A/N- I am excited to write this story. I deleted two of the songs that I was going to use because they just did not fit into the story. Also the song I will going to do for this chapter was postponed to a later one because I just felt that it was not the right time. I am still looking for song ideas. Either leave them in a review or pm me. I am going to try to update everyday. I do not see this story going beyond 15 chapters.
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Once Blaine arrived home we went straight for the mail. His heart leapt when he saw that there was another package from Kurt. This time he knew what was inside but that didn't stop him from running up the starts and ripping it opened. He took out his cd, put it in the player and pressed play.
"I don't know if these cd's are going to help me or not. It has only been one day so I guess it is still to early to know. I heard this song today while I was grocery shopping. I stopped right in the middle of the aisle and listened to the lyrics. It took everything I had not to break down and cry right then and there.
There is a lyric that says, who's sorry now. I know that you have told me that your sorry but are you really? Are you really truly sorry for breaking my heart. For treating us as though we were nothing. Am I every going to be able to trust you again Blaine. Just saying your name, like I had just done, makes my heart flip for joy but also break at the same time.
I would talk to Rachel and tell her how I am feeling but she would manage to somehow turn this into a her and Finn thing. I do not need to hear about other people's problems when I have my own to take care of. What do I do Blaine? What would any other normal person do. I feel like I should kick you to the curb, forget you exist and just get on with my life. However there is another part of me that wants to call you, tell you that I love you and that we can get through this.
People say once a cheater always a cheater. I don't know that you won't do this to me again if I gave you another chance. We still have 8 months before you would be coming to New York. You barely last a month without me there. How can I believe that you would last another 8 months. Hell for that matter, how do I know that your not still messing around.
This was suppose to clear my head but now it's just making it more jumbled so I am just going to end this now and play the song."
Even though it broke Blaine's heart to hear all the self doubt in Kurt's voice it still made him happy to hear him speaking to him again even if it was through a recorded message.
There was a time when we were down and was a place when we were starting let the bough breakwe let the heartache inWho's sorry now?
That was an easy answer for Blaine. He was sorry. He was so very, truly sorry. He would do anything for a chance to prove how sorry he was.
There was a world when we were standing still -And for a moment we were separated. And then you found himyou let the stranger in
Who's sorry now
Blaine noticed how Kurt dubbed his voice in and changed her to him. It was true though. Blaine did let Eli in to their relationship. He was the one who continued the conversation with him and was the one who went over to his house. who's sorry now?
Whatwhat kind of fool tears it apartLeaving me pain and sorrow -Losing' you nowWondering why. -Where will I be tomorrow?
I got it I'm a fool. I will never stop knowing that I am a fool
Forever more that's what we are
To be without each other
We'll be remembering when
There was a time when were down and out
There was a place when we were starting over
We let the bough break
We let the heartache in
Who's sorry now
Who's sorry now
What-what kind of fool
Tears it apart
Leaving me pain and sorrow
Losing you now
How can I win
Where will I be tomorrow
Was there a moment when I cut you downPlayed have I done
I only apologize for being as they sayThe last to know
It has to show when someone is in your eyes.
Oh god. I hope he doesn't really believe that someone is in my eyes. I only have eyes for him. I will only ever have eyes for him. Kurt had been nothing but wonderful.
What kind of fool tears it apart
Tears it apart
Leaving me in pain and sorrow
Losing you now
How can I win
Where will I be tomorrow
Forever more
that's what we are
To be without each other
We'll be remembering when.
Blaine knew that he shouldn't call Kurt but he had too. He needed to let Kurt know what he was thinking. As usual his call was ignored and sent to voicemail. Blaine wondered if Kurt even listened to his messages or if he just ignored them as he did his calls.
"Hey Kurt, it's Blaine. Again. Honey I love you so much and I only ever have eyes for you. Please believe me when I say that there is no one else for me but you. Your right though, I did let the stranger in and I am incredibly sorry. I know that I sound like a broken record telling you how sorry I am but it's true. It will always be true, just as my love for you. God I love you so much. I'll leave you alone now."
Blaine hung up and laid on his bed letting all the recent events run through his mind. He knew he was a loser and deserved to be alone and miserable for the rest of his life.
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Thank you to everyone that read the first chapter and continue to read it.
The song from the first chapter was Goodbye to you by Michelle Branch. The song in this chapter was What kind of fool from Glee presents the Warblers.
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