he said as he held a my arm in a lock. "I saw you smile at your phone before I took it from you. This girl is someone and you like her so just tell me"
"I will when you let go of my arm" I hissed. He immediately realeased my arm and pulled out the phone. "I met her online this summer. We switched phone numbers and we text each other all the time. I don't know how I feel about her, I haven't met her in real life yet" I said and leaned against the bathroom sink. "There's nothing more to tell"
"Why haven't you told us about this? You came out to the glee club two days ago and me and Bella and Sophia have known that you are into girls since forever. I understand that this is something that's hard telling other people but really, the hardest part, telling people you're gay, is over. You've done that. I know you dont like talking about your feelings and I get that talking to this girl gives you some feelings that you are scared to share, even with your best friends" he looked me straight in the eye, he gave me my phone back before he continued. "You need to open up more Santana, if you can't open up to me, who can read you like a book, then how will you be able to open up to love?"
He didn't let me answer before he unlocked the door and he was gone. I just stood there, I couldn't move. He was right, how am I supposed to love someone if I can't open up properly about my feelings. Even with my best friends it's hard, and I love them. They are a part of my family. My phone buzzed, it was another next from this girl. "Did you fall alseep already? ;)" she wrote. She always made me smile when I read her text messages, even if they weren't funny.
"Haha! No the night is still young" I replied. I knew I had to look for Jasper and apologize to him. He had my best interest, I knew that.