Summary: After Jean's death a very sullen Logan needs comfort and a now human Marie is more then willing to give it to him. Of course the next morning Logan runs away, only to return five years later to a still young looking Marie and a very familiar five year old raven haired boy.

Disclaimer: I Do not own The X-men. The only person in here I own is gonna be the kid. xD

Pairing: Rogan

Warning: M, Don't know what for yet but it's me so yeah to be safe it's rated M. xD

This Is How I Disappear

Chapter One: This is the Best Day Ever

Five years had passed. Five years since the Wolverine had lived at Xavier's Institute for Gifted Youngsters. Five Years since he had been an "x-man". Five years since Alcatraz. Five years since he left Marie behind.

And now he was returning.

He knew he was an idiot, he knew that. Hell he's always been an idiot, ever since the day he ran off with his half brother. Yeah that's right he remembered his past. It took him a few years but eventually he had regained all his memories, the good and the bad. Mostly bad though. At first knowing he was related to a monster like Victor Creed sickened him but Logan had gotten used to the dreadful thought. He hated it but he got it now, it didn't piss him off anymore or sicken him, just annoyed him.

Back to the topic at hand. See he had never ever been planning on going back to Mutant High. It just wasn't where he belonged, filled with so many happy, innocent people. When he had left he never planned on going back even for visits. Like everything else that damn place was nothing but a distant memory in his mind. Until now, until he saw her again.

She was still so damn beautiful and young too. It had been five years but she still had that youthful look on her, one he didn't understand. He hadn't seen her in person; no he was too much of a coward to go anywhere near New York or Westchester in fear of running into someone from the school. He had been watching the TV is all, flipping channels while waiting for his next cage match.

Recently the Mutant Rights Act had passed giving Mutants equal rights to everything humans had and every freedom. Well while flipping he noticed a Mutant Rights conference and naturally stopped there, clearly interested in what "his kind" was up to. He hadn't expected or even thought about seeing Rogue on screen, her auburn hair some what passed her shoulders, those white streaks still framing her face beautifully. She had been debating with a Mutant anti-rights Senator on equal rights for all. He had noticed a much older yet still beautiful Storm in the back ground as well.

He'd be lying if he said just seeing Marie again wasn't his reason for going back. The moment his animal saw her it had roared to life. Lately the only things that made it roar was violence and fighting but Marie still made it purr and growl and made him want to jump up and protect her.

But how could he protect her after he couldn't even protect her from himself? Fucking her then just running out like a coward. That was all he was now, some old coward. Yet here he was driving back to Westchester, back to the mansion, back to where, deep down, he hoped Marie still was. Waiting for him.

Not for you you selfish bastard. You left her she's probably married by now. You lost your chance.

He had, but it had been for the best. He couldn't be with her, there was no way. Not his innocent Marie. He didn't deserve her. So, he convinced himself, he was just going there to say "Hi" to everyone and see if everything was going good. Marie would of course, be angry at him, probably ignore him, hate him but he expected that. 'Ro probably would be pretty angry too, him leaving her with all the kids like that.

Absently Logan noticed the "You are now entering Westchester" sign and blew the smoke of his cigar out through his nose. It would only be twenty minutes or so. And then he'd be there, back at the mansion. God he wasn't ready for this and yet he couldn't turn back. Not yet.

When he arrived Logan didn't get out right away. Instead he just turned off the truck and leaned back watching kids run by playing and such. He hadn't taken Scott's bike when he left; he had just taken the truck. Course now he had a new one. The other finally giving out a few years back. This was probably good, so no one recognized him.

Finally finishing the cigar he smashed it out in his ash tray before throwing it away. Time to face the music. Hell, he looked the same but no one else probably did, except his beautiful Marie. God d- Not his, not his. Just Marie.

Opening his car door he slammed it closed, his boots clunking against the concrete as he headed to the door. The moment he entered he had to pull back quickly; his instincts kicking in, as a kid ran passed him giggling like a wild child.

"Darn it Micheal! Get your butt back here! I swear you'll have detentions for a mont- Oh my god."

Logan looked up seeing a familiar yet new face. Her black hair was longer, cut in a much hotter style. She still wore yellow however. Her face was older too, much more wise now. She was probably in her twenties by now. Jubilee stared at him her eyes wide as she looked him over before letting out a breath.

"Wolvie…?"

A small smile spread over Logan's lips, despite himself. He had missed that annoying nickname believe it or not. Only Jubilee called him that, and Rogue sometimes. The only two kids he'd ever let say that. Kitty too, sometimes. "Hey Yellow. If I remember correctly not long ago it was me threatening' you with detentions…"

A bright completely Jubilee smile covered her face and she ran at him, wrapping her arms around his much larger torso. She was taller, he noticed and still had those pink sunglasses on her head, and he could even hear the faint popping of her gum as she chewed. Some things never changed. "Oh god Wolvie… I can't believe it." She pulled back smiling at him. "I missed you mister! How could you leave like that! God- Crap! Hey I'll rip you a new one later I gotta go catch Micheal. Darn kid thinks he can get away with anything just 'cause he can fly. Ugh!"

Logan nodded and moved so she could walk past him. She paused at the door and turned around her smile kind of fading into a weak one, "Oh and Logan?" Crap she used his name… she was being serious.

