Chapter 2: Failed Attempt
"Hidan I forgot something! Help me find it!" Hidan's father yelled from the front door. Hidan slowly opened his eyes and smiled at how extremely weak he felt.
'D-dad…too late' Hidan though as he welcomed the darkness once again with a smile on his face and Hidan's dad opened the door to the bedroom
"HIDAN DID YOU HEAR ME?" his father asked angrily and looked to the floor to see his son's unconscious body with the overly bleeding wrists and the bloody razorblade nearby
"SHIT!" his father yelled running over to his son to see if he still had a pulse and growled out when he felt one.
"YOU FUCKING LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT!" He yelled and raised a fist to hit him but stopped when knowing Hidan would be in a worst state of dying. Hidan's dad picked him up and ran out of the house to the car and drove to the hospital under 5 minutes, breaking a few traffic laws along the way. At the hospital Hidan was put into surgery to save his life
Hours passed when Hidan finally came to. He noticed he was in a pure white room, alone.
'Where am I? Am I dead?' Hidan asked himself looking around and stopped at his wrists, which was obviously healed to an extent. Hidan froze as he ran his fingers across the new scars.
'…D-did h-he…save me? Wh-why…? Probably to kick and beat around…' Hidan thought bitterly as he sat up and put his legs to his chest and put his arms on his knees. Hidan let his head fall onto his arms and depressingly, and somewhat angrily, stared at the wall to the right of the room. The door opened and a nurse came in and saw Hidan up
"Oh… you're awake, that's great" the nurse said professionally but at the same time happy as the boy is awake
"Whatever" Hidan mumbled in an emotionless dull tone and she sighed
"I'll be right back" she said and Hidan rolled his eyes as he saw her leave. She reentered the room with Hidan's father, who looks nervous
"A-are you ok Hidan? I was so scared" He said in a fake caring tone and Hidan growled slightly
"Why do you care?" Hidan spat out, voice full of venom making his father fake wince
"Ok, Kato-San, I'm going to get the doctor, pleas watch over your son"
"Of course" he said gently and she smiled and left. Hidan's father's happy and worried act instantly fell as he growled and pulled Hidan to him by the collar of his shirt and Hidan froze in fear
"For this little fucking stunt, you are going to pay… right when we get home" he growled out silently and angrily. He let go of Hidan's shirt making Hidan cough slightly, "When the doctor comes in, you better not speak if you know what's good for you"
The doctor came in and Hidan's dad's fake worry returned
"Is Hidan ok?" his father asked and Hidan put his legs to his chest and growled slightly
"Well he is suicidal" she said and Hidan glared to the side
"Why is he suicidal?" Hidan's dad asked in fear and Hidan rolled his eyes
'Like you don't know!' Hidan yelled in his mind in venom.
"Well, I'm no psychologist, but I'm thinking that something traumatic, some place is causing this suicidal behavior" the doctor said 'shocking' Hidan's father
"What should I do?" Hidan's father asked
"I recommend you taking to a psychologist to see what's going on with his mind and find out the problem" the doctor said and Hidan's father nodded
'Like he would' Hidan thought bitterly and the doctor looked to Hidan
"So, young man, how are you feeling?" she asked and Hidan looked to his father who nodded and looked back to her
"Like shit" Hidan said and the doctor smiled
"Don't worry, you'll get the help you need soon" she said and Hidan resisted the urge to roll his eyes. Soon, my ass… his dad would never take him to get help… he would risk getting caught abusing his son and he is sadistic.
"Well he's free to go" the doctor said turning to the suicidal boy's parent. Hearing this made Hidan's blood run cold. Home so soon? Fuck, Hidan knows he is in deep shit trying to commit suicide, but he wished that the hospital would let him stay there a few days so he could recuperate before sending him back. After some paperwork, Hidan's dad took him to the car and started to drive home. It was completely silent in the car which scared the hell out of Hidan; his father usually talked or, in most cases, yelled even if Hidan was in trouble. Hidan began to shake when their house came to view. Right when Hidan got into the house, his father kicked him making him fly into the wall across the hall. Hidan groaned in pain and slid down the wall knowing his body has not healed from the previous beating… and rape. Hidan's dad walked over to him and brutally pulled him to his feet
"Now why did you go and do a stunt like that? Don't you like it here?" his dad asked and Hidan turned his head to the side only to be harshly pulled to meet his dad's, "answer my fucking question!"
