I woke later that night to an annoying sound of banging coming from god knows where. I had no idea what time it was but it was still dark outside so I decided to try to go back to sleep. It wasn't happening, I was now wide awake. I got some of my things from the boxes by the door and headed to the bathroom for a shower. Wow, I look like shit. My face was pale and I dry from where the tears had earlier been. Not to mention the puffy redness that seemed to be my eyes at the moment.

Uh; I couldn't look anymore so I jumped in the shower. I had always been more of a bubble bath person, I loved the way the hot water felt as I lied there. The sound and smell of the bubbles always relaxed me.It seemed to just soak away my thoughts. But the shower worked as well. The hot water was always nice. Now finished with my shower and looking somewhat better I decided since it was still early and that I had a few hours left before school I would go look for a department store. I grabbed my favorite puffy orange coat and headed out.

"Got those papers," asks the older man who I now know is the attendant.

'"Yes Sr. I sure do. Do you happen to know where I can find a department store somewhat close to here? I need to buy a few things." I say this all cheery and with a smile. After all it is a beautiful day and I cant stay gloomy when its like this outside.

"Go right outside and continue a few blocks straight. After a while you should come to big yellow building there is a one way road that goes left follow it and it should lead to one." He says this more happily now, I guess my happy mood has drifted to him also. "By the way you can call me Tazuna." I smile and thank him and all cheery like before heading out. I'm excited this feels sorta like an adventure, trying to find a store in a new town, and I love the thought of adventure. Its just what I need right now.

Just like the man said I find the department store with ease. It's not as big as I would have hoped but it has the few things that I need. I happily collect an alarm clock and some other appliances for my new home. Grab some groceries and start to head back.

It really is nice outside. A beautiful blue cloudless sky stretches above me. Theres still the smell of morning in the air too. A familiar smell of a light misty dew and the suns warmth soaking it up. There isn't many people outside today I see, and that just adds quiet to this tranquil morning. Its just about perfect.

Almost skipping with sunshiny pleasure I start to think that maybe with wont be so bad. Everything is going to go well just like this morning, but as I'm thinking these things I ram right into something. The something I ram into turns out to be a guy a around my age waring tan short pants and a dark black t-shit that almost matches his beautiful raven like hair. Not once had I ever thought any man as handsom; But the irritated guy before me looked much more than that.

"What the hell were you doing? Watch where your going, not the goddamn sun!" wow was he mad.

"I'm sorry, let me help you." I tried to be nice and friendly but this only seemed to piss him off more.

"I'm fine. Don't touch me," is all he says before he quickly storms away. I never even got his name. It's not like I want to be involved with someone as rude as him anyway. Huh, he left his phone. I think about weather or not leaving it, but decide to bring it. Maybe it has his home number and I can get it back to him.

Mood now recked and Back at the apartment I ask the tenant Tazuna what time it is.

"About ten to ten, he says still cheerful. Have a nice a walk? Did you find the store?"

"Yes, thank you." I plaster my fake smile on and head up to my apartment. I'm not as thrilled about the day as I was earlier. Now it just seems to be a busy town with everyone wanting to be left alone.

I sigh and start to unpack a few of my things. I set my clock and put the few groceries I bought away. Not really caring about which boxes I was opening I come across the one I really could have done without at the moment. It has the few pictures of the few people who cared about me back home.

I take a look at the few pictures and really start to miss those who were somewhat nice to me. I sit on the couch and hug the pictures. I really do miss them. This place isn't right for me. I'm used to a small home town where everyone knows everyone, and the people being friendly with one another; even if they weren't exactly friendly to me. This place seemed far from that. I can now feel the lack of sleep from earlier and so I let it slowly take me away.

My nap didn't last long. It was interrupted once again by some obscure banging noise. Lazily I get up and look out the window. Great they were doing construction work across the the street. Thats all I needed to interfere with my studies. Speaking of which I wondered what time it was. Shit, I was going to be late! I grabbed my bag with the books I needed and ran out the door. This time I didn't stop to chitchat with the tenant.

Before dying of near exhaustion I make it to my first class barely on time. The teacher looks slightly annoyed as he gestures with his hand for me to have a seat. He has shiny black hair thats slicked down on his head, and big black bushy eye brows to go with it. He's waring a green vest with a long sleeved green shirt. I wonder why when its so warm out.