"Yeah, Jubilee?"

"Good luck."

Then she was gone and he frowned having the urge to scratch his head in confusion. Good luck? With what? Oh… Marie. Dammit that was a clear sign that the girl was probably angry with him. Well he deserved it and if she wanted to yell or hit him, he'd let her.

Sighing Logan situated his duffel bag on his shoulder to be a bit for comfortable before heading up the stairs. Some faces he recognized, some he didn't. Some people gave him kind smiles while others gave him confused or scared looks. Ignoring it Logan debated on finding Rogue right away but decided against it.

He'd go greet Storm first.

Knocking on her office door Logan waited patiently until he heard the familiar formal voice that belonged to Ororo. "Come in." Pushing open the door Logan walked in deciding not to speak. Finishing some paper work Storm glanced up her eyes instantly falling onto a man she hadn't seen in years.

"Logan? My god." He half expected her to be angry but after a moment she smiled, even though her smile didn't quite reach her eyes. "Well look at that… The Wolverine returned, I never." Getting up she walked to him and hugged him, wrapping her arms around him before pulling back.

"Hey 'Ro. Yeah I did… for a visit anyway."

"Well that's always better then nothing! Isn't it Logan? How are you huh?" He was grateful that she wasn't angry and hopeful too that maybe since she wasn't Rogue wouldn't be either.

You didn't fuck and then leave her idiot.

Silencing the Wolverine, Logan cleared his throat before speaking. "Good, normal stuff I guess. I regained my memories…"

"You did? Oh that's wonderful! I'm so glad for you. I know how much you wanted to remember."

"Yeah." He nodded giving her a smile as well. He had wanted too but now well… they weren't that great of memories to remember. "Hey how is-"

"'Ro have you seen James? I swear to god that boy-"When the sweet voice entered his ears Logan knew instantly who it was. He had smelt her coming but had naturally assumed it was just because she had been all around the school. Her perfect mix of vanilla and strawberries. She even had that sweet southern accent still. Turning around he was met with wide hazel eyes, framed by two perfect strips of white.

"Hey kid."

"L-Logan?" He noticed her swallow and he repressed a sigh waiting for her to yell at him or something. Behind him Storm stayed quiet, obviously not about to save him from his punishment for leaving. But the anger never came; she just simply stared up at him with amazement and shock. Finally Storm interrupted.

"I saw him run down the hall earlier, saying something about hiding." For a moment Logan saw relief and happiness run across Rogue's face before disappearing. He was almost jealous that some kid gave her that much happiness but he ignored it. "He in trouble?"

"Not really… he didn't mean to break it. He's just scared. For a kid who doesn't mind climbing to the top of a twenty foot tree when it comes to punishment he's not very brave." Rogue's glanced flittered to Logan only for a second before clearing her own throat. "I better go find him. Bye." Then she fled and Logan sighed brushing a hand through his hair.

"She hates me doesn't she Storm?"

"She could never hate you Logan. Why you've never understood that I won't ever understand."

"I'm going to go talk to her."

"I wouldn't."

"Why not?"

"Because well…" She looked awkward as she cleared her throat absently reaching up to play with her white hair. "… It's not for me to tell… But you two do need to talk, I guess."

"And we will. See ya' Storm."

"You're room is still open Logan."

"Yeah, thanks."

Heading down the hall Logan only stopped at his room to deposit his bag. What was it that Storm wouldn't tell him? He wanted to know dammit and if he had to get it from Marie he would… Was it that she was married? He hadn't seen a ring… What the hell could it be? Grumbling he moved to her room, hoping she was still in the same one. Logan was just about to open the door when he felt a tug on the bottom of his shirt.

Frowning the Wolverine turned and looked down to see a little boy about five or so looking up at him. He had black messy hair and hazel green eyes, both traits struck familiarity in Logan but he ignored it. "E'cuse me, sir?"

"Yeah?"

"Have you seen my mommy? I think she's angry at me and I don't wanna' get in trouble!" Being so young his child like voice was easy to notice. His mom? Hell most kids came here without their parents… unless his mom was a mutant too. Yeah that was probably it.

"Sorry kid, I doubt I have. I'm kind of busy but-"

"She's really tall and purdy! If you see her don't tell her you saw me…"

Tall and "purdy"? That really narrowed it down, huh? Shrugging he nodded, "Sure no problem."

"Promise?"

"Ugh yeah I promise… whatever."

"Thank you!" Then the kid bounded off down the hall and Logan turned back to the room only to realize Rogue wasn't there, nor was her smell. Okay yeah she had a new room that was expected. Maybe in the teacher hall?

"Logan?"

Another one? Glaring Logan turned around only to see Bobby, "Oh hey Drake."

"Wow you're back… we didn't think- You looking for Rogue?" They stilled called her Rogue? Hmph, he wonder if Bobby was still dating her but his thoughts were answered when Kitty suddenly fazed through the floor coming up besides the blonde to kiss his cheek.

"Oh Logan! You're back! That's… great." She was hesitant too. Dammit why was everyone acting so hesitant with him?

"Yeah for a bit… Where is she?"

"I saw her down stairs heading to the garden probably…"

"Alright, see ya'." Without another word Logan stomped off intending to find Marie and ask what was going on and why she wasn't yelling at him and why Storm and everyone was acting fucking odd!

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