Take Me Back

-Vanitas-

"GOD, YOU'RE SUCH A FUCKING BABY! YOU'RE WAY TOO GODDAMN SENSITIVE!"

"YOU WERE FLIRTING WITH ANOTHER GUY RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME, VANITAS!"

"I WASN'T FLIRTING! YOU'RE A FUCKING IDIOT!"

"I CAN HANDLE BEING AN IDIOT, AS LONG AS I DON'T HAVE A STONE COLD HEART LIKE YOU, ASSHOLE!"

"STONE COLD HEART, HUH!? I LOVE HOW YOU'VE SUDDENLY BECOME SO FUCKING BRAVE! YOU SHOULD BE COUNTING YOURSELF LUCKY I EVEN GIVE YOU THE TIME OF DAY! I COULD HAVE ANYBODY I FUCKING WANT!"

"OH REALLY? WELL, GUESS WHAT? WE'RE OVER ASSHOLE! WE'RE COMPLETELY FUCKING OVER! I'M NEVER COMING BACK TO YOU AGAIN, AND I SURE AS HELL KNOW YOU WON'T COME BACK FOR ME WHEN YOU CAN GET ANYBODY YOU WANT! SO, GET OUT! JUST GET OUT!" Ventus dropped to the floor at the top of the stairs, tears streaming down his face.

Another fight, yet again. And yet again, it's ending in a break up. Though, this time, it's for good. "FINE!" I yell, getting the last word in before stomping out the front door, slamming it shut behind me. Ventus and I have been dating on and off for a year. He confessed to me, and asked me out. I didn't particularly like him at the time, but I thought 'why not?' and thus, we started dating. Over time, I started to actually like him, he was cool. But we got into a lot of fights, all ending with one of us breaking it off. Then, within 2 days of the break up, Ventus would come crawling back to me and beg me to take him back. It's not like I had any better toys, so whatever. But, not once did I ever go to him. I never really needed to, he depended on me way more than I depended on him. He was more or less just there, clinging to my arm and getting jealous over every little thing, it's a little pathetic really. The blonde boy never left me alone, kept running back to me, then got mad if I so much as looked at another guy. He even got jealous when I looked over at Sora, smiled, and waved. Sora's my cousin. You can imagine out irritating that fight was.

Day 1

Walking down the hall, I bumped into someone. Looking down, I see a slightly messy head of blonde hair. Ventus? Already? No, couldn't be. "Shit, sorry, Van. Oh, Ven told me he was completely over you. You're fight last night must've been worse than normal, huh?" Roxas. Ven's twin. I smirked.
"Yeah, I guess you could say that. Honestly, no offence or anything, but I'm gonna fucking laugh if he comes crawling back to me, yet again."
Roxas returned my smirk, saying, "Oh yeah? Well, I'd be super disappointed if he went back to you. Ven looks like me, meaning he's hot as fuck. He could probably get anyone if he tried." I scoffed.
"Yeah, right. Like that'll ever happen." I roll my eyes, waving 'later' to Roxas before heading down the hall to English. Rox is pretty cool, he's fun to hang around with, and he's obviously attractive, but not really my type. I pray on the weak, not the strong.
Little did I know, Ventus was listening to the whole conversation, and Roxas knew.

Day 3

Another boring day of school. Ugh. Well, at least school ends in a couple days. Then I only have a year until I graduate. Though, I had thought Ventus would have come by now. 3 days is a record for the blonde.

Day 5

Still no Ventus. I'm a little surprised, but extremely relieved. Seems like the bonehead will finally leave me alone. It's the first day of summer vacation, so I'm gonna take this chance and go to the beach to get a tan, and hang with Axel and Demyx. We'll probably end up doing illegal crap, fucking a few girls, or guys, or maybe even each other again, then get home with either a nice tan, or a burn. Axel and I always get the tan, while Demyx almost always gets burned. He forgets sunscreen, and it's honestly so funny, Axel and I don't remind him. It's almost like a silent rule between the two of us.

