Despite his initial guilt over hurting Donny, Raph didn't change his ways. He pulled away from his brothers and actually used Donny's tendency to flinch to his advantage. Anytime Donny tied to reel Raph in, he would simply fain a punch and Donny would pull away. No one bothered him as his sleep schedule shifted to sleeping all day and staying out all night. Splinter tried once to forbid him, but Raph became more defiant.

The pain in his father's eyes registered, but that didn't make him stop. Raph was determined to keep the city as safe as he could.

He managed to get himself a full suit, to hide the fact that he was a giant mutant turtle, and now he didn't have to worry about being caught on camera. He could go wherever he wanted, thought he still stayed in the shadows; old habits die hard. Someone somewhere called him the Nightwatcher and the name stuck. He had to admit that he liked it.

After his nightly patrol, he would return in the morning and practice with his brothers, causing Donny to flinch as often as possible, just for fun. Then he would go to bed while Mikey and Donny headed off to work and Splinter watched his shows.

One night Raph woke up feeling strange. For the first time in almost a year he wanted to be near his brothers. He got up and headed out of his room in search of one of them. Raph first passed Donny's room only to see that it was empty. The genius was most likely in his lab working, again.

So Raph looked in to Mikey's room. His little brother had gotten over his bitterness towards Raph quickly, he always did. Mikey just wasn't the type to hold a grudge for very long. He was laying on his bed, plastron down, reading a comic book. His tail flipped back and forth as his raised feet swayed.

"Hey Mikey," Raph mumbled, closing the door.

Mikey looked over his shoulder, "Hey, Raph. What do you want?"

Rubbing the back of his neck, Raph walked over to the bed and sat down. "We haven't talked in a while. We used to be close. I was just wondering how you were doing."

"It's not my fault that we haven't talked in a while." Mikey rolled to his side and at first he looked a bit irritated. But then his eyes dilated slightly and he looked up at Raph in confusion. "I'm fine," he said slowly as his eyes squinted. "There's something different about you." Sitting up, he sniffed at the air, "You smell different. Did you start using a different soap?" He sniffed at Raph again, "I like it."

"Thanks," Raph didn't know what else to say. He didn't know how or why he smelled different. It wasn't like he could smell himself. All he knew was that he felt different. Raph looked into Mikey's eyes then his gaze drifted down to the smaller turtle's parted lips. Before he knew what he was doing, Raph was leaning in to kiss Mikey.

Their beaks brushed against each other and Mikey let out a soft, surprised sigh. For a few heartbeats, their lips hovered close to each other before their mouths pressed together.

The thing that surprised Raph the most was that Mikey wasn't pulling away. In fact he pressed in, opening his mouth to deepen the kiss. This only served to further ignite the desire within Raph. Without breaking the kiss, he guided Mikey back onto his carapace and Raph laid down on top of him. Their tongues continued to twist together as their arms wrapped around each other, holding each other tight.

Raph ground his lower plastron into Mikey's and the smaller turtle responded by bucking his hips. Every time their bulging slits rubbed together it caused the knot in Raph's stomach to tighten. The need for air had them breaking the kiss.

Mikey gasped, "I can't believe we're doing this."

"We don't have to tell anyone," Raph husked then started to suck Mikey's neck at the pulse point.

"Dude, you think I want anyone to know we're doing this?" Mikey panted. "I don't even want to know. We're brothers. We're both dudes."

"Then shut up and let it happen," Raph grumbled, pushing in for another kiss.

A small whimper escaped Mikey before he dropped down. "Oh God," he mumbled into the kiss.

Raph dropped down and their throbbing members touched, but it wasn't enough. Raph needed more. He grabbed them both in one hand, causing Mikey to once again gasp. It was something that he had never considered doing before. It was never something he had desired. He just didn't see his brothers in a sexual way. He had no idea what had changed.

Raph pumped their joined erections and Mikey broke from the kiss to watch, wrapping his arms behind Raph's neck and pressing his forehead to Raph's. Their pre-cum coated Raph's hand and both erections, causing an audible slick sound as Raph pumped.

