Chapter two! A little drama and a little hint of what Deidara thinks of this whole adoption thing.

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Everything felt so strange now. Deidara and I went along fine still, but now that we decided to adopt a baby, he seemed more fidgety than normal. He can't sit still and is constantly checking if our apartment is baby proof. Of course it isn't. We don't even have room for a child here, so we have to move before the baby actually gets here. I'm worried that he actually doesn't want the baby, but just said yes to make me happy. Isn't this a decision you should make together and not for the other? You should both want the child, right?

I just hope everything goes alright when we have the appointment with the adoption agency. And I hope that if he doesn't want this baby, he tells me before we actually go there. I can't go through all this and then in the end not have the baby. I just want to do this so badly.

After another fidgeting fit of Deidara, him opening every cabinet and placing all the cleaning stuff somewhere else again, he went out to get some groceries. It's mean of me to say, but it was nice to have some quiet time now. I love him to death, but his constant walking around and soft mumbling gets on my nerves. I think I will eventually grab him by the shoulders and shake him until he spits out what's bothering him. Although with his personality in mind, I might get smacked in the head. Such a little fighter he is.

Now that I think about it, he's been gone for a long time already. I watched a complete movie and that never happens. He likes shopping, so he tends to be away a lot longer than normal people do, but more than two hours is really absurd. Should I go check on him or just wait him out a little bit? I could just give him a call and see how far along he is.

The phone right once, twice and then a few times more until I get switched to his voicemail. He never let me get to voicemail. Why wasn't he answering his phone? I called him again and again, but his cheery voicemail kept playing at the end. Leaving a message wouldn't work, since he didn't listen to his voicemail. Found out the hard way when I left a message I was running late and then got yelled at for leaving him waiting in the restaurant. We still don't dare going there again…

Okay, now it was time to actually find him. I grabbed my keys and jacket and was out the door without a glance back. I don't care if anything gets stolen or the whole place burns down to ashes, destroying everything we own. The only important thing to me is Deidara and he is the only thing I need and hopefully I can soon add a baby to that list.

The store was close by, but also kind of big, so getting through it took me some time. Usually he was at the chocolate isle, deciding which his favourite flavour of the week is. Getting there I didn't see Deidara anywhere. The chocolate isle was empty of people and he wasn't in any of the others. He wasn't even in the store!

I started to worry more and more, running around the store just to check again, but he wasn't there. Where the hell could that blonde have gone? I checked the stores around the supermarket, but he wasn't there, not even in his favourite clothing store. He had told me he wanted the new leather jacket they had and he had gone back a few times, but found it too expensive still. I was planning on giving it to him on his birthday in a couple of weeks, but I had to keep an eye out that he didn't buy it himself.

This was just crazy. I'm just overreacting. I probably just missed him and he's already home. He's about to call me and ask where I went and why I didn't tell him I was leaving. Yeah, that should happen about now. I walked back towards our apartment building, waiting for my phone to ring, but it never did. My fingers were clenched around it, pushing the ring out of it. Why wasn't he calling me?

I walked by the pet store that was right next to our apartment building. Being so familiar with it, I didn't pay much attention to it. Until I saw that flash of blond hair through the window. Was that Deidara?

The door ringed when I stepped in and the owner of the pet store gave me a friendly smile and nodded a hello. I wasn't paying attention to him much. I just watched the back of my boyfriend, standing on front of the cages filled with animals. I stepped closer to him, passing by the dog food and dog treats. Great the smell will be all over me now…

I stop right next to Deidara and see his blue eyes focused on a mother cat with a few kittens. He didn't even acknowledge me standing there. I placed my hand on his shoulder, but he just shook it off and kept staring at the kittens.

The shop owner walked towards us and stood next to me. 'He's been here for a while, but when I tried talking to him, he didn't respond. I'm not sure what's going through his mind, but he isn't willing to share.'

I nodded at him and then turned back to Deidara. He wasn't even speaking? 'Dei, are you coming home now?' I asked softly, not wanting to spook him, but he still didn't look at me. So I tried again. 'Dei, what are you doing here?'

He still stayed silent, but suddenly his hand went up and he pointed at one of the kittens. 'The little brown one, his mother keeps pushing him away and all he wants is his mother's love.' I looked at the little crawling creature. They couldn't be more than a week old and the little brown one he was pointing at was the smallest of the bunch. I also noticed one of his legs wasn't functioning right.

