There was a loud beeping sound coming from somewhere next to her, but Jade was too asleep to figure out where it came from. She felt the uncomfortable airplane seat below her as she shifted on her side, trying to block out the ringing.
"Turn it off." She moaned into her pillow, opening her eyes to see Tori holding her hands to her ears, just as annoyed as Jade was.
"I'm sorry!" Robbie exclaimed from the row behind of the girls, looking frantically for his pearpad. "I can't find it."
"I am going to stab you with a pair of scissors." The raven haired girl barked.
"Cute." Andre piped in. "How much longer does this freaking plane ride takes anyway? I can't feel my butt."
"Three more hours." Tori answered, trying to find a comfortable position to sleep in again. "Are you okay, Jade?"
The girl in question was tugging at her golden ring necklace, trying to keep her tears at bay, not wanting to cry again in front of Vega, of all people.
"Yeah, I am fine." She mumbled, not trusting herself to talk. Beck had left three days ago, and Jade hadn't really gotten over it yet. Her mind raced miles per hour and it had been for the last 72 hours, trying to find a solution to this mess.
"You miss him, don't you?" Tori smiled, reaching to put her hand in her friend's shoulder.
"Yeah, I do. But it's not just him. I miss everything, we are not even in London yet and I wish I could rewind time and have myself back at the start of last summer. This doesn't quite feel right."
"I know, darling, I guess this is how it is supposed to be. I mean, we knew we wouldn't be together forever; we were just six teenagers who happened to find each other at some point in our lives. Maybe that part is over, and we just have to move on."
Both girls turned around to look at the boys, the two of them snoring lightly as they slept.
"I guess, but I just miss how everything used to be."
"Me too, Jade. Me too."
The campus was unlike anything the four teenagers had ever seen before. Tori and Jade's room was on the girls building, which was next to the Theater. The boys' room was two buildings ahead of theirs, so they were close enough.
The school had a soccer, baseball, basketball and tennis court, and Tori couldn't help but wonder what it would be like if everyone was there.
"We should go check in and then bring the luggage." Robbie suggested. They left their 10 backpacks in the office's waiting room and headed to the main desk.
"Hi, my name is Jade West, me and my friend Victoria Vega have room 143 I think." Jade introduced herself to the secretary.
"Oh yes darling, let me have your papers out so you can sign and head to the dorms." Their check in was faster than expected, and soon enough, they were on their way to the dorms.
"Wanna go grab dinner later?" Andre asked as they reached the girls dorm.
"Sure, let's meet at the coffee shop on the outside of the campus in 3 hours."
Tori and Jade grabbed their suitcases and opened their room's door. It was way bigger from what they expected. It was like a little apartment, two rooms connected by a bathroom, a tiny living room and kitchenette.
"This is awesome!" Tori beamed and Jade couldn't help but smile.
"Yeah, it's pretty cool I guess. What room do you want?"
"You choose, I don't really care." Tori smiled. They entered both rooms and Jade finally decided to keep the one at the right.
The walls were painted an orangish shade and she couldn't believe how much it reminded her of the RV's walls. The bed was on the middle of the floor, and it had a huge window with a wonderful view of the lake outside the school.
Jade sat down on the bed and held her head in her hands, letting out a soft whimper. She was with Tori, Andre and Robbie, but she was scared out of her mind. The feeling of loneliness, of missing someone so much was starting to rub on her. She opened her first backpack and decided to make the bed and put out her clothes. She could organize the rest when she had gotten some sleep.
Once she was finished, she took out her black and blue laptop and opened her Slap profile, out of habit. Her heart sank to her feet as she saw that she was no longer able to post anything. Her tweets where still there, but in huge yellow letter, on the right side of her picture, it was written GRADUATED.
Her fingers typed her friend's names desperately, only to find the same label in each one of them. Finally, when she thought she was going to lose her mind, a beep was heard from her computer, signaling a request to Skype.
As Beck Oliver's name flashed on her screen, she couldn't help but laugh out of joy, accepting the chat request and adjusting herself in her new bed.
"Babe?" Beck's soft voice came through her headphones as his handsome face appeared in front of her.
"Hey."
"Jesus, I can't believe what this campus looks like, Jade. It is all kinds of awesome; Cat's been running around since we got here."
"I was not expecting any less from her. London is just great; I can't believe I am finally here!" Jade tried to sound exited, not wanting to share her worries with her boyfriend.
"I miss you so much, babe. I wish we could be together."
"I know, Beck. But time will fly, I promise. And before we know it, five months will have gone by and we will be heading home for summer break."
"I really hope so, this is really too much for us to handle."
"I don't wanna talk about this, babe. Tell me something about your roommate, is he nice?"
"Yeah, his name is Ian. He is pretty cool I guess. I went to eat with him and his girlfriend yesterday."
Their conversation fell into different topics, both of them wanting to forget they were miles apart, on different continents, missing each other dearly. Not an easy task, though. Jade's smile faded when she looked at her laptop's clock.
"Its 7 p.m. here, I told the guys we were meeting them in two hours and I really need some sleep."
"Don't worry, babe. Go get some sleep; I'll go see if Cat wants to get some lunch with me." Beck smiled tiredly, trying to fight the urge of stroking his girlfriend's cheek through the laptop screen.
