Pissed off
Authors Note: Thank you so much for everybody's great response. This honestly means a lot being that it's from a actual life experience. Oh if anyone would like to read one of the actual blogs I wrote while venting let me know.
Harry was beyond pissed off wondering how Draco could do that to him yet again. Harry couldn't believe that after a week he still hadn't gotten a response from Draco what's so ever. Harry couldn't figure out why someone would find him then completely ignore him all at the same time. Harry used his anger to write two very angry blogs stating his feelings perfectly at how he actually felt about this whole situation. It didn't help though that the more he thought about it the more pissed off and upset Harry got. Harry didn't want to feel this again he wasn't ready and he didn't think he ever would be either.
Harry had been holding back his tears but he knew that he was just making it impossibly worse with each passing day. Harry still kept lying to himself though it was easier than facing what he all ready knew was the truth. Harry knew the truth would break him when he finally let it out. Harry finally did break though. Everything that he had been holding back for the last eleven years came rushing back to him. Harry felt like his heart was being split in two and he couldn't find the strength to make it stop anymore. Hermione Harry's best friend and cousin helped him to realize one night while Harry was falling apart that it was ok and that Harry shouldn't take the blame for something that wasn't anyone's fault. She told Harry that love just happens and that you can't help who you fall in love with and that the right person was out there for him.
You see Harry blamed himself for falling in love with Draco because Draco always made him feel like it was his fault for all of it. Harry hadn't realized that he had been holding so much blame for it all this time until he let himself feel everything for the first time in years. Harry then made a decision he wanted a clean slate to start over and see if maybe they could be friends even though Harry wanted so much more but he would take whatever he could get at this point. Harry emailed Draco again telling him that he wanted a clean slate and that he just wanted to be friends so that they could finally put the past behind them and move on from all of this shit. Harry also said that he hoped to hear back from Draco but if he didn't he would understand. Harry never did get a reply back from Draco which hurt Harry even more than he thought possible.
Harry still didn't understand why all of this was happening and he wished that Draco would say something anything at this point to at least let him know where he stood in all of this. The more time passed though Harry began to give up hope that Draco would never really love him. Harry knew now that he had to move on but he was finding it harder and harder everyday but he also knew that he couldn't live like this either. Harry couldn't keep holding on to something that was never his to begin with but Harry still wished any way even though he knew in his heart it would never come or so he thought.
Draco though was having a different reaction to all of this in fact he was starting to see Harry in a whole new light that he didn't know was possible. Draco was falling in love with Harry and that was scaring the hell out of him, so he just ignored him instead but he knew that wouldn't work for to much longer either. Draco was going to have to convince Harry that what he was feeling was real and that Draco wasn't using him this time but Draco was going to be in for the ride of his life because Harry wasn't going to let him get away with it that easily. Now it was Harry's turn to put Draco through hell.
Tbc..