Present time.

I get out of bed when the clock hits 7 in the morning. I make my way to the bedroom to get cleaned up for the day.

It's about an hour later when I make my way to work. Well, my fake work. It's part of my cover. Apparently one of Cage his men works there. I just need to figure out who it is. I need to find Cage because I've given up so much for this.

I finally arrive at the supermarket. It's not a big store so everyone's pretty close and knows each other pretty well. What's kinda convenient for me. I've been gaining everyone's trust for over 6 months now. 6 months.. since.. since I broke myself..since I broke her.

My thoughts are interrupted by Octavia who's standing next to me.

''Alex!'' she yells at me.

''Huh?'' I look around, taken by surprise.

''Finally. I've got your attention. Did you even hear what I said?'' she says while laughing at me.

''To be honest? No. I'm so sorry. I was in deep thoughts'' I admit to her. Octavia has become by best friend ever since I started working here for the mission. She seemed to really get me and was pretty cool to hang out with as well.

''Girl..you and your thoughts'' Octavia says to me while laughing way too hard.

''I was just telling you that I know the perfect girl for you. I mean I just met her but she's totally your type. She's smoking hot'' she tells me with a smirk.

''You know I don't date, O'' I tell her. I'm trying to change the subject because talking about meeting someone else, even thinking about it hurts too much. I just can't see myself with anyone else besides her. Her, the one person I had to leave. I broke her, so I just couldn't move on from that.

Octavia looks at me before taking a deep breath ''Alex..I don't know what happened with your ex. You never told me, but I do know that you deserve to be happy. I know you.. you're an amazing person, and whatever makes you think that you don't deserve a new love..that's not true. You do deserve it'' trying to make believe her words.

Unfortunately I knew better. I knew I did something horrible to the girl I loved so much.

''I don't deserve it'' I admit before focusing back on filling up the candy corner.

''Look, Alex. Just give it a chance. I already set up a date for you. Give this girl a chance, I think she will make you feel different'' Octavia says before turning back to her work as well.

The rest of the day passes by really quick. After we finished up our work Octavia gave me the details for the so called blind date she set up for me.

I finally arrive home about an hour later. I sit down on the couch with a beer I just grabbed from the fridge. I turn on the tv but somehow I can't seem to focus. Octavias words got to me. Was she right after all? Did I really deserve another chance at love? Because I can't seem to forgive myself for what I did.

I grab the note Octavia gave me and look at the adress. It's about 15 minutes away from my house. I look at the time she wrote down and notice that if I get dressed now I can still make it in time. So I get up and decide to give it a shot.

I rush myself towards the bar where I am suppossed to meet this ''smoking hot'' girl Octavia was telling me about. I walk inside and ask for table 12.

The waitor shows me the way to the table. I sit down and decide to wait for my date to arrive.

What happens next wasn't something I could've expected. I didn't even notice that my date had arrived because I was scrolling through my phone. But I get interrupted by a loud scream.

I look up and to my surprise I see her standing right in front of me. Her, the girl I left behind..broken.

Another scream escapes her throat. She looks confused, staring me right in the eyes. Somehow words don't seem to escape her mouth. She stands there frozen in front of me.

I think it's about a couple minutes later when the silence disappears ''LEXA?'' ''How?'' 'You died!'' she said with disbelieve, trying to figure out if this was real or not.

''Clarke..'' I mumbled between my tears that start to form. I looked up meeting her once so bright eyes that are now replaced with an empty, ice cold look. It gave me chills. I know that I have something to do with the fact that she looks so empty.

I try to say another word but she interrupts me ''HOW COULD YOU?'' she yells at me. ''I cried over you..everyday, for the last six months.. I thought I lost you..''

6 months ago.

''I'm sorry Lexa but your cover has been blown..'' the chief tells me. ''I know you worked so hard for this the last couple of years. But we can't risk losing everything we've worked for. I need you to destroy every evidence of your undercover life. I need you to start a new life.. with a new name. Are you willing to do that?''

I try to take in the information the chief is telling me but it's too much to handle. I take a deep breath before answering ''What about Clarke? I can't just leave her.. She's my girlfriend.''

''I'm sorry Lexa but you've got no other choice. She's a liability. As long as she's by your side you will never be completely focused'.

''But..'' I try to find the right words. But I can't.

''You don't have any choice. You know that Cage must be stopped above all else. I'm sorry Lexa. But this is the only way..''

''Alright..'' I nod at the chief ''So when do I leave for my new safe house?''

''Today'' he tells me ''But you're not going to like how we're gonna destroy everything about your old life..''

It's about two hours later when everything is set up for the plan. I'm pacing around, waiting for the signal to cross the road. I feel sick to my stomach for thinking how this is going to affect Clarke. But my duty to my job comes first. I always told myself I needed to make decisions with my head and not my heart. Leaving Clarke means breaking everything I ever cared for. But as the chief said, it's the only way to stop Cage.

My thoughts are interrupted by my phone that starts vibrating. That's the signal I say to myself. I look around one more time. I spot the person that's about to shoot me. What I didn't see in that time was Clarke standing just a few metres away.

I walk towards the traffic lights when I get stopped in my tracks by one of my fellow officers. He grabs a gun from his side. Holding his finger on the trigger before releasing it. Shooting me right in the stomach. I fall to the ground, releasing the blood bag under my shirt. Blood is starting to flow around me. My eyes are about to close when I hear someone screaming my name. ''Lexa! Lexa!'' are the last words I hear before everything turns black.