Can still call you guys muffins. I need another food name. How about lollipops. That my current obsession. So, hi my lollipops. Yes, I am back! With a new chapter. Sorry it took so long. But you do not know how many times I deleted every single word of this chapter and had to restart again and again because I thought the first three originals were garbage. I am so happy with this chapter! I hope you are to!
Disclaimer: No, I do not own Victorious. Or the song that is featured in this chapter.
If you were to pass the West Residence, you would gaze upon it in wonder. It is just so beautiful, so how could you not. You would probably take a few steps closer -just to have a better look- and that's when you would hear sobbing.
Or you wouldn't. Either way, someone was sobbing in that house. That someone was Jade West.
Jade was lying on the floor of her room, to lazy and tired to even try to get up and do something. She just laid there, letting different varieties of lint get in her eyes and the carpet to tickle her.
Jade didn't really care. She just felt so numb right now. And she had a good reason to depressed. She and her boyfriend had just broken up. And if that wasn't a good reason…then she didn't care.
With those thoughts, Jade felt a sudden need for Beck come over her. Since she couldn't just go to his house (well she could….) she did the next best thing: check his TheSlap profile.
She pushed herself off the floor and crawled to her large bag, pulling out her Pearphone in the process. She pressed the link to her favorite's page and scrolled through the few things she had on her favorite before reaching and picking Beck's tab.
Beck had a new status update.
Beck Oliver: "Guess what happened an hour ago. Here's a hint: I'm single now."
Mood: hmmmm….
Jade felt her blood boil as she saw that the status already had 56 comments and 89 likes.
Evelyn Malina: OMG! So you're single now? Yay!
Courtney Anderson: Finally! Do you think Jade will still kill me if I try to go out with you?
Rose Lynch: I say we hide from Jade. Or we can skip school. Who's with me?
Martha Briggs: 090-7634 CALL ME BECK! I 3 U!
Cody Anderson: Its about time. That Jade girl is way to annoying. Time to put her in her place.
Stefan Guirand: 873-6532 CALL ME BECK!
She glared at the screen of the Pearpod. If the phone wasn't hers, she wouldn't hesitate to stomp on it or throw it down the stairs or do something to destroy what she is seeing. Instead she tossed the electronic on her bed and took this as a chance to stop being lazy.
Was it really her fault for the breakup? Beck loved to make her jealous! And she had to be on her guard at all times. What if he was using her to make another girl jealous? What if the whole relationship was nothing but a game? The sick twisted games only she would dare to play? What if he was just as evil as her? But worse! Or what if Beck was laughing about her right now, with Stephanie or Meghan?
"That's it!" Jade yelled. She climbed onto her bed, pulling out once again, her phone. She furiously texted beck.
You better not be with any girls at ALL! I WILL FIND YOU!
She slammed her finger on the blue send button and waited patiently for Beck to respond. She heard a ring tone, and then felt vibrations, but it did not come from her phone. Looking around, she finally found the source.
It was Beck's cell phone.
Now she remembered. She had Beck's phone during the fight and left with it. But she had forgotten it was there.
Jade looked at the phone with a raised eyebrow. This phone. It was the answer to all the questions she had been asking herself for more than a year and a half. All she would have to do was scroll through and press a few buttons and she would have all answers, all the facts, all the proof she needed.
Jade pressed the home button. The small pear symbol lit up and Beck's home screen was opened. Jade started with phone calls.
Missed calls: 6 from Melanie Watts, 8 from Chelsea, 2 missed calls from Trina Vega, 23 missed calls from Cat Valentine, 4 missed calls from Tori Vega, 6 missed calls from Robbie and 2 missed calls from Andre and Damian. She deleted them all.
Next she did text messages.
Again, most of his texts were from girls, but since a majority of the female texts he received were from Jade herself, she skipped the deleting part, going on to his contacts.
