Ashley's Pov
Have you ever had one of those moments when everything around you suddenly starts to fade away, like your mind is in a total whirlwind and there's no getting back. Like you're falling and you know no one will be there to catch you in the end. When your world comes crashing down to pieces and its hard for you to even think.
Did I hear her correctly, did she say what I think she said. Gosh I'm only 18 years old, I have my life ahead of me, this is my last year of high school, IM STILL IN SCHOOL! God how can I look after a child if I'm still one myself. Is it even mine, I mean lets try to be rational here, how do I know if its mine or not. I feel so light headed.
I cant seem to speak, im opening my mouth but nothings coming out then I hear Spencer sniffling beside me.
"Ashley say something"
I look at her and her eyes are all puffy and red, I let my head fall in my hands as I take a huge breathe then finally say
"Are you sure" honestly I have no idea what to say, I've never been in this situation before.
She's just looking at me now like a have two heads or something
"I mean how do you know if its mine, how do I know if its mine" stupid stupid stupid but I don't know what else to say
By the looks of it, her whole demeanor turns into anger and she quickly gets up and starts shouting at me through her tears
"WHAT, fuck you Ashley I knew you'd fuckin be like this, you want fukin proof, well I was a fukin virgin when we done it and that was fukin two months ago and now im fukin pregnant and guess how far long I am, two fuking months, but I see you're just like every other douche bag walking on this god forsaken planet, so fuck you, if you wanna take a paternity test then be my fukin guess because this is your baby Ashley, so if you're that much of a fukin coward and just deny everything then fuck you, you're fukin pathetic Ashley"
God I'm such as asshole, shit I didn't know she was a virgin, shit how could I have not known, fuck fuck fuck. I see her shaking and so I get up quickly and hold her, I stop her from shaking, I apologize to her, pleading that she forgive me because right now she needs me, we need each other.
"Im sorry, I'm sorry Spencer I didn't know, you gotta believe me, I didn't know, I wasn't thinking, I- I – I don't know what to say okay, I believe you though, I believe you okay, I jus s stt don't know what to do, I don't know but I'm here, I'll be here with you, for you" I feel her nod on my chest and I calm her down and lead her to sit back on the bench with me.
We've been here for half and hour now and Spencer has calmed down
"Spencer" she looks at me "I hope this isn't a rushed question but what are you gonna do with it, I mean are you thinking of keeping it?" I say rather shaky because im not sure how she'll react.
"I-I-I want to, I-I mean I don't believe in abortion, my family doesn't believe in abortion so I'm thinking of having it" she says in small tone voice
"It's okay Spencer, if that's your decision then I'll stick by that, if it's what you want then its what I want, im here for you, you're not alone in this Spencer"
"Thank you Ash, I Im just scared that's all"
"I know, me too but im here if you ever need anything, I'll be there with you at your next doctors appointment if you want me their, what I'm saying is that I know we haven't gone off on a great start but I'm willing to take responsibility for this child Spencer, I've got the money so you don't have to worry about the medical bills and that, I can support you and this child and I want to Spencer, I here 100% all the way"
"*sniff* thank *sniff* you Ashley, that means a *sniff* lot"
Even though I feel that I'm not ready for this, I have to be, because she's carrying my child for god sakes and I'm going to have to be her rock in this time of crisis. I'm going to need to make some changes with my life if we're gonna have this baby because that's the last thing I want to do is to just walk out on this baby's life, I don't want to be like my father, I'm going to be their for mine and Spencer's child, as much of an asshole I may seem, I do have a heart and I'm going to be their for my child every step of the way. Gosh I'm going to have to tell my family about this, I hope they take it well.
"Spencer" I look at her " does your family know?"
All I get in response is a shake of her head and " oh god, my family, what am I going to tell them, my mom's gonna kill me, gosh they're gonna kick me out, I'm gonna be an embarrassment to them, to my friends and everyone else" she's panicking and crying at the same time.
"shhhh Spencer if you want me to be there when you tell them, I will, If you do get kicked out you can always stay with me, I have enough room and if you're worrying about being judge by your friends then they aren't true friends, it's gonna be alright, I promise you"
After the park, I asked if she was able to drive home, which she said that she was so I hugged her and told her to call me whenever she needs anything, she asked me to come to her next doctors appointment 2 weeks from now which I very much complied. I watched her drive off and so I headed back to my truck and drove home trying to gain some courage to tell my family the news.