Raph had masturbated before, but it was so much better having Mikey with him. He watched Mikey's face while he worked them both and found Mikey's expressions gratifying. The excitement of having someone with him and their combined scents were also adding to the stimulation.

"Oh God," Mikey whimpered again. "Oh God." His whole body curled up as he churred out his release. "Raph," his voice shook.

Seeing Mikey finish sent Raph to his own completion, "Oh, Mikey." He continued to gently stroke them, making sure they were both completely finished.

Raph moved his hand down to the bed and they both froze in disbelief. Their eyes stayed fixed on each other's while they came down from their high. Lifting his head, Mikey tentatively brought their mouths together for another kiss. Raph pressed in, deepening it. When he broke the kiss, Raph could see the desire and relief in Mikey's eyes.

"We talk about this with no one," Raph insisted.

Mikey looked up at him and nodded, "I couldn't agree more."

Raph sat back, "You think you're gonna want to do it again?"

Mikey ran a hand through the cum on his plastron and sighed, "Oh, yeah. Maybe even more."

Nodding, Raph got up, "I'll come to you."

Mikey raised an eye ridge, "How come you get to…?"

"I'll come to you," Raph snapped and walked to the door. With his hand on the handle he sighed and turned to look at Mikey. "We have to be discrete. It will be better if it's just me sneaking in to your room. If Splinter found out…."

"I get it." Mikey crossed his arms over his plastron, "Fine."

Raph nodded, "Okay. I'll… I'll see you later." He walked back over to Mikey and kissed him one more time. "I love you, Mikey." He rushed back to the door and opened it just a crack. Making sure the coast was clear, Raph headed out. When he got back to his room, he still felt strange. He had enjoyed his time with Mikey, but he wasn't fully satisfied and considered going back to him.

It was getting late so, instead, Raph decided to grab a bite to eat then head out. His suit and gear were hidden in an abandoned storage closet about a mile from the lair. He kept his bike just a few feet away in an access tunnel, tucked in a dark corner.

He spent a few hours working out his frustration on petty criminals. But no matter how many he beat, he still felt strange and just wanted to drown it out. He needed someone to talk to and maybe help him sort through the strange new feelings. So he went to Casey's apartment and banged on the window.

He didn't have to wait long before the window slid open and Casey invited Raph in. "Hey Raph," he yawned. "I haven't seen you in a while. What's up?"

"There is some crazy shit going on with me right now," Raph sighed as he plopped down on the sofa. He slumped over and kept his eyes on the coffee table as he spoke. "I don't know what I'm doing. You got any beer?"

"Yes," April answered, coming out of the bedroom. "But, you're not old enough to drink."

"Really," Raph moaned. "April's here again?"

"It's good to see you too Raph," April chided.

Casey ran his fingers through his hair, "She gonna be here a lot, we've moved in together."

Surprised, Raph sat up and looked at his friend. "Since when?"

"For about a month," April answered. "If you were around more often you would know this." She sighed, "Mikey and Don even helped me move in."

Raph was pissed and he didn't really know why. He was one of Casey and April's strongest supporters so their being together should not be making him angry. Maybe it was because he had missed so much and he was mad at himself for pulling away. Maybe it was because he needed some time with his friend and that was not going to happen because April was going to always be there.

He got up from the sofa. "I'm happy for you both. I'm outta here." He could even look at them as he headed back to the window.

"Raph," Casey placed his hand on his shoulder. "If you need me for something…."

Raph shrugged him off, "I just needed a beer." He slipped out the window and down the fire escape before they could say anything more.

When he got back to the lair, he could see the light under Donny's lab door. He needed more and maybe Donny would have some answers or be able to satisfy that need. He didn't knock, but just walked right in.

Donny looked up at him from his computer, "You need something?"

"Yeah," Raph husked, walking up to Donny. He didn't know what he was doing or why. He could have gone to Mikey. He should have gone to Mikey.

