Author: So this is Castiel's prologue, which like Dean's is basically a chapter full of Castiel's background. Don't worry just because I'm giving out a bit of background doesn't mean there won't be other things from their past needing to be uncovered.
Summary: An accident causes Dean and Castiel's world to crash around them. Thrust into responsibilities where there are no rules to guide them; can a chance meeting between them help them cope with the recent events or will the last remaining pieces of their lives burn to the ground?
~Castiel's Prologue~
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His Father was a good man, a kind man, a misunderstood man. Castiel could easily defend his father, but he knew just as everyone else did that he did not know the ways of his Father. He did not understand the rules that his Father gave, did not understand the actions his Father did, did not understand a lot of things. It's difficult to understand, and it's even more difficult to explain.
His Father would be what many would call crazy and sick. Castiel doesn't know what to call his Father.
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When Castiel was a young boy, he quickly learned that all of his siblings were related to him by their father, that each and every one of his siblings had a different mother. He learned of this because of Raphael, the 3rd oldest sibling. Raphael had brown skin; and he was the only sibling with that complexion.
Raphael had told him what their Father really does, that he goes around through towns, cities, states, and countries to pick worthy women to carry his baby. Sometimes he left the women to take care of the baby when it was born and other times he took the baby to be raised with the rest of them.
Raphael had told him the person he thought was his mother wasn't even his mother at all, that the person who called herself The Mother of All was just the caretaker named Eve; Eve who was so young and so damaged, who seemingly had this desire in wanting to birth as many children as she could.
After learning that much from Raphael, it was Lucifer, the 2nd oldest who had told him that they were a part of the 8, that they were all called The Specials. The ones Father brought back to his real home because he saw something special in them. He said that the 4th oldest had left; that the 4th didn't want to live like this. Lucifer had stated the 5th oldest had died a couple months earlier, not knowing what life was like beyond the house that they lived in because of her illness, and that after only a couple of months the 6th oldest child left too.
It was strange to Castiel, not remembering any of the siblings that left so early in his life. That the two who left the safe haven of their home, were so young that it was difficult thinking they would survive in this world. Castiel had always thought that maybe they had contacted their real mothers and lived with them; after all, coincidentally The Specials were only a year apart from each other and if Castiel was only ten, he had questioned if the 4th and 6th were even alive at all.
When Castiel turned 16, Michael the oldest sibling had given him documents and files all filled with information about his birth mother. He had immediately travelled to see her. It was easy considering his Father had money, lots of money to spare.
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When he had arrived, Mary Ann Novak was shocked to see him, but she welcomed him. He remembered being stunned to see her as well, he also remembered how shock he was to find out he had a twin; that his father had chosen him, instead of the both of them. His twin's name was James, but Castiel had called him Jimmy instead, it just felt right.
He had learned they were a religious family just like he and his brothers were. Castiel had figured that all the women his Father was with were women who were religious.
He had learned a lot from his mother and he had quickly transferred schools to be closer to Jimmy. Castiel had never been happier or felt more completed in his life.
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It was in college when he had started noticing that he didn't feel attraction towards anyone, yes he notices pretty girls and he notices handsome men but it never makes him want or desire them. And unlike most males who may get hard off porn, it just doesn't bring on the same effect for Castiel….except that one time.
Castiel's first and only time dealing with sex was with a girl named Meg Masters; she has this slight obsession with his brother Lucifer. He remembered how she had to play with him a while before he got hard and then they had sex. It was nothing Castiel cared for and he didn't think he did it right for his first time considering he didn't feel anything at all, but he must have done something right. Castiel remembered silently congratulating himself on watching that porn with the pizza man and the babysitter and then started cursing at himself when Meg couldn't stop asking for more….even after the multiple rejections.
It took years for Castiel to realize that it didn't matter that he couldn't feel attraction towards anyone. He had a job that he loved; he was now a professor and a damn good one at that. He taught religion, folklore and things of the supernatural, his classes were the first to always be filled up.
He was proud.
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Castiel was watching his young niece Claire, the little gem his brother and his wife Amelia had created. Castiel was always surprised that Jimmy and Amelia trusted him with their daughter considering how he is like around kids ...around anybody, but he's glad they trust him at all.
Castiel remembers the day, it was raining extremely hard that night, with a light veil of fog covering the town and reaching towards the nearest city, but despite this Jimmy and Amelia still wanted to go to the theater and see a little play, instead of going to dine at a restaurant like they do every other Thursday.
He remembers how his heart, just out of nowhere, had felt constricted, like it was being squeezed by someone's hands. It had lasted for a few seconds and then just stopped, he barely had time to breath before he got a call from call from Rachel, the 7th sibling telling him that Jimmy and Amelia had died in a head on collision course car accident. That all of the people involved in the accident died around the same time, all of them sustaining some form of spinal injury and head trauma.
Castiel remembers feeling nothing, just like he had always felt living in his Father's home. He feels even more detached from this world, and the only thing anchoring him is a little girl.
Castiel was 30 and Claire was 6 when tragedy decided to strike.
TBC