"No" Hidan answered without thinking and got punched hard in the gut causing him to lean forward on his dad's arm and gasped
"Wrong fucking answer"
"F-fuck…" Hidan said and his father started punching and kicking him more and after a few minutes he let his son fall to the ground
"I need to go, you go straight to bed, you hear?" he ordered and Hidan, unable to speak, nodded, "oh and don't go looking for any sharp objects to try to kill yourself, I hid them all away. You are NOT escaping me" he said leaving. Hidan stared across the hall in shock before getting up and going to his room. There Hidan fell on his bed and started crying really hard
"Th-this is so un-fucking-fair…" Hidan mumbled as sobs erupted from his mouth. Hidan slowly cried himself to sleep, it took a few hours. In the morning Hidan woke up from the little sleep he got and groaned deeply. Deciding to get ready for school, he quickly left as fast as he possibly could so he wouldn't have to confront his father
On the way to school, Hidan looked to his wrists and had tears burn the edges of his eyes. There were the two scars of the only chance he had to escape everything and he had to fuck it up. These scars are the reminder he is doomed to the life of his abusive father and loneliness. The universe… what did Hidan do to it for it to hate him so much?
In class, Hidan was the only one there since he left as early as possible. Hidan sighed deeply and laid his head on his desk seriously depressed of what happened the day before
"What's the matter with you?" someone asked and Hidan looked to the side, having wide eyes as he saw Kakuzu
"K-Kakuzu…I—" Hidan started but got cut off
"Wait, I don't care" Kakuzu said coldly and Hidan narrowed his eyes
"No one ever does" Hidan mumbled and Kakuzu rolled his eyes
"You are such an emo reject" Kakuzu said and Hidan felt like he needed to gasp but forced the feeling away as he took a piece of paper out and started drawing. On the way to his desk, Kakuzu looked to Hidan seeing the scars on his wrists and had wide eyes before going to his desk to get ready for class. Hidan sighed deeply when the bell ran for another day of being the 'reject' to everyone.
After class, Kakuzu walked to Hidan, who just collected his things, and pulled him into the bathroom
"What do you want?" Hidan asked knowing that he would be beaten up again. Kakuzu and his friends' favorite activity after class or after school
"What happened?" Kakuzu asked grabbing Hidan's wrists and Hidan rolled his eyes
"What does it look like?" Hidan asked as if it was the most obvious thing and Kakuzu sighed
"Why?" Kakuzu asked
"Why do you ask? You don't care remember?" Hidan asked harshly and pulled his wrists out of Kakuzu's grip and walked to the door
"So you tried to kill yourself because of what I said yesterday?" Kakuzu asked making Hidan stop in his tracks and turn around
"Don't you dare think you have the fucking power to make me suicidal, there's a lot of reasons I have to leave this damn fucked up world AND DON'T fucking believe I would ever tell you!"
"Why not?" Kakuzu asked and Hidan looked to him with cold eyes
"Because. Now leave the reject alone" Hidan said walking out of the bathroom towards his next class
"…Hidan" Kakuzu mumbled as Hidan left and shook his head, 'Why the fuck do I care? Oh right I don't' Kakuzu thought as he left for his next class
With Hidan, he was walking to his next class ignoring the insults that were thrown at him because his mind was on Kakuzu. He would've told Kakuzu about the abuse and, now, rape he was receiving from his father, but 2 things stopped him
1) His father would not only hurt him, but would hurt Kakuzu as well, and Hidan would never let that happen since he loves him too much
2) As painful as it is, Hidan knew deep within his heart that Kakuzu was faking being concerned for him and would use his reasons to commit suicide against him, the 'reject'
Hidan sighed sadly before entering the classroom and reached in his bag and got out a pair of black loose short wrist warmers (the arm warmers that don't go past the wrist) and put them on. He refuses to look at his failed attempt to be free. Now he is stuck in the painful world he has been in for years, alone, forever.