Raising an eye ridge, Donny watched as Raph approached. "Why…?" He placed his hand on his head. "I feel strange all of a sudden."

Lust had taken over by the time Raph was next to Don. He grabbed hold of Don and pushed him forward, out of his chair. Confused, Donny leaned forward on his desk while Raph shoved the chair out of the way and got behind him. He continued to push Donny forward and after sucking on his finger, stuck it in Don's puckered entrance.

Donny gasped, "What…?"

Don tried to get up but Raph kept him pinned down. Raph prepped him quickly, minimally stretching the entrance before spitting on his own cock and working it inside Don. The tight warmth of Don around his cock caused a churr to rumble deep within Raph. Donny tried to cry out, but Raph silenced him with a hand over his mouth. "You don't want to wake the others."

Tears streamed down Don's cheeks as Raph forced his way inside. When he was fully imbedded, Raph waited for Donny to adjust while keeping his hand over Don's mouth. Donny's panting breaths were broken with whimpers while he shifted uncomfortably under Raph. With a cry of pain, Don gripped the desk in front of him and grunted as Raph started to thrust.

Spit didn't provide adequate lubrication and, much to his frustration, Raph found it hard to move. Donny reached down and fished through a nearby drawer and pulled out a bottle of lubricant. He passed it back to Raph and, after popping the top with his mouth, Raph poured the contents on himself as he continued to move.

The lubricant eased his passage and Raph was able to increase his pacing. It wasn't long before they were both churring out their pleasure. Raph's free hand moved down Donny's plastron and grabbed hold of Donny's bobbing erection. He pumped in time with his thrusting and Donny squirmed, lifting his leg a little to give Raph better access. "Oh," he gasped into Raph hand. "Raphie."

Pushing back into Raph, Donny churred out his climax. His juices coated Raph's hand and the table under him. Raph pushed through the tightness, lasting several minutes longer before shuttering out his own orgasm.

They both panted when they were done and Raph pulled out. He placed his mouth right next to Donny's ear slit and whispered, "Don't tell anyone."

Donny sobbed, "You've changed. You wouldn't have done this to me a few years ago. What's happened to you?"

Raph stepped back and watched as his cum dripped out of Donny's gaping hole. The white was mixed with a little bit of pink and red streaks. He hardened himself against the guilt. "Leo stopped writing and has abandoned us."

"You're mad at Leo so you… forced yourself on me?" Donny couldn't use the word 'rape' to describe what his brother had just done to him.

"You liked it as much as I did," Raph shot back.

Donny's lip trembled as he fought back tears. "I didn't want it like this," he sobbed.

"But you did want it?" Raph raised an eye ridge.

Donny nodded, "I've wanted you since we were fourteen. And for some reason, despite all that you've done, I still want you."

Raph swallowed hard, "I… won't…. If you still want to after this…."

Donny's breath hitched as he fought the urge to cry. "You know, all you had to do was ask."

"I…." Raph looked away and though about Mikey then looked back at Donny, "We can't tell anyone. And we should act like there is nothing different. We don't know how the others will react."

Donny simply nodded his agreement, hiding his face as he started to cry. Raph kneelt down next to him, "I'm sorry I force you. I don't know what came over me. I just had this overwhelming need to be with you." He nuzzled Donny then brought him in for a kiss.

Their tongues twisted together for a few minutes before Donny pulled away. "It's mating season for turtles. Maybe it's affecting you more for some reason. I can run some tests."

"No," Raph snapped, causing Don to flinch, and Raph quickly recovered. "It's fine." He pulled Donny in close and nuzzled him, "I'll make this up to you. I promise."

Donny looked Raph in the eyes, "Yeah you will."

"I love you," Raph smiled then got up and headed to the door. He looked back at Donny before leaving, "It would be best if you just let me come to you. If we're both sneaking around, then someone will notice something."

"Okay," Donny managed to answer before Raph closed the door. "I love you too."