"My name is Gai and I will be your teacher for Calculus, Advanced Chemistry, and Philosophy. You will need to have these placement tests done before Friday so that I can see where you are all at. There of course isn't any assigned seating in collage so sit where you like. The most important things to a student should be their studies, life, love,and youth!" He says this and gives a thumbs up with his right hand. He's now smiling and I think the serious part of the class is over. But then he proceeds to tell us about the rest of the semester and what he expects of us during it. He seems like a good teacher. Someone I was sure I could easily get long with.

Bored now I start to observe the class. There aren't very many students in here and that encourages me. I don't really like large crowds of people, it makes me nervous. I try to get along with most everyone I meet though. Running into that guy earlier has me a little discouraged still. Speaking of which theres someone who looks like him, same beautiful black hair. Wait it is him! He's in this class? Crap, I didn't bring his phone with me, I wasn't expecting to see him here.

"Thats all so you can leave now. Remember I expect those packets to be done by Friday!" says the teacher and everyone starts to leave. Not me though, I cant stop myself from staring at the beautiful raven haired boy. He also leaves, now I'm the only one left in the class.

"Hey, is there anything you wanted," asked the teacher.

"Uh, no sorry. My names Naruto by the way." I say as I get my stuff together.

"Nice to meet you Naruto, next time you'll show up on time to my class right? Remember the most important thing to a student is his studies, life, love, and youth!" he says once again happily; and just like last time with a thumbs up.

"Yes Sr. Thank you. It was nice meeting you." he nods and I leave.

Why did I freeze up like that? It's not like he's that special. God, Naruto pull yourself together! As I turned the corner to leave the school I see him again. He's getting into the back of a really nice black BMW. Not only is he unsocial and beautiful but he's rich too! How unapproachable could this guy be? Once again I felt all self confidence leave. Being disliked by most your village has the tendency to to take a few chunks off of your self esteem. So I headed home feeling pretty down.

Back at my apartment I sit back on my couch and sigh heavily. Well this day didn't go to bad. It started off well enough. And I'm not gonna let that guy have this kind of affect on me! Over all with out him my day went pretty damn well! Now with confidence returned I decide to make me something to eat. Cup-o-noodles will do the trick tonight! So I warm me up some water on the stove and wait while it heats. I'll have to get a microwave sometime soon. I go to the fridge and get some baby carrots to munch on while I wait. Need to keep up on my vegetables too.

Sitting back on my couch I enjoy the noodles and relax. Tonight isn't as bad as it was last night. With half my things scattered around everywhere it seems more homely and not as empty. I smile at the fact that a messy place reminds me of home. Content from the food I get my bath stuff together and head for the tub. The aroma of my midnight rose bubble bath foam brings me even closer to a perfect relaxation. The warm water also helps. I lean back and rest my body against the tub.True comfort now surrounds me and before long i am once again nodding off.

Inside Naruto's dream

I know this isn't right...but still I don't want it to end. I'm standing in his kitchen this time. I was doing the dishes when Iruka came up from behind and slid his hands around my waist. I already start to melt away as he lifts my shirt so he can touch my stomach and chest.It feels so nice. I had always been ticklish so I try really hard to be still. But my stomach betrays me and I cant help it when my muscles contract and my stomach moves. This I think amuses him so he proceeds in making me melt away in his arms. All I can do is place my arms on his. Unsure at first he slowly and cautiously reaches for my belt. Theres no way I can tell him no or to stop...after all its what I want too. It seemed I was always turned to mush now when he touched me. I have to admit though...I didn't hate it. What i hated was what always came after...the regret,hurt, and confusion I felt. We are now in his living room and I didn't even remember being led here. He holds my face in his hands and slowly leans in towards me...

ring ring

Shit, I fell asleep in the tub. And the phones ringing...wait I don't have a phone yet. It must be that raven haired boy's cell. I grab a towel and run out of the bath still dripping wet only to see one missed call from Itachi. I wonder who Itachi is? I turn his phone off and head back to the bathroom to dry off and get dressed for bed. Still sleepy from the nap I go and collapse on my bed. I'll try sleeping in here tonight.

God I feel lousy. Not only from the raven haired boys phone ringing and not knowing what to do with it; but also from the dream I just had. I wish I could forget it all. I wish it would stop recurring in my mind and I wish it would stop torturing me in my sleep. I don't understand why. Why did all that have to happen? I feel so alone. It cost me my teacher, I haven't spoken to him since he left us last year. He didn't even tell us he was leaving, he just left. Left me to be confused and hurt. What was I expecting anyways...it's not like anything could have gone on between us. It was always our little secret. After all he was my teacher. Iruka, my most precious teacher...and with that one single tear slides down my cheek before I am fall fast asleep.