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Opening song: 'My Immortal' by Evanescence
Lullaby: 'you'll be in my heart' by Phil Collins from Disney's 'Tarzan' (I rock the cartoon soundtrack songs cause I'm cool like that)
About the song I use for this fanficiton:
These songs are the mood for each chapter. This one has two, 'you'll be in my heart' , and 'my Immortal'
I would suggest listening to them to get a better feel for it.
Authors Note at end of story
-Forever will stay-
Chapter two: haunted
You used to captivate me
by your resonating light
now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face, it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice, it's chased away
all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
-
(USA west Coast, Nezz's POV)
It was the night before winter break ended, and I found my self in bed wondering what to do next.
An odd part of me didn't want to stay in this house any longer. I wanted to run to some unknown destination and scream my head off. While another part of me wanted to roll over and go to sleep.
I knew I wasn't going to run anywhere, so the opposing argument yielded and I found my self slowly drifting off to sleep.
As I slept I dreamt.
It was the same dream that haunted me for years.
I lie sleeping in someone's arms. There cool breath tickling the top of my head as the sang to me a song.
A song that's stayed with me these past six years.
"Come stop your crying
It will be alright
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry"
The words to the lullaby were sung softly as I was rocked in the arms of a strong man, His grip cold and gentle. A mixture that made me feel safe.
In my imagination it's my father who does so, even though I have no memory to back it up.
It comforts me to think of myself having a loving family, a loving father.
The men who raise me now are just so cold. I love them and yet apart of me fear's them. I have nothing to back up the fear. They've been nothing but kind to me, but my mind still tells me 'be careful'.
I try to ignore that part of myself. The scared, paranoid sub-conscious telling me to run, beckoning me to find another place to call home.
I have a good life. I have to keep telling my self that.
'I'm safe'
'I belong here'
For some reason I wake from my sleep crying. The melancholy feeling staying with me through the morning and rest of the day.
I try to tell myself I'm happy.
I try to convince my self I'm better off.
But I can't help but feel haunted by these lost memories.
(USA, west coast. Jacobs POV)
Drifting.
That's what I've been for these past six years. Drifting in this endless ocean with out anything to hold on to. No life jacket, no boat, no land, Just me alone; drifting and lost.
I spend my days hoping; hoping for a glance of her, for the fragrance of her, even the mere presence of her. And yet each day goes by with out the slightest hint of her. Once in a blue moon I can felt her though. A sudden pull to the place in the world where she's being hidden. It changes every time I feel it. Form the north, the south, the east, the west. Whoever stole her- whoever keeps her, hides her well.
When she first disappeared I was broken to say the least. Rage at the culprit fueled me while sorrow for her missing drained me. I was a mess. Completely lost in this word. I ran endlessly for months blindly trying to find her scent, the trail that led to her, but all of it was in vain. Not one track led to her. And without her everything was meaningless.
The vampire Jasper couldn't be in the same room as me. Bella said it was because I was to "depressing" for him, even though she felt the same. She and Edward were just as broke as I. And to an extent the rest of the Cullen's were too. They all felt the pain Neisse's disappearance brought. She was everything, and with her gone, nothing was the same.
Each day without her is like an eternity alone. And each day a part of me breaks off.
It's been Six years, and I feel like there's nothing of myself left of me.
No more Jacob Black.
Only a broken soul, trying to find its meaning and reason for existence.
But today, I felt her.
For a split second it was there. A warm pull towards the east. In the direction where I would find her.
It was only a moment, but within that time frame, I felt whole once more. For that one second I held a place in this world. I was no longer drifting.
A moment later it was gone and I was left wondering again, but I knew where to head now. I had direction.
I wanted to run that second to where she lay, but I knew I had the responsibility to her parents. Bella would never forgive me if I withheld this information from her.
After exchanging information with her I wrote a sloppy note to my dad saying goodbye, and bolted out of the door heading towards the forest.
As soon as I changed I heard Leah and Seth fighting in our group mind
"I don't want to hear it!" Leah's voice screamed in my head
"Then don't listen Ms. Prude" Seth's voice echoed back.
"Oh Jake!" Both of their voice said in shock.
I let my memories recap everything as I ran east, towards Renesmee.
Seth flinched at my pain.
"What me to follow?" he asked.
I had to admit the kid was loyal.
"I'm not a kid, old man" he talked back. And it was true. He was a good man. A good friend.
"I know, come if you want. I won't be much company" I hadn't been for the past six years, but that hadn't stopped him once. Every time I felt her, every time I ran without direction Seth was there to run beside me. He was truly a good man.
"pfft, I'm just getting away from Leah" his mind joked, poking fun at his sister who was still listening.
"I'm the one who should be wanting to get away from you. I don't want to here about your sick sexual fantasies about 'what's-her-name' " her voice wasn't bitter or angry- disgusted, yes. But not the angry Leah we use to know.
"Like I want to hear about you and Mike! Yuck!" Seth's voice range crystal clear in my head as I ran, like background music turned on high.
Neither of them had imprinted, but both of them were happy with there 'partners'.
I normally stayed out of it though. Seeing them so. . . happy, made me remember Neisse.
"Sorry Jake" Seth softly apologized hearing my thoughts.
We ran in silence from then on. Running with all our might, the earth beneath us flying by at amazing speeds, and yet no where near fast enough.
I didn't know how far to run or the exact location, but I knew I had to run as fast as I could. Because running was all I could do in hopes of finding 'her'.
Short chapter is short. . . Sorry.
And yes. I did make the paring of Leah and Mike ^__^
Screw team Jacob and team Edward.
I'M ON TEAM MIKE NEWTON!
Lawl.
Review responses:
PearlAngel16: I never thought of it as sad. . .but your right, it is :/
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