Okay, like I said earlier, the chapters won't all be in order. This scene isn't like it was in the anime either, just something I thought should've happened. Again, criticism and suggestions welcome!
If anyone had asked Nami at that moment what she was feeling when she laid eyes on her captain for the first time in two years, she wouldn't have been able to give an answer for she herself was not able to fully distinguish all of her feelings. She knew that there was relief, happiness, love, and excitement. Yes, she knew for certain that those feelings were there immediately. But as she looked at him, really looked, at her captain, she felt herself stop breathing because she saw how he was haunted by demons that had not been there before. She saw how Luffy had matured and how shadows stalked his eyes- the eyes that had always been filled with hope and utter contentment- and a new feeling emerged deep in her heart.
Nami felt pain.
This was not a normal pain. No, this was the type of pain that ripped her apart and spit her out thousands of times in a matter of thirty seconds. This was the type of pain that threatened to pull her under and never release its hold. It was the type of pain that could only be felt by those who knew what it felt like to lose somebody. It was the type of pain that Nami had hoped she would never have to feel again and it confused her. Why would she be feeling it when she looked at Luffy?
The answer came to her when Luffy looked her in the eyes. With a quick intake of breath and the tell-tale stinging of tears in her eyes, Nami launched herself at Luffy so quickly she startled herself and a few of her crewmates. She latched onto him and buried her head in his neck, tears racing down her cheeks in a way they hadn't since she had watched Luffy bring down Arlong Park and suddenly she knew. She knew that Luffy- the childish, adorable, charismatic Luffy- was gone. He had been killed along with his brother in that awful war that her and her crewmates hadn't been able to be a part of and a new Luffy- a dark, sorrowful, shattered Luffy- had taken his place.
Nami felt that pain because she had lost the boy who had always worn a smile brighter than the sun.
And it destroyed her.