HIKARU POV

The sky is murky grey. The clouds stir with an unease equal to that painted on the faces of those present at the funeral. It's raining; small drops in a light drizzle. Our faces are grim. I can feel everyone glancing at me; trying to see if I hold the same insanity my brother did. My eyes have many circles under them. I never could sleep well; Kaoru always helped me fall asleep. Without him; it's as if somebody closed a door; turned off a light.

And I...

Can't find a way out.

Those in the Host club are silent. Hunny is sobbing quietly; clinging to Takashi. Usa and Tamaki's bear are dressed for the occasion; Usa slightly more grey somehow. Trick of the light or more?

Kyouya and Tamaki are near the entrance; trying to calm down the swarm of girls bringing in flowers and love notes. Kyouya's men take the flowers and adorn the casket with them.

I hear a gentle voice by my side.

" If they give us any more flowers; I don't know what we'll do with them." Tamaki says in a quiet manner; eyes slightly glinting from his small joke. A sorry attempt to get my spirits up.

I dont take the bait.

" We can let them burn in the furnace. I heard they had a place for that here." Tamaki sighs and puts his arm around my shoulder.

" It's a shock for Haruhi; how he said that to her." Truly it was; Haruhi was hospitalized a few days after the incident. After all; it must've been a hard blow to be the cause of someone's death. I knew that personally; and it cut me more deeply than anyone else. But I couldn't feel anything. It was all grey. And it pissed me off in a way that couldn't be said with words.

"Yes it was. But what could you expect? She was so fragile anyway; with a dead mother and all. Kaoru gave her the final push when he died. And I don't know where that puts me." I knew there was a deep wound inside me at that instant; But something wouldnt let me feel it.

At least not yet. It was only a matter of time before my mind would let the wound be immersed in acid; brining its immense pain to the surface. Would I be able to live through it?

I wouldn't know. And right now it was almost a comfort.

Tamaki sighed.

looking towards the sky; i didnt notice kyouya; at my other side suddenly.

" The rain cleanses the earth. Let your tears do the same."

Hunny and takashi were in front of me; making us a closed circle; a circle wracked with pain and discomfort.

" I'm fi-" At the instant I tried to finish that sentence; Karu's favorite song began to play; silencing us all.

Kazesasou kokage ni utsubusete naiteru

Mi mo shiranu watashi wo watashi ga miteita

Yuku hito no shirabe wo kanaderu GITAARA

Konu hito no nageki ni hoshi ha ochite...

I felt my eyes moisten with the onslaught of tears.

Yukanaide, donna ni sakende mo

ORENJI no hanabira shizuka ni yureru dake

Yawarakana hitai ni nokosareta

Te no hira no kioku haruka

Tokoshie no sayonara tsuma hiku

" I-"

Yasashii te ni sugaru kodomo no kokoro wo

Moesakaru kuruma ha furiharai susumu

Yuku hito no nageki wo kanadete GITAARA

Mune no ito hageshiku kakinarashite

All around; I began to hear the quiet sobbing of our classmates.

Aa kanashimi ni somaranai shirosa de

ORENJI no hanabira yureteta natsu no kage ni

Yawarakana hitai wo nakushite mo

Akaku someta suna haruka koete yuku

Sayonara no RIZUMUO

I swallow; give myself up to the shoulder that awaits me.

"Kaoru.."

moide wo yakitsukushite susumu daichi ni

Natsukashiku me fuite yuku mono ga aru no

"Date, Kaoru?! Baka!"

Akatsuki no kuruma wo miokutte

ORENJI no hanabira yureteru ima mo dokoka

Itsuka mita yasurakana yoake wo

Mou ichido te ni suru made

Kesanaide tomoshibi

Kuruma ha mawaru yo

It could have worked. it could.

A/N:ya wanna know what the song is right? well i watched an amv on youtube... and it was for elfen lied and the song was "Akatsuki No Kuruma"

here is the lyrics in english:

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here is the youtrube video i got it from:

.com/watch?v=rce-FUbmrl4