She growled when she realized Beck had way more girls then boys on his contacts. She had counted. She was disappointed that Tori Vega was one of his contacts. She took it upon herself to delete her (and 24 other girls) before she got tired of deleting names and just decided to remove them all. If Beck wanted people on his phone, he shouldn't have broken up with her.
Then, Jade remembered bitterly that it was she who had broken up with Beck, not the opposite way around.
Still.
Delete
Jade now felt satisfaction. She had ruined a guy's phone without even ruining it physically. She was on a roll. She tried to find more ways to ruin Beck's life through mobile and realized an alternate choice.
Pressing the app, she nearly shouted for joy when she saw he was still logined. Everything on TheSlap could be deleteted, from the pictures that he posted to the updates that he made. All of them. Everything.
But she couldn't bring herself to do that. Sure, she could delete his phone stuff, but his stuff? That's how they had met. The website was a sanctuary for them. Even when she had harassed him. It was still special.
Clicking on the home button again, she placed the phone on her desk table. Jade wouldn't give it back to Beck yet. But she would monitor it. Tell any number that would text him to buzz off.
She flopped in her bed, ignoring the pain of binders and pencils stabbing her back. (That was good pain.) She closed her eyes, relishing in her room and for once feeling calm.
Tick Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick.
Jade opened her eyes and saw that it was the clock on her wall that was the source of the ticking. Apparrently, relishing in her room meant taking in all the annoying sounds that came with it.
She sat up in her bed, and turned her upper body towards her bedside table. Twisting the knobs of her radio, she went by four different stations -commercial, commercial, terrible song, annoying host- before stopping at one that wasn't so bad.
It was the oldies.
Jade didn't particularly have anything against old songs. It's just that the people singing them had such terrible voices. The men sounded all high pitched and the girls' voices were low as chiz. It was annoying. But she would have to deal with it.
'Go on now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
Cause you're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think id crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die.
Oh no, not I.
I will survive.
Oh, as long as I know how to love,
I know I'll stay alive.
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give.
And I'll survive. Ohhhhh.
Go on now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
Cause you're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think id crumble?
Did you think Id lay down and die.
Oh no, not I.
I will survive.
Oh as long as I know how to love,
I know I'll stay alive.
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give.
And I'll survive.
I will survive.
And the song ended with one of those stupid fading things. Still, this sounded familiar. And not jus the tune. Whatever message it was trying to tell.
"And that was I will survive' by Gloria Gaynor. Now some Beatles with Imagine!" The (annoying sounding) host said.
Jade turned her radio off and whipped out her Pearphone once again. Clicking her MeTube app, she furiously typed 'I will survive Gloria Gaynor'. She tapped on the first video.
'At first I was afraid,
I was petrified.
Kept thinking I would never live without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights,
Thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to get along.'
Now she knew why this was familiar. It sounded like her and Beck's relationship. Well the breaking up part.
'But I never had to take Beck back. He never begged for me. That was my job.'
Thinking of this, Jade got angrier. Wasn't it the boys' job to beg for forgiveness? Wasn't it the guy who apologized first and who always got jealous and who got timeouts? Beck had never done that in the relationship.
'I had to do it for him.'
Suddenly, Jade pressed the back button on the video tab bar, restarting the video.
At first I was afraid,
I was petrified.
Kept thinking I would never live without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights,
Thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to get along.
And so your back, from outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should've changed that stupid lock
I should've made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me.
Beck had never treated her right. Or maybe he did, but only in the way he felt like doing, not the way she wanted him to. But she had still clinged to him, bending to his whim even when she said she wouldn't. He would embarrass her and still, she wouldn't do anything except get mad then forgive. Was that right for him to do? Beck was just as bad as she was. But was she ready to walk away from it for good. She had already planned what day she would ask for forgiveness when she was crying buckets. She would beg, he would make her apologize and that was that.
'But he would always have more power every time.'
And it wasn't as if they were filled with only bad times. They had happy times to. All those realtionship advice videos, the random kiss during Song2You. She loved those times. Was she ready to walk away from it all?
