A yelp of surprise escapes Raven as she is pulled into a room by her arm.
"Anya! I could've had a heart attack!" she scolds with a grin.
Anya sighs, reaching behind Raven to shut the door, forcing Raven to take a step back.
"Anya," Raven pleas, for what neither knows, as Anya presses her body against Raven's, their foreheads touching as they look at each other's lips.
Anya watches as Raven's lips part, as if in awe, but there is no other movement.
"Raven," Anya almost whines, pulling brown eyes away from her lips, snapping Raven out of her daydream.
"I need you Raven," Anya states, her hand finding it's spot on Raven's waist, brown eyes pleading.
"I can't," Raven chokes out, tears running down her face, "I can't."
"Damn it Raven," Anya sighs, pulling her into a hug.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry," Raven sobs into Anya's neck.
"It's okay baby, it's okay," Anya soothes, one hand rubbing her back, the other running through her hair.
"No," Raven sobs, untangling herself from Anya.
"Raven," she mumbles tears in her eyes, watching as Raven wipes her tears away, attempting to stand tall.
"I'm married. I love my wife and child."
"You can't pretend this isn't happening! You love me!" Anya yells, tears falling.
"I love Octavia. I love Lex," Raven states, her eyes on the floor.
"She doesn't love you like I do! You don't look at her like you look at me! I deserve-"
"No. We don't deserve shit, Anya," Raven cuts her off, walking into her space.
"We didn't have our true love taken away from us Anya. Octavia deserves this. Lex had his father taken away from him, he doesn't deserve to lose a mother. Those girls think that me and O found love after their mother's deaths, we don't deserve to take any of that away. I love my wife and my son. I promised to stay with them forever," Raven states, turning on her heel and walking away.
"You," Anya states, stopping Raven in her tracks as a sob escapes, "did you promise to stay, even if it was killing you? Even if it was killing me?"
Raven sighs, "yes," and walks out the door.
Raven takes a deep breath, headed back to her son's room.
"Mama?" he questions as she enters, "I heared Auntie Anya crying, what wrong?"
"She's crying happy tears babe, she's so happy she got to see you," Raven lies, pulling his blanket back up.
"I happy too. I love her," he says, turning on his side to go back to sleep.
"You and me both bud," she sighs, pressing a kiss to his forehead and turning on his nightlight.
"Love you, buddy," she says, walking to the door.
"Love you, Mama," he replaced as she turns off the light.
Raven sighs as she closes the door, leaning against it and closing her eyes. A door opening snaps them open.
Anya stands there, her bookbag over her shoulder and suitcase rolling behind her, her face emotionless, reminding Raven of the first time they met when there was hope.
"I'm going to stay with Abby. Tell Lex I love him," she states, quietly walking downstairs and out.
Raven takes a deep breath before walking to her bedroom.
"Ray?" Octavia questions curled up in bed under their comforter.
"Sorry, Anya decided to leave so I helped her pack," she says, taking off her clothes.
Octavia raises an eyebrow, seeing through the lie. Raven ignores her, crawling into bed behind her, spooning her.
"I think she loves you Raven," Octavia whispers.
"I love you," Raven states, burying her face in Octavia's hair.
"Raven," she sighs, turning over to face the other brunette.
"I love you, Octavia. I love Lex. I... I can't lose you," Raven confesses, pulling Octavia close.
"I can't love you like she does Ray. It's been six years, I can't love you like she can."
"I don't care," Raven confesses.
"She's not coming back, is she?" Octavia questions.
A sob is her answers, "Shh, I've got you, Ray, I've got you," she soothes, rubbing Raven's back.
A sob escapes when Raven realizes she is wishing for a hand to run through her hair too.
Eventually, darkness takes over.