Isabelle

Simon sat down on the bed, I could see in his face he couldn't- no not couldn't, he didn't want to- understand, believe, this is happening, that Clary is gone. I was explaining to him what had happened only an hour ago, but he still believes she is herself - he doesn't believe she is dangerous for us.

Since we came back from the fight against Sebastian, where Clary saved Jace from Sebastian's control, Jordan moved in with Maia – a thing Simon supported so badly I think he gave them the idea – and Simon was alone all the time, except when Clary or I came to be with him – but he always kicked us out as fast as he could.

Right now we were in his room, which was still empty and white on every wall, like a big white box with a bed and a small window.

"I think you should move in the institute, since now you can say god's name it wont be a problem for you to come in there," I started to say – it wasn't the first time I offered it .

"No", he answered staring to the other edge of the room, his eyes focusing on one specific point on the wall, "it's not a good idea".

"You already told me that answer a million times!" I told him "Why not?"

he took a deep breath- a thing he kept to do even tough he didn't have to breath.

"You remember I told you that Luke joined the dark side only to try to save Leia, and in the end he was the true reason she had died?" he asked me after a few minutes.

"Yes," how could I forget it? It was the night I was drunk and asked him to tell me a story and he had told me all about Star Wars. I gave him a big part of my heart on that night, but still not all of it because a small peace I wanted to save from harm – I wasn't as dumb as my brothers who both had their heart broken. "so whats your point?"

"The Irony is that he tried to save her and only killed her in that way," he said and looked into my eyes, I could see a sparkle of sadness in them "I don't want that horrible irony in our story, I don't want to put you in danger at all".

"And how would you do that?" I asked, anger starting to spread throw my body, "By not doing anything, and hiding in this house?"

He looked hurt, but I didn't care, "Im not hiding here, right the opposite way, im waiting in an open place where I would be only one getting hurt – and not you, or Clary."

"Don't you think it's too late for Clary now?" I said angrily not thinking what Im saying, he turned his face to the window, but not before I could see the hurt in his eyes.

We sat in the room for a long time- it could have been an hour or even more. I didn't want to leave yet so I just sat there and calmed down; I didn't want to see Jace's reaction for my mistake yet.

"What did you mean when you said you are waiting in an open place? Whom are you waiting for?" I asked after what seemed like more than a hour.

He started telling me about how he met Raphael a few weeks ago, when he still had the mark on his forehead, how he had laughed at him for wanting him to be his day time bodyguard and by laughing making Raphael so angry, that he promised to be the first one to try to kill him when the angels wont protect him anymore – and now that the sign is gone he know soon Raphael will start to hunt him down.

"Why didn't you tell me anything about it?" I asked.

"I didn't think there was anything to be afraid from because I thought the sign will never go, and now I just want you to be in as less danger as possible." He answered.

I came closer to him and kissed him, he was tensed for a minute and then kissed me back.

After a few minutes I backed up and said; "Please come to the institute today, if something will happen to you I don't know what I would do."

He most have seen it in my eyes, but he didn't even try to decline my offer - he just said "I will be there at night fall".

"okay".

"I love you" he said after a short hesitation.

That must have been my breaking point because on that moment I felt myself giving up to him, all my heart was his now – just what I never wanted to let happen. But I didn't tell him I loved him back, I just kissed him.

We continued kissing and then at noon I left, knowing it was time for me to face Jace, and go back to reality.

"At night fall," he said as I went through the door.

As I left the house I felt something was watching me, and it brought a shudder trough my body - something is wrong.