***I DO NOT OWN THE BLACK MAGICIAN TRILOGY AND TRAITOR SPY TRILOGY. THIS SERIES BELONGS TO TRUDI CANAVAN***
*** my fantasy about Regin and Sonea relationship, inspired by the second Canavan's trilogy "The Traitor Spy" r*o*m*a*n*c*e ***
„You have never known how your life and heart can change..."
Regin looked at the darkness in front of them.
- As you know, after the battle with Ichani, all families wanted to consolidate their holds in politics and the society of Kyralia. The easiest method was planning marriages between the strongest and richest. My family decided about my marriage. My wife comes from one of the richest family, and I'm from the biggest. Well, such marriages are very common practice between the aristocracy, but at that time it was extreme. – he smiled bitterly – I have never even seen my wife before there was decided about our wedding day date. – Regin paused and sighed deeply.
- It was a hard time – said Sonea remembering all that years of changes. She gave birth to Lorkin, try to build a Clinic for people from slums, being in mourning after Akkarin's death...
- Yes. Very hard for everyone... – Regin sighed again – But my wife had different point of view. She wanted me to be at home, going to the meetings with other families, acting like there was nothing happened. We were quarreling all the time, sometimes even avoiding each other.
- Relationships are not easy... – said quietly Sonea – I have thought that I know everything about men's and woman's relations. – she smiled with comprehension – And then I found out that I don't know anything when I started to be... attracted to Akkarin. – Regin looked at her.
- I'm sorry... maybe this topic is unpleasant for you...
- No – she cut off his apology – It hurts, but I can't change the past. More than twenty years passed from that time...
- Yeah... we can never change what has happened or what have been done by us... – both of them smiled wryly.
- But we always have to move on – said Sonea turning face to him. – I hope that the two of you adapted to live with each other for that twenty years...
- It's not so simple Sonea. – Regin sighed again and looked at her eyes with sad gaze – The biggest problem with our marriage is the fact, that me and my wife have never loved each other – Sonea opened her eyes widely hearing his words – guess... we have never even been attracted to each other.
- Oh... but you have been together for twenty years, have two adult daughters... – she wanted to comfort him, but deep in her heart she knew that it was impossible. Living for so many years pretending that everything is good... And having no one to lay on... to been hold tenderly when you feel bad... Sonea felt a cold shiver. So emotionless and... empty life... Suddenly she felt so much compassion for him, that all negative feelings and pain which he had given her at their Novice's time became so far away and not important. Unconsciously she moved hand and tenderly stroke his cheek. Regin trembled surprised of her unexpected touch. But didn't moved away.
- I know how it is to live alone... It's hard and empty... – she stroked his cheek again – but you have to find something to live for. I found Rothen, Lorkin and my clinics where I can help people who need it. When Akkarin died, I didn't know what to do, but then I found out that I would be a mother, that I'm carrying a piece of him in me. I had to be strong not only for myself, but for my son. Regin, you have to daughters which you love to death, and for so long time you're engaged in improving The Guild. – Sonea closed her face to his looking deeply in his eyes – Live for it. This two things is enough to make you happy, so cherish them...
Regin was silence. He moved his hand, delicately touching hers at his cheek.
- I have never seen the person so strong like you, Sonea. – said quietly – thank you... and – his gaze softened – If I could change the past, I would never be so mean to you at our Novice's time... – Regin's hand cough hers and took it from his cheek. With one elegant move, he closed it to his lips and kissed. – thank you again, The Black Magician Sonea.
Sonea's heart started beating like crazy, and suddenly felt hot, like something would be burning in her chest. Something, what had been forgotten so many years ago...
- I'm happy that I could help you – she changed the topic wanting to hide her strange reaction and confusion. She looked at the horizon, which changed form darkness to light, warm colors of approaching dawn. – Guess we should until someone see us here. It's almost dawn – she smiled to Regin.
- Yes, you're right. – he stood up and helped her to stand from the wooden boards. – Good night, The Black Magician Sonea.
- Good night, Lord Regin.
Sonea lied at the bed. She couldn't sleep. The hand kissed by Regin were still trembling. Her heart was beating fast. What was happening with me ? Sonea sighed and turned at the other side of the bed. And then, for the first time she felt that her bed was so big and ... empty? Her apartment so silent... And she... a bit alone ? For all this years she was alone, but why it ... hurts now? Sonea blinked. Was it because of Him...? She sat at the bed. Did she... feel something for Regin? Sonea shocked head. What a stupid thought! I'm just a bit tired and too much emotional lately because of Lorkin's disappearing. It has to be a reason of that different feelings. Now, I should sleep at least for a short time. I have to be ready for Clinic's duty in the evening, decided Sonea. She lied again, wrapping soft sheets around her and closing her eyes.
***TO BE CONTINUED**