AN: this is the second chapter in this story, thanks to those who reviewed the first chapter and to you that has this story on alert and to you that read it. This chapter might not be anything like the first one.

I forgot to tell you that the first chapter was in Ashleys' POV but I think that you understood that and this chapter is from Spencers' POV.

Disclaimer: Don't own SoN but that you already knew.

The song in this chapter is: Smiling in love with Caracola

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Chapter 2: Smiling in love

I, I wonder why
All my friends at school tell me I'm a fool
When I'm waiting for you, like I always do
I'm telling you
Will you ever see that we're meant to be
You and me for eternity
Young and free, in my fantasy

Oh ah, oh-baba-doa, yeah oh, yeah oh
Smiling on love
Baby, I love you
Oh ah, oh-baba-doa, yeah oh, yeah oh
Smiling in love, yes I do
'Cause I'm loving you

I can't really remember a day in the past five years that I've truly been happy. Every time I think about when I was truly happy last time was before I made her chose between me and her music. And I still believe that I made the wrong thing when I told her she had to decide.

But back then I needed her to make that decision more or less. I can't blame anyone else but me about this, I and all of my friends even her friends told me that if I made her chose she would chose her music. My friends had even told me from the beginning that I was crazy for being with her but I didn't want to believe them so I made my choice to be with her, and in the end my friends were right. Everyone told me that she never would chose anyone over her music but in my heart I really believed that she would chose me.

Yes, I know that I should have believed them but I had chosen to follow my heart that told me to force forward a decision and she did decide but it wasn't what I thought it would be. I know that she tried to call, text me and send me emails that told me to contact her 'cause she wanted to talk to me but all I did was ignore those. I didn't want her to tell me that we still could be friends, that was something that I wouldn't managed to do it was all or nothing and she had chosen nothing, when she decide to chose her music. But somehow there is this huge problem, I still love her and I can't seem to forget about her.

This has led to I'm sitting here all alone in my room in my parents' home and I know that it's sad that someone that is 24 years is sitting in her room in her parents' house and waiting for her love, that she hasn't seen in five years and don't even know if she still thinks about me. It's just so pathetic but I can't leave this house. There is this big question; what if, she would come by this is the only place that she knows that she could find me. If I had my own place and she would come by here at my parents' house they wouldn't tell her where she could find me, they wouldn't want her to break me one more time. Maybe that my father would tell her but there is no way that my mother would tell her, she did accept us and I know that she can't stand to see me that broken again.

Tonight I'm going to me up with my friends I did promise them to go out with them and to go with us is my so called girlfriend but I don't know if she is that, it's nothing official but if someone asked if I was seeing someone I would have to say yes. This going out thing is nothing big, I didn't want to go but my friends forced me and they do that every once in awhile just so I would go out and see something else then my room.

My so called girlfriend isn't one of my favorite persons', we fight almost all the time and when we fight, can she get violent. I think that I should break things up with her but I don't know how I should do it. I know that it's supposed to be easy but it won't be that, which I know.

Later the same night

We have been out and we're on our way home and during this night Jen, my so called girlfriend has been a pain and that had led up to what I'm going to do when we get home, I need to break it off with her.

"Jen, we need to talk." I said and I didn't want to sound scared even thou I was kind of scared who knew how she would react, to this whole thing.

"Of course we do, babe." She said and she didn't know what I was about to do.

"You know that we kind of have been together and I know that it hasn't been official or anything like that but I think it's time…" I had no chance to say anything more before she interrupted me.

"I think so to, it's about time that we make this official." She said. This wasn't something that I had expected.

"Well that wasn't my thought exactly" I said.

"What do you mean, I don't understand babe. Could you please explain it to me" she said.

"What I thought was more in the line of breaking this off, before it gets to serious. 'Cause I can't be in a relation..." before I could finish I saw a fist coming against me and my face and at that moment I just felt pain. She had hit me in the face with her fist, when I fell I hit my head and after that everything went black. I don't know if anything else happened. I just broke someones' heart and I got physical hurt in the process.

AN: this was the latest chapter and I'm sorry that it ends with a bit of a cliffhanger bur I think the next chapter will be up in a couple of days.

I know that the song might not be the best choice but there was one line in the song that kind of had what I was looking for. You can guess which line it was, and I'll tell you if you're right.

Just let me know what you think about this chapter.