Settling In.

Getting on this plane was the most terrifying thing I've ever done. I'm 19 years old, travelling all the way to New York City. On my own. Its frickin' terrifying.

I was excited that my cousin was coming tonight. I haven't seen her in about a year, and now she's actually going to be living with me! Its going to be amazing. Cory still isn't happy about it though, every time I try to bring it up he either changes the subject really quickly or makes an excuse to leave the room. I need him to see that Hayley living here wont be as bad as he's thinking its going to be.

Lea's rushing around making sure everything is perfect for when Hayley gets here. I roll my eyes just thinking about it. I'm not pleased about this, I was hoping that we could have kids of our own in the future and not a relative with us. She keeps trying to make me change my mind about it all, but at the moment its not working. For all I know; Hayley can be a total bitch. But Lea keeps saying that she's nothing like that and wouldn't harm a thing. I don't know, it just may take me a while to get used to this new way of living.

Walking up to Lea and Cory's place was not as terrifying as I thought it would be. It seems pretty large, and very camped out. Maybe I could get used to living here...

'Cory, babe, please. Hear me out?' I asked. He keeps ignoring me when it comes to discussing Hayley. I need him to listen to me.

'Lea, I've already put my point across. It may take me a while to get used to Hayley living here. I've said it once and ill say it again, I want a family with you. I want a kid of our own and not a relative to live with us.'

'Babe, look. She's nearly here so please just be nice. She's excited about this' I said. Convincing him is going to take longer than I thought...

I hesitate. Knocking this door is going to be the beginning of a new life. I'm scared yet excited. Suddenly I hear footsteps coming towards the door, and Lea's there behind the door and her boyfriend is behind. Cory Monteith.

'LEA. Oh my god, hi. Haven't seen you in over a year!' she pulled me into a hug and I had to hug back. But I could see Cory was looking away and seems more interested in the wall beside. It seems that Cory has a problem with me being here..

Time had passed and Lea had showed me my room and where everything was. I still, for some reason, had butterflies about living here. As I had just finished packing away everything, I could hear squabbling from downstairs..

'For fuck sake, Cory. Can't you just get passed what happened?. I know it was tough and all, but I need to look after Hayley now. She's upset that her best friend left for Nashville and went off the rails, but she's here with us now whether you like it or not. Sometime you are going to have to talk to her and sort yourself out!'

'Get passed what happened?. How could I get over what happened so quickly Lea?!'

'At least try!' I raised my voice a little, but toned it down after I realised that Hayley could possibly hear us. 'With what we went through it was tough and it has taken a while to get over it, and maybe I am still feeling the pain. But I've had to push it aside. And need you to do the same thing.' With that I looked over at Cory and he shook his head and I could see tears in his eyes.

'Lea, don't you get it?!. Its hard to get over what happened. When you had first told me that you wer-'

'DONT EVEN GO THERE CORY!' I shouted then. I don't want him to remind me. I could feel the tears stinging at the back of my eyes. I looked into his eyes and saw sadness and I think I can see guilt.

'lea, baby. I'm sorr-'

I look to the floor and shake my head. I look up at him, a single tear rolls down my face. 'just leave it okay Cor?. Look I'm going to go to bed and ill talk to you tomorrow okay?' He started to walk towards me as I moved towards the door. He tried to grab my wrist and pull me back, but I got out of the way. 'Don't, okay?. Just sort this out with Hayley and ill talk to you in the morning'. With that I left the room.

'Woah!' I thought to myself. As Lea and Cory had finished their little argument I heard Lea walk upstairs and then knock onto my door.

'Hey Lee, you okay? I asked. I could tell she wasn't but, I had to at least ask.

She looked at me, with a sadness in her eyes and replied 'yeah, just a rough night. I'm going bed, so ill talk to you tomorrow.'

'Okay, night Lee'. We said goodnight and gave each other a hug, and then as she walked away I thought to myself that its going to take me a while to get used to living like this...