Chapter 2:
Alice and Rose were too caught up in themselves to notice that I was upset. It really pissed me off sometimes that they didn't notice how I felt.
"I'm going to the library," I announced and everyone nodded, but didn't look at me.
I thought about how much of an idiot I was for believing him. He talked me into something that I didn't want. At all. I couldn't exactly say that I was raped, but I couldn't say that I did that as free will either. I sat against the wall and just stared straight ahead.
"Bella, can we talk?" I looked up and saw Edward. I shook my head.
"There is nothing to talk about," I said.
"That is a lie and you know it," he told me and then sat right next to me.
"Well, I just don't want to right now, okay?" I said.
"I must be the worst person in the world in your eyes," he said and then looked down.
"Ya think?" I said and then wiped my eyes that were suddenly filled with tears.
"I never meant to hurt you," he whispered and I looked up to see his eyes welled with tears.
"I know. I just wasn't ready," I explained.
"I guess I should have listened to you," he said and I nodded.
"I am so sorry," he said and I looked at him and shrugged.
"We are both responsible in all of the situations," I told him and pain crossed his features.
"I'm an asshole," he said and I laughed lightly.
"Yep," I said and he laughed with me.
"I just can't believe I actually did that to you," he mumured.
"Look, it is done and over with. Both situations," I said.
"But nothing is the same anymore. Nothing will ever be the same," he told me.
"I know," I whispered and then the bell rang.
"Take care for now," he said.
"You too," I told him and then walked away to class.
About 2 weeks passed and I haven't told anyone. Nobody even sensed something was wrong. I haven't really spoken at all either. I have been eating of course. I got hungry often. I am sure it is because of depression.
"Bella, are you okay?" Alice asked.
"So now you notice?" I asked and she gave me a confused look.
"What's going on?" she asked.
"Nothing," I said and then left school with Em.
I called my mom.
"Hello?" she answered.
"Mom...," I said and sobbed hysterically.
"What is going on?" she said into the phone and I told her everything. She was suprized to say the least.
"Well who was it?" she asked.
"Edward Cullen," I said and I heard her gasp.
"Why don't I come up and visit you?" she asked and I told her that would be perfect for me. She said she was coming next week. As I spotted the calender something stuck out.
"Mom, I gotta go," I said as my stomache dropped and the room started spinning. I hung up before she could say anything else as I counted the days in my head.
35 days. I am a week late for my period. I felt tears sting in my eyes. This could not be happening. I took a deep breath and calmed myself down. Okay...everything will be okay. Maybe it is just one of those things... I called my mom back right away.
"Hello?" she answered again.
"Mom...could you possibly come sooner and bring me something?" I asked into the phone robotically.
"What do you need?" she asked.
"A pregnancy test," I peeped into the phone while I burst into tears.
"I'll be there tonight," she said and I hung up and broke down on my bed.
"Bella, what is happening?" Charlie came in and I shook my head and he nodded and left me alone. He decided to send Emmett in. Emmett came over and rocked me while I cried hysterically.
"Can you please tell me what is going on?" Em asked after I calmed down again. I wiped my eyes and blew my nose before responding.
"We must be furtile," I said and he looked at me like I was crazy.
"What?" he asked.
"Emmett...I think I might be pregnant," I whispered and he got wide eyed.
"How?" he asked.
"Ha ha, very funny," I said.
"Who is it?" he asked.
"Edward Cullen," I whispered and he almost started hypervenilating.
"But...eh..uh..you hate him!" he blurted.
"Thank you Captin Obvious," I said and he rolled his eyes.
"Bella...," he said and I took in a deep breath to hold in the tears.
"Do me a favor and distract Charlie tongiht. Mom is taking the next flight available I am sure. And don't say anything to anyone," I said he nodded and got up and left.
About 4 hours later I was sitting in my room staring at the wall. Mom came bursting in the room.
"Lets go, we don't have all night," she said and handed me 3 sticks. I sighed. I wonder if using all 3 at once was possible. I guess we will try.
I stared at the tests waiting for them to respond. It was the longest 5 mintues of my life. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes as the timer went off. I bit my lip and prayed that it wasn't true. I opened my eyes. Two lines on 2 and one on the last. I gripped the bathroom counter harder as my knees started going weak.
"Mom...," I said and she came in and we cried together. "What am I going to do?"
"Well, honey. You have a choice. A very important choice," she stated.
"Mom, I can't kill my baby," I said shocked that she would even mention it.
"Think of what would be best," she said.
"I have to call Edward," I said and started walking towards the phone. My mom grabbed my wrist.
"Are you sure you want to tell him?" she asked.
"I have to!" I all but screamed through my tears.
"Shouldn't we figure this out first," she said and I shook my head. This was my decision. Not hers.
"Hello?" Edward answered the phone.
"Hey, it's me Bella," I said with a raw voice.
"Hey," he said like he was just waking up excited. "What's up?"
"Can I come over?" I asked.
"Sure," he said and I nodded and hung up and then grabbed my keys.
"I need to do this alone," I said to my mother and she was crying as she sat on my bed.
I couldn't speak. Edward answered the door and brought me up to his room.
"What's going on?" Edward asked trying to get me to say something. I tried speaking, but nothing came out.
"I...uh," I started and he looked at me and encouraged me to go on. I felt sick to my stomache.
"I'm pregnant," I said and then looked anywhere but his face.
"I'm sorry, what?" he asked and then I looked at him.
"I'm pregnant," I repeated myself and his face went pale. It was a good 5 minutes before he spoke again.
"So..uh..what are you going to do?" he asked.
"I can't get rid of it," I whispered as tears started to form in my eyes. He sighed.
"I just thought you deserved to know. I understand if you don't want people knowing or if you want me out of your life comp-" I babbled but he cut me off.
"I won't go anywhere," he said.
"What?" I asked.
"I will do whatever you need me to do," he said and I looked at him shocked.
"Well...I don't know what I am going to do," I told him.
"Why don't we sleep on it?" he suggested and Esme and Carlisle, his parents, walked in.
"Is everything okay?" Esme asked and it took everything in me not to burst into tears.
"Umm...yeah. Everything is fine," I said with a shaky voice. They looked at me unsure. I gave Edward the 'Not Now' look and he nodded.
"Can Bella stay the night? It's important," Edward told them and they were confused and I looked at him in shock. They both nodded anyways and then shuffled out the door.
"Uh...I do have my own bed," was all I could think of to say.
"You shouldn't have to be alone," he whispered and my eyes welled with tears. Why was he being so nice to me? He pulled me down with him and I cried into his chest while he held me. He kept whispering that everything would be okay and that he won't leave me. I let him hold me until I fell asleep into a deep slumber.