Throughout most of the day, Elisa could only doze in and out of sleep as she tossed and turned in bed, unable to find a comfortable position to her satisfaction. Instead more troublesome questions came to occupy her already troubled mind and add to her growing apprehension.
How will this pregnancy effect her body?; Will she be a good mother?; Will the clan take care of it if something happened to her?; Will the clan even accept the child, or will her brother's clan?; More importantly, will Goliath accept what might be his own child?
Elisa hugged a pillow tightly to herself, feeling extremely alone without Goliath's strong yet comforting embrace to reassure and protect her as other questions about the miraculous new life growing inside of her overflowed her mind even further to bring quiet tears to earthy brown eyes.
What will the child look like?; Will it have wings, a tail, spurs, and her eyes or Goliath's eyes?; Will the child be healthy?; or will its hybrid nature turn on itself and it can't survive outside of the womb?
This last question made her tears flow stronger as more complicated questions plagued her thoughts to drive her deeper into confusion and sorrow.
Will she have to hide her child away forever?; Will she be able to protect it from the world it will have to grow up in?; Even if the clan accepts it, what will other gargoyles think?; Will they learn to accept it or look upon it with scorn and thus further widen the rift between the two races?
She wept into her pillow for a long while as one confusing question came after another to devoid her of an answer that would grant even the smallest of comforts.
She wept until her tears ran dry, and she was allowed a short peace in the gentle relief of sleep. But her rest would not be for long as she awoke in to the early afternoon hours to feel a heaviness upon her chest pressed down by an empty loneliness.
Some of her more observant logical mind came to the forefront again to suddenly remind her of the meddling and narrow minded Chinese Clan leader, Mei Hsing, and her argument for stopping hers and Goliath's bonding. The statuesque pink gargess had stated that they could not have children together and the gargoyle race needed future generations to help grow and thrive their dying race. Some small part of Elisa smiled at this irony, and somehow they had just stuck it to Mei Hsing and any other bigoted gargoyles. A small smile softened her tear stained golden brown face, but it only lasted a moment.
Although still exhausted, from somewhere within her a burst of energy flowed through her to allow herself strength to get out of bed. She has had enough with wallowing in self pity and needed answers. And there was only one place she knew to start from.
As she showered and dressed, Elisa began to think of the possibility of the pregnancy test being wrong. Such a possibility was not unheard of, reading a false pregnancy as real or vice versa. Only the second opinion of a real doctor will put her mind at ease and quell the dark thundercloud of confusion and doubt engulfing her mind.
Lacking the option to go to a regular doctor, even her family doctor or the 23rd precinct doctor, Elisa went to see the one person she knew she could trust.