''No. Yes. Maybe…."
It took all the strength I had
Not to fall apart
Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you...
And that is where it ends. So yes, I will survive is the mystery song that I do not own. Anyways, let me tell you about this chapter.
Okay, so one day we (my mom, brother, brothers girlfriend, cousin, and I) went to IHOP. And my cousin was singing this song and it was getting annoying. So, to drown out his singing, I turned on the radio. Well the first two stations were on commercial and the only other modern station that I liked was playing this song that I really hated. So I had to go to the oldies, which wasn't so bad actually. Anyways, I will survive played in all the irony. And I was thinking, I want Jade to be like this, because that girl in the song was independent after the breakup and that's what this whole story is about. So, that is how the song came into this fanficition. And if you hate this song, but like/love this story, thank the song. I would have updated much later if I hadn't gotten this song as a theme.
This chapter might have a bit of Beck bashing, but I promise, its not going to always be like that. I only did it because these are Jade's thought, just in a 3rd person POV. So this is just what Jade is thinking.
Anyways, how did you like it? Sorry, I took so long. Okay some review responses for the eight (!) reviews I received.
BabyDavid: Thank you. I know right! Jade is pretty enough and good enough for boys to hit on her. I think maybe their intimidated by her. Maybe I'll put in some interested boys. Maybe…
Girl With No Account: Oh no! You have no account! You should make one. Thanks. I also hate how Jade is the only jelaous one to. I also hate how people hate on her because shes jealous, know what I mean? Like, if I had a boyfriend like Beck, I would be on my guard a lot to.
Dimitar: Thank you. Did you put this story on alert or are you just going to go to the Victorious archive and check for any updated story? (that's what I do.)
Num1. Hyperactive Kunoichi: You are so right! Why can't Beck be jealous for once? Is he just so calm and collected he doesn't care? Okay. Anyways, your right with the whole Beck calms Jade down thing, but no one has ever mentioned the Jade can scare Beck thing. Cool connection. That is what you meant right? Thank you! Glad I could enjoy you!
Random Storygirl: That's true. A relationship needs trust. The thing is, I can kind of see where Jade is going with it. Beck seems like a person who just wants to see her mad or wants to make her jealous. Like he also makes fun of her and doesn't really stop people from flirting with him. Also, who knows? Beck hasn't had a chance to be jealous. He might not trust Jade at all. Beck might be the darkest one of all….. But yeah, Jade sometimes takes her jealousy to the extreme and it does get annoying. Thank you. I like strong, independent girls, don't you. XD. (That laugh face is sooooo much cuter than your tongue face. LOL)
JellyBelly58: I know right! Beck needs to pay more attention to his girlfriend and Jade needs to calm down and stop overreacting.
JellyBelly58:Thank you! I really appreciate it!
Jeremy Shane: Thank you! Hope you keep reading! I wouldn't exactly say Jade doesn't treat Beck right. Actually, I have no idea what this means. Like I never say any examples other then the can of lemonade. Can you please give me some. Like I can't agree (or disagree) if I don't have the information, you know what I mean? Umm, I really don't know if Beck likes Tori. Maybe there's a crush but, who knows! Also, we don't know if Jade was never loved and if she had crap to deal with. Define crap please. Like crap as in like getting beat up or self-harm or something, or crap as in her attitude and personality?
Wanna answer more questions? Here you go! (two more wishes!)
What do you dislike most about Jade's personality/attitude/way she acts? What do you like best?
What do you dislike most about Beck's personality/attitude/way he acts? What do you like best.
Any more independence songs. In this fanfic, since music is so important in the Victorious world, its going to be important for Jade to. Who knows she might even - - - - - - -! :P So any songs at all that would help you get over a brwakup, even if its for a guy, just give it to me please!
Anyways, thank you for reviewing and reading and for answering the questions. I really appreciate it. Anyways, I will be back one day, hopefully soon. Bye bye!