"I love you."
"I love you too, Jade."
After unpacking, Tori wandered around their new apartment, thinking about the huge parties they could host there. She heard Jade talking on her room and smiled, realizing her friend was video chatting with her boyfriend. The change from high school to College had a bigger impact in the Goth that Tori would have predicted. She just hoped they would be alright.
"Jade? Are you ready?" Tori opened the door to her room, and pretended to ignore Jade's red eyes and nose.
"Yeah, sure, let me get my jacket and we can get going."
They made their way down stairs, only to find it had begun to rain. Everyone outside the building was running for shelter or trying to open up their umbrellas.
"London's weather sucks." Tori complained.
"I kind of like it." Jade smiled. "It reminds me of my childhood in New York."
"You wanna go outside?" Tori beamed.
"Are you crazy?! We don't even have an umbrella!" Jade exclaimed.
"Who says we need one?"
"Everyone will think we are lunatics, dancing in the rain here is not the same as in the U.S." Jade smiled mischievously.
"They better get used to it, we are L.A. girls after all!" The Latina grabbed Jade's hand and led her out of the building and into the pouring rain. The water drops felt amazing on her pale skin, and Jade couldn't help but wonder when was the last time she had felt so alive.
The two teenagers danced in the rain, fooling around and singing random songs for a solid 15 minutes.
"What the heck are you girls doing?" Their little fun was interrupted by Robbie's question. He and Andre were guarded from the storm under an umbrella.
"Having a little fun, you should totally try to do it sometime." Jade smirked, pulling on Andre's arm, successfully dragging the two boys into the rain.
Andre put his arms around her and Robbie did the same on Tori's waist, slow dancing in the rain, cliché, but fun. Maybe that was what college was about, surviving everyday with little moments like that one, when every care in the world was gone and they were truly happy.
Jade breathed in deeply, trying to keep a sob from escaping her lips. The last thing she needed was for Tori to realize she was sad. (She was not crying, crying would make her weak).
Despite the lack of noise, Tori could sense something was not right in her friend's bedroom, so she knocked on the white door at three in the morning, let herself in and lay on the bed next to Jade, squeezing her hand tightly, giving her the reassurance she needed.
"If you need to talk, you know I am here for you."
"I know. Thanks for doing this Tori, but I just need to sleep now." Jade sighed tiredly, squeezing her hand back.
"Sleep, I'll be here when you are ready to talk."
Three hours later, they were both up again, unable to sleep because of the sound the storm made outside.
"Tell me." Tori whispered, sitting straight up, facing Jade.
"It's just… things with Beck are not great. We barely talk anymore. He calls me once a week, and when he does, it's more out of duty than anything, I can tell."
"I am sure he is just busy, Jade."
"I know he is not, and you know what the worst thing is?" Tears streamed down her pale cheeks. "That I don't even care anymore."
"I can't believe you are so dumb." Jade complained from her seat on the read couch. She had been trying to study for her math exam with Tori, but it was not going well at all.
"I'm not dumb! This is just too difficult. Why do we even have to study math if we want to be actresses?" Tori whined, nibbling on her untouched burrito.
"Because dreams don't always come true, hun'. It's good to have a plan B."
"We don't need one, 'cause we are awesome."
"Just keep studying, it is not that difficult, I'll explain it to you again of you pay for pizza tomorrow." The pale girl smirked.
"Deal."
Suddenly, Jade's phone beeped from the coffee table. Tori gave it to her, an uneasy feeling in her chest upon seeing Beck's name on the caller I.D.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" She asked.
"I can't keep living like this, Vic. Something needs to change. I need time."
"I will be right here." Tori watched as Jade answered the call, sitting straight up.
"Hi." Her voice was monotonous, something Beck almost never heard coming from his girlfriend.
"Hey, babe, are you alright?"
"Listen, Beck. We need to talk."
"What do you mean?"
"We have to be honest with each other, okay?" Jade stood up and gave the brunet a thankful smile before walking down the hallway and shutting her door behind her. "You know I love you more than anything in the world, Beck, but-"
"No buts, babe, please, you love me, I love you. What's the problem then?"
"The problem is I can't keep lying to myself. We were never good at this long distance relationship…. I just, I… I don't think I can't do this anymore. I don't want to, I won't." Jade's voice broke, and she sobbed onto her pillow, not wanting Beck to hear her cry.
"What-? Jade? I don't understand, we were fine last week. I mean, I miss you like crazy, but we agreed we would see each other on Christmas brake right?"
"I am not going to L.A. for Christmas, Beck. My mom called yesterday. My brother's coming here to spend holydays with me, and Tori is going to France with Trina."
"I thought we had planned this, babe. Christmas is less than 5 weeks away." Beck could not believe what he was hearing. He couldn't believe Jade was giving up on him, on them.
"What do you want me to do? I am barely 18 years old, Beck. I should be enjoying myself in London, not crying over my boyfriend. I'm just too tired of it all. I need to take a break from this, to have fun, to live."
"So that's it? You are going to give up on us just like that? I thought you said that what we had was worth this all. Worth the distance, the time difference." His voice sounded desperate, practically begging her to stop, to not give up on everything they had.
"I am sorry, Beck. This isn't enough for me right now. I can't keep living like this. I am sorry."
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