SM OWNS ALL RIGHTS

What do I do now that he doesn't want me anymore? How do I pick myself up and move on from that? How do you move on from what you thought to be true love, a love that you thought was so strong…. I apparently was the only one with this opinion but I guess you live and learn. Even the ones that I had began to think of as family had no problem just leaving me and never looking back. Not that I should have expected anything else, I was just Bella and they were so much more.

That's why I refused to let all of them give up everything just for a nobody like me. I could close my eyes and still see Edw… his face after 3 years like it was yesterday.

The pain and pity in his eyes as he told me he didn't want me anymore and that they were all leaving so I could move on with my life without them. Which to this day I knew was a bullshit excuse. I would never move on from him , I couldn't. And how do you "move on" from family? I could never forget them, they meant to much.

"We are leaving Bella. So you can have a normal life and…." I remember the conversation like it was yesterday.

"No…" I interrupted him, "I won't let all of you leave because of me. There are seven of you…. And only one me. There is no point in all of you giving up everything you have just for me. I will leave. I'll go back to Phoenix to mom and Phil." I could feel my heart shatter into a million pieces but I didn't want his damn pity. "I am sorry for ever bothering you. I know you never wanted me, that I was nothing more that a distraction. Honestly it never made sense for you to love me. I was never enough for you. Never good enough…" I choked out the last few words, taking a deep breath refusing to completely break down in from of him.

"Be.." Edward started and I shook my head. I didn't want to hear excuses and more lies. I knew the truth, I had known all along.

Before I could completely breakdown in front of him I turned to leave. I had gotten a few steps away from him when he yelled out to me.

"Bella, they have already gone. I was going to leave after I talked to you…" I spun around my chest constricting tightly making it hard to breath. They had all left with out even saying goodbye. My "FAMILY" didn't even care enough about me to say goodbye. What was left of my heart shattered.

"Well you might as well call them and have them come back, because I can't stay here any longer." I kept my head down staring at my shoes. Turning back around, unable to look at him any longer crossing my arms over my chest, hugging myself, trying to relieve some of the pain in my chest. "It never made sense for you to love me…. I don't regret getting to know you or your family but seeing that everyone was going to leave without so much as goodbye…." my voice cracked but I took a deep breath and finished "I can see that I was stupid for believing for even a minute that I could ever be a part of your family or that ANY of you even cared for me to start with. I was never enough. So I promise this will be the last time you see me. I will be out of Forks before the morning. Goodbye Edward…. I will always lo…" I couldn't finish, it hurt to much.

I ran back towards the house leaving him standing there stunned and speechless and thankfully for once in my life I didn't fall or trip. I ran into the house and up the stairs to my room. I grabbed the first bag I saw and started throwing clothes into it. That finished and with tears streaming down my face as I picked up the picture of me and Edward. He never loved me. Vampires were good at lying, that's what he told me. I felt like such a dumb ass because it was all a lie. None of them loved me like I loved them and that hurt. My whole world was nothing but a bunch of crap and lies and that pissed me off.

I gathered everything that a Cullen had ever gave to me and put it into a trash bag. I grabbed my bag, the trash bag, the money I was saving for college from my sock drawer, and a screw driver. Giving one more quick glance around the room to make sure I didn't miss anything, then turned to leave.

I pulled out my cell phone and called Charlie (who was fishing) and left him a voicemail, telling him I was leaving and going back home to Phoenix. I was glad I had gotten his voicemail because I knew he would have made it harder by begging me to wait and give him a chance to discuss it with me. I told him I would call when I got home then hung up… Breaking his heart the same way I had months ago when James attacked, but I was 18 this time and I didn't need his permission.

I got into the truck throwing my belongings into the truck cab. Taking my screw driver, I pried the radio that Emmett had installed less than a month ago from the dash and threw it into the trash bag along with the rest of the stuff the Cullen's had gave to me. I grabbed a pen and paper from my pile of crap and wrote a simple note….

I don't want your pity and I'm done with the lies. You can have this stuff back, give it to someone who matters.

B

I put the note in the bag with the things. Tears streamed down my face so hard I could barely see and it felt like there was a weight on my chest making it hard to breath. Taking as deep a breath I could, I started my truck and pulled out of the driveway and headed towards the Cullen's.

I only stopped briefly to place the bag by their mailbox. They are vampires they would find it and if they didn't well at least I didn't have to look at the shit anymore. I couldn't see the house from the road but HE had once told me that they could hear me coming in my truck from a mile away so I know they knew I was there. I made it quick because I couldn't bear to see any of them right now.

After the bag was placed I ran back to my truck and drove off heading home to Phoenix, never looking back, but somehow knowing they got their stuff.