"Hmm..." Adrian said again.

"Why is this such a hard choice?" I asked as he skimmed the pages.

"I only get a couple of pages, Sage, gotta make this count," He said, "Ooh! This one has my name in it!"

I blushed, and said, "Just read it!"

He smiled, "I looked in the mirror today," He paused and looked at me, "Really? I thought you never looked in a mirror and all of the good looks you have required no effort at all."

Everyone laughed and I rolled my eyes, "Just keep reading."

He did, "I saw that I had indeed gained weight," He paused, opening his mouth to comment, but I gestured for him to continue, "But for once...I didn't over react...I didn't see it as a sign of how much my weight differs from the Miroi's...I didn't see it as ugliness...I didn't see it as fat...I saw...and my dad would slap me for this...beauty." Adrian stopped reading for a moment and smiled at me. I smiled back.

"Good for you, Sydney," Eddie said, he too smiling at me.

"Why would he slap you?" Jill asked.

"Over my dead body," Growled Adrian and Rose at the same time.

I laughed at how alike they were in protecting me, "He wants me to be as thin as the Moroi."

"But that's impossible for humans!" Exclaimed Jill, then she flushed and added, "No offence!"

"None taken," I said laughing again. Then, I looked at Adrian and smiled sweetly, "I know that now."

"Well," Rose said, "Keep on going!"

"Okay," Adrian said, "Oh, my names coming up! My cheeks flushed as I thought of Adrian. He was the whole reason for this." Pausing he looked at me and winked, "Anytime Sage."

I rolled my eyes, "We could do without the commentary, Adrian."

So he continued, "He always tells me I'm smart, funny...beautiful. He's not the only one who's ever told me that, but, for some reason...when he says it, it's...different. I'm not just hearing the words...I'm...believing the words. I used to just shrug it off, but he's said it so much and I'm starting to give in under his intense gaze...the serious way he says it like there's no room for argument...GAH!"

He paused once more and smiled at me, "Really? Gah? In all caps? Were all of the exclamation marks necessary?"

I was blushing as a few people laughed and looked at me, "Just keep reading!"

Shrugging, he read, "Why am I thinking like this?! He. Is. A. Vampire! Get a grip, Sydney! What would my dad think about this? No, that's not the right question...What would he do? Send me to re-education, probably," Everyone shuddered as Adrian stopped a second, shuddering as well, "The place where they brain wash you...or worse. Anyways...I seriously need to get a grip. I need to find a nice human guy to think about all day. Emphasis on HUMAN. Maybe I can just sleep this off?"

When he ended, he said, "That's all for this one...wow, Sage, didn't know you thought about me all day."

I didn't know what to say to that, so I just smacked his arm slightly.

"Sooo," Rose said, breaking the silence that had fallen over the group, "That was interesting...but how about we move on to some deeper secrets?"

I groaned as Adrian smiled and flipped through the pages.

"Why do so many of these have my name in them, Sydney?" Asked Adrian.

"Yeah why do they Sydney?" Asked Jill innocently, but I could see her trying to hold back a smile.

"Well," Dimitri said, "They are husband and wife now...after only a year, if that. So she must have liked him a lot."

I blushed, but said, "Thank you."

"But these are before we started dating," Adrian observed, raising an eyebrow at me with a smile.

I sighed, why was he so observant when he didn't need to be? "Just choose one!"

"Ooh," He said, coming to a halt, "My names in here a lot...An evil creature of the night kissed me. A vampire kissed me. But not just any vampire...Adrian kissed me. ADRIAN IVASHKOV KISSED ME! Me! He kissed me! Oh my gosh, ADRIAN IVASHKOV, a VAMPIRE, KISSED ME!...Wow, Sage," Adrian said, looking at me, smiling radiantly, "There's a lot of exclamation marks...and capital letters...now that I look at it more closer actually," He said, reading further in his head, "This is basically just the same sentence over and over again, just in a different order...You thought of our first kiss that much?"

Everyone looked at me and I was blushing furiously, "Well...I didn't...you just sort of...you're a vampire...I...you...whatever, Adrian."

"Wait," Rose said, "When had you guys first kissed? Had Sydney not wanted to?"

"Well, I wouldn't say that she didn't want to..." Said Adrian suggestively.

"He did it...suddenly...I wasn't expecting it…and at that time I still wasn't sure of what to think of vampires and...Ugh, just read the next entry, it'll explain it," I said, hopelessly.

But Adrian was already there, "Okay...I think I've gotten it through my skull...Adrian Ivashkov, a good-looking-too good-looking-vampire kissed me..." Adrian looked at me with a crooked smile, "So I'm good looking, huh?"

"Too good looking for your own good," I said, blushing lightly.

Laughing, he continued, "If my dad knew about this...Oh, who cares about him right now? I need to sort myself out first. When his lips met mine, I should've been revolted. I should've pulled away...I should've slapped him...Should've, Sage?" Asked Adrian.

"Why should you have slapped him?" Asked Eddie.

"I should've done something," I said.

Adrian continued, "I should've...done and felt everything that I hadn't. When his soft, sweet lips met mine...I didn't want to pull away...I wanted to push closer. I didn't want to slap him...I wanted to melt into him." My cheeks burned as he continued and everyone was looking at me, "I didn't feel revolted...I felt so...right. I didn't want him to stop...I wanted him to do more.

"He had done the thing no one else could do. The thing everyone else had thought was impossible...He...Turned me on." People, including me, gasped. They looked at me with wide, horrified expressions.

"Adrian!" I cried, smacking his arm over and over again as hard as possible. So hard, it hurt my hand more than it hurt his shoulder.

"Okay," He laughed, "Okay...I was just joking, that is not what it says," He laughed as several people let out breaths they had been holding. Not funny. He leaned in close and whispered in my ear, "But I know I did."

I blushed angrily and said, "Just read the rest."

"He...made me, Sydney Katherine Sage...stop thinking...and, for once...I wish I hadn't started again," When he paused again, everyone looked at me with equally horrified expressions.

"Adrian!" Rose shouted, "What on earth did you do to this girl?"

He laughed, and opened his mouth, but I knew what he was going to say and said, "Don't even think about it. And I don't know exactly what he did to me..."

"I know what I did to you," Said Adrian.

"Would you just shut up, Adrian?!" I said. He immediately stopped talking and smiling. Rubbing my temples, I said, "Sorry...It's just you can just be annoying sometimes."

After an awkward silence, Rose did what she did best-well, besides fighting Strigoi-and broke the silence, "Did you just say 'shut up,' Syd? He changed you a lot."

I cleared me throat as they laughed, "Well, we should continue on, shouldn't we?"

"Yup," Adrian said, "But first," He said, wrapping his arms around me, giving me a big kiss, "I'm sorry for being annoying."

"It's fine," I said, "I'm not mad at you."

"I'm so messed up right now...I just don't understand how something so wrong could feel so right...what makes vampires so bad anyways...UGH! I hope my dad doesn't find this...Maybe I should just tear this page out...Well, since that's the last sentence, I'm glad you didn't." Adrian finished.