'His mother just realizes he is the weakest out of all her babies, Dei. It wouldn't make it in the real world. That's just how nature works,' I know it was harsh of me to say, but it was the truth. It was natural selection, survival of the fittest and the little brown one wouldn't be strong enough to make it alongside his brothers and sisters.

He did look at me then, his blue eyes blazing with anger. 'And who are you to decide if he would make it or not. Maybe she's wrong and he will be strong and fast. Maybe he will beat all his brothers in mouse catching. She doesn't even give him the chance to prove himself!' He had been yelling, at me, at the shop owner, but mostly at the mother cat herself. Tears were falling from his eyes and he just let them. I wasn't sure what was going on now, but something had really upset him.

'Dei,' I said carefully. 'Do you want to take the little fellow home?'

He wiped the tears away with his sleeve now and turned towards me. 'Yes,' he said resolute and walked to the counter of the pet store. The owner and I were staring at him like he had lost his mind.

Then the shop owner turned to me. 'You do know that the chance this kitten will survive is very slim. He didn't get enough milk from his mother, so his immune system isn't so good. It might take you a lot of vet trips.

I watched my blonde tapping his foot impatiently at the counter, his eyes glazed over again. This kitten must mean something more to Deidara. Maybe it represented our baby and how he or she would be abandoned by his or her mother. Is this how he felt about adoption? Of course his mother had died at childbirth, but his father had still taken him in. Was that normal for him? Was that how he thought things were supposed to go?

'It doesn't matter how much time, energy or money the little fellow will cost. We will take him of your hands.' It would be the thing I do for Deidara. If the blonde was willing to have a child with me, because I wanted one. Then I'm willing to have a cat, because he wanted one. It's all about giving and taking sometimes.

The shop owner sighed deeply, clearly thinking of us as fools. We probably were and if the kitten dies, Deidara will be in a lot of pain, but for now he'll be happy and that is the most important thing in the world.

'He won't cost you anything here, since I wouldn't have made any money on him anyway. Just take him with you and go home. I won't be responsible when something bad happens, okay?' I just nodded and the guy got a box with a towel in it and placed the small kitten inside. Happily Deidara got the box out of his hands and watched his new little kitten.

'Go home, Dei.' I'll be there in a few minutes. He just nodded and went on his way. It was very close by, so the kitten didn't have to be outside for too long. Now I had to buy all the required stuff since the kitten needs to eat. Powder milk, a little bottle, a basket for him to lie in and some bowls for water and food when he gets a little older. The rest I will buy when he needs it.

When I got back home as well, Deidara was nowhere to be seen, but I called me out of the bedroom. Thankfully he wasn't gone again, because I would've seriously freaked out. I will deny completely that I had freaked already.

Deidara was sitting on the bed with the little kitten on the duvet. I gave him the basket I bought and immediately mommy instinct kicked in or something, because he went out of his way to actually make it a nice warm place for the kitten. I had never seen Deidara so caring as this. Well, maybe sometimes for me, but he didn't ever make my bed. Ever.

He kept talking to the kitten in some baby like voice and I couldn't make out a word he said. 'What's his name?' I asked softly, not to disturb his baby talk.

A huge blush spread on his face and he looked at the brown little fellow when he answered. 'I named him Ita since he's just like you when I first met you. Blind to everything that could bring happiness, but he actually really is blind.' With the tip of his finger he petted over the small little head, not putting much pressure on it.

'So I was blind, huh?'

'Pretty much,' he said with a huge smile on his face. I had to smile back, knowing he was sort of right. Although I was just as blind as he was himself since he faked being straight. Who could be more wrong of us two?

Suddenly he grabbed the back I still hold in my hand and started reading the description on the powder milk. He walks off with it and the little bottle and a few minutes later comes back with the bottle filled with milk and him shaking it so the warmth spreads enough.

He sits back down on the bed and lifts the little head. He places the pacifier against Ita's mouth and the little kitten begins to drink eagerly, sucking all the milk out of the bottle. We watch him drink until he his full and then he lets go of the pacifier and rolls up in his new warm bed. He falls asleep soon after while we still watch him.

'Did you ever do groceries?' I ask after a long moment of silence.

He giggles softly and that is all the answer I need.

'Take out it is then!'

Characters © Masashi Kishimoto

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