I hope that Mr. Cullen can forgive me because I wouldn't. Alice was going at it wild! She didn't invite a lot of people, but you don't necessarily need a lot of people, to create destruction. We were only nine people, sitting at her father's library. I don't remember who's great it was. All I could see was the plastic cup stains on his dark wood table and imagining him, kicking me out of the house, telling me off.

Alice was a natural flirt and thanks to that skill, she could buy a lot of alcohol. I really don't think that her father expected us to drink tonight. I wasn't really drinking tonight anyway, I still had my first cocktail in my hand. Unfinished. I was feeling like such a bore. Everyone was relaxed, but me.

''You smell so good.'' Edward kissed up my neck. No one really cared that his hand was traveling up. Everyone was at it, to be honest, they didn't are about us. I didn't think that I was the only one left, with the cherry, but it sure looked like it. It's not a bad thing to be a virgin, but it felt weird, when everyone around you as so sexually active.

I wasn't as hot for it now especially. When I could taste the Gin on his lips, I pulled away. It only made it worse.

Just in time too because Jasper, one of the coolest people I've ever met and Alice's boyfriend, came in with my cake. I laughed at it, as I saw that they had put a 'happy 78th birthday, ya old hag', on it.

Even if they interpreted the whole birthday issue wrong, it was still funny. To be honest, I wasn't afraid to age, I just didn't like my birthdays. They were overrated.

''The cake shop thought that it was for my Nana.'' Alice laughed.

When I blew out the eighteen candles, they clapped. Jacob, one of my school mates, stood up ''I think we should play some party games! Get this party going." Wasn't it going? Yikes!

I wanted to scream no! I really wasn't up for party games. Edward didn't like them too and so he just stood up, took me by my hand and we went up to his room. I guess it as time. We sat on his bed and he just took off his shirt. Why did he have to try to be so ... straightforward? I wasn't one of the girls who necessarily needed to be wowed, but I needed some foreplay, here!

Just as he was getting on top of me, leaving sloppy kisses, he suddenly fell limp. Calling out his name and poking him a couple of times, I only as rewarded with snores and mumbles. He was completely out of it! When I nudged him, he mumbled something incoherent and I just laid there for a while, before I got up. I looked at Edward. Why was I with him, again? Did I really want to give my virginity to someone who gets drunk before it and doesn't think how I might feel in the act of it.

I decided on a shower instead. Might as get something I like out of today. I took my time, ashing my hair, face and body in slow motions. A shower meant the end of the party.

After my shower, I borrowed one of Edwards shirts, folded in the bathroom. It was so big! I didn't know that he wore shirts this big. It ended mid tight, looking like a dress on my body. I didn't need to because the shirt covered me enough, but I still put back on my purple lacy undies. When I tip toed to the library, I noticed that no one was there. So, I started to clean it up. Someone had to.

When I put all the books back in, threw away the cups and other trash out of the study, I started to clean every surface. I was on my knees in front of the coffee table, when I heard a person come behind me.

I was too into trying to scrub it clean, to look at whom it was. I didn't know how long I was cleaning alone, but finally someone came around ''You know, you could help me clean up YOUR mess. I don't want Mr. Cullen to come home and kick my ass because of you guys.''

''He wouldn't do that. He might spank you though.'' I swear, the colour of my face dropped, in just seconds as I heard the voice. I turned around and sat on my bum. Mr. Cullen was standing in front of me, looking at me, like I was something to eat.

''Sorry.'' I mumbled ''I wanted to polish the place, before you got home, Mr. Cullen.''

He smiled ''It's alright, Bella. You should go to sleep, as everyone else has.''

I was so embarrassed, I didn't want to move ''It's alright, I'll finish up here. I was just about to finish.'' Thank God he didn't question my whereabouts.

He looked down from my face and with a questioning face asked me ''Are you wearing my shirt?'' his glance was focusing on the peace of clothing I was wearing. Looking down, I noticed that my nipples were pointing out.

''No, it's Edwards!'' I started to panic. I must've looked like such a weirdo.

''He doesn't like The Smiths,'' he pointed out ''It's alright. It looks good on you. You know what? It's yours, take it as a birthday present.'' he smiled and left me alone in horror. Why did he really give the shirt to me? Did he dislike me that much for wearing the shirt, he was willing to give it to me? Was he just as embarrassed as I was? Oh God...

When he came back, I was back on my feet, taking the garbage bag out of the library. I stopped him in his tracks ''I'm sorry, for the umm the mess we made. I think I cleaned everything up''

He smiled again. Why as he so polite? ''I didn't see anything, alright? Just throw out the gin and vodka bottles out of the kitchen. They are a bit too much.''

This time I didn't keep my embarrassment in ''Shit.'' I should have gotten those first.

He laughed ''Bella, did you honestly think that I wasn't going to know that you all would be drinking? I'm not all for it, but better in the house, not in the streets.''

I gaped at him ''I wasn't expecting that.'' I said impressed. He was supposed to be mad, right? Charlie would have had my head on a stick.

Mr. Cullen still kept his sly smile up ''There's a lot of things you don't know.''