'Hey JD.' Elliot greeted her friend with an apologetic smile.

'Hey.' He smiled awkwardly back. There was a long pause before Elliot spoke again.

'Did you, uh, get my message?'

'Yeah, I did this morning.'

'Look JD, I'm…'

'Sorry. Yeah I know.' JD said before moving past her to get on with his day.

Elliot hung her head. She wished she hadn't done it. Wished she'd learnt from the time before, or the time before that. Wished she'd called someone other JD. Wished she was strong enough to handle a break up on her own. Wished she could spot a jerk before he'd already hurt her.

Why did it always end up like this? Why did they always end up sleeping with each other? She didn't ever mean it to. She always just wanted comfort when she called JD. Always thought that 'this time it'll be different. This time it won't happen.' It always did. When would she learn?

'You alright Elliot?' Carla asked as she saw her walk up slowly.

'I will be. I don't think JD's forgiven me yet.'

'I wouldn't expect him to. Why did you call him again? Haven't you learnt what always happens?'

'Apparently not. Every time I think it'll be different. I don't even know why I want JD there so much that I risk it.'

'Neither do I. You should talk to him anyway.'

'I've tried but it's so awkward.'

'Try harder' Carla said before walking off.

Meanwhile JD was visiting patients. He walked into one's room slowly. Just wanting to go home and leave any possible contact with Elliot, or anyone who heard what happened and would give him sad, sympathetic smiles and Elliot angry looks.

The weird thing is although he was annoyed at Elliot, he got more angry at people who blamed her. When he thought about it logically it was all her fault. Yet he couldn't bring himself to blame her. He couldn't bring himself to hate her. He hated himself for being so pathetic, for not just talking to her over the phone. For not having any sense. But he could never just leave her upset, he knew that.

'Hi Miss. Atton I'm Dr. Dorian, I'm, well, your doctor.'

'Hi Dr. Dorian. Call me Georgie.'

JD read the girls chart. Date of birth: 31st of January 1994. 14 years old then. Symptoms: Nausea, fatigue, frequent fainting.

'OK. So, um, you've been nauseous, suffering from fatigue and fainting?'

'Yeah, that's right.' She smiled at him, it felt out of place that someone was giving him a normal smile, someone was living a fairly normal life. Tears pricked his eyes as he thought about what could be with Elliot if he just told her how he felt.

'Dr. Dorian, are you OK?'

'Um, yeah, I'm fine.' He said quickly blinking the tears away. 'I'm gonna run some tests and try and find out what's wrong with you OK?' he kept his eyes fixed firmly on the chart, constantly keeping himself from crying.

'OK.' Georgie said, as she tried to figure out what was wrong.

JD practically ran out of the room holding back tears.

'JD what's wrong?' Turk asked, concerned.

'Nothing man, I'm, um, I'm fine.'

'You sure? You don't look OK.'

'Yes Turk. I'm fine.' JD snapped back angrily.

'OK man, by the way Elliot's looking for you. She wants to make sure you're OK.'

'Well if you see her tell her that I'm just fine, I just want everyone to stop checking I'm ok, or giving my constant sympathetic smiles. Trust me, it's happened enough times that I really don't care anymore.' JD yelled at Turk.

'Ok, I'll tell her that.' Turk said slowly, shocked at JD's outburst, as he slowly backed away from him.

'JD.' Elliot said softly coming up behind JD.

JD didn't even acknowledge her presence; he simply walked off as everyone who was in the immediate area stared at him, like he was a bomb that could go off at any second.

JD automatically walked to the doctor's lounge and sat down hard on the sofa, running his hands through his hair and letting out a deep breath.

'Why am I like this? Why does this hurt so much?' JD said to himself.

'Because you love her Newbie.' JD looked up at the voice to see Dr. Cox stood at the doorway.

'No, I don't that's crazy.' JD lied, but he could feel his cheeks turning red as he spoke.

'Yes you do kid, it's obvious, don't even bother trying to hide it. Look, I know what Elliot did to you sucked, it did, but she didn't mean to hurt you.' Dr. Cox's tone was uncharacteristically soft, but all the same JD lashed out at him.

'What so Elliot sent you to talk to me? Convince me she 'never meant to hurt me'? You're pathetic.' JD got up and shoved past Dr. Cox

'Stop running away from everyone Newbie. It won't make anything better.'

'You know what won't make anything better? Everyone bothering me all the time. Why can't everyone just leave me alone.' JD shouted the last sentence and stormed out, slamming the door behind.

Dr. Cox sat on the sofa and ran his hands through his hair, just like JD had done.

'Why is he like this?'