Day 9

I'm heading out to the club, a friend of mine got his brother to book it for a giant party. And I'm gonna see how many numbers I can get. Beep beep. Ugh, a text now?

"Van, please tell me u hav enough room in your car for 3 more!" Sora. Haha, he probably wants me to give him and his friends a lift to the party.

Well, I never bail on Sora, since he's the only family I've got, and vise versa. See, our parents died in a freak plane crash years ago, and we were being taken care of by a friend of our parents for a few years, but once I turned 15, I took Sora and left. It's been 2 years since then, and Sora now lives with his boyfriend, who's the same age as me, and in quite a few of my classes.

"Depends who the '3' might be." I sent a reply, and seconds later got a list. Sora, Riku, and Riku's cousin Kairi. Well, my cousin, his boyfriend, and some chick I've never met, but could probably fuck. Sounds good. I sent the okay, telling them I'll come pick them up.

5 minutes later, I ring the doorbell, and a pretty red head answers. Leaning against the door frame, I give her a quick once over. "Hey there, hotstuff. You must be Kairi. Nice to meet you, I'm the one, and only, Vanitas." I give her a sly smile, and she shudders, but still blushes slightly. She's obviously creeped out, but she finds me attractive so she blushed. Mission accomplished.
"Told you so, Kairi. He'll hit on just about anything that breathes when he's single. Loyal as a dog when taken, but a bloody hellhound once set free." Riku appeared behind Kairi, glaring at me slightly.
"She's fair game, Riku. You're dating my cousin, fucking him, and living with him, and all that fun stuff. Fair game." I winked before turning on my heel and walking back towards to car. "Well, hurry up guys! I get being late to a party is important, but I swear if I don't get to blow off some steam soon, there'll be hell to pay!" I call over my shoulder, hoping to get them moving. I climbed in the drivers seat, Sora climbing in next to me, and the others jumped in the back. Then, we took off.

So far, I've been at this party for hours, and no amount of numbers, or people in general, is lifting my mood. After I finish counting the numbers, I sigh and hand them over to Sora. "69 even, like you requested. All attractive, and most desperate." Sora laughed, flipping through the numbers.
"I don't know how you do it, I mean, it's been a year since you've actually flirted with someone other than Ventus!"
"Jeez, has it really been that long? I should be thrilled right now, huh?"
"Yeah, you really should be. And a few months ago, you would've been. SO, Vanitas, why don't you just go back to Ventus and ask for another chance?" I looked at my cousin in shock, not expecting to hear something like that. At first, I thought he was joking, but his unusually serious face said otherwise.
"Why the hell would I do that?" I asked. Sora just stared at me calmly for a few moments before talking.
"Because, Van, you love him. Yet you refuse to admit it to yourself. You love Ventus. Not many people would see it, you know, the way you try to make him jealous, and mad at you. But I've known you my whole life, and you've changed. Whenever Ventus clung to your arm, or kissed your cheek, or even just smiled fondly at you, you would always smile a genuine, happy smile. Not one of those happy and cocky smiles you give the people you toy with. The looks you gave him, the way you treated him.. it was just slightly different than the way you'd normally treat someone you were playing with, I have to admit, I barely noticed it. But whenever you think nobody is looking, you stare at Ventus fondly, yet sadly. He loves you so much, yet you force yourself to be an asshole, to try and make him hate you. Why? Why would you do that? Don't you think you're good enough? Don't you love him? And after Ventus didn't come running back to you like he usually did, you started acting kinda different. Like, everybody could see it. Dude, you seem depressed as fuck.. and you haven't been taking care of yourself. You've got bags under your eyes, and I knew for a fact that you haven't been eating properly." I stared at him for a few minutes, before turning away.
"I didn't think you would notice." I stated simply. Yes, I'm an asshole. And yes, I am also a player. I break hearts, and I toy with people's feelings. And I enjoy it. But after a few months of dating Ventus, I started to change around him. I changed the way I behaved, hoping to make him happier. When I realized what I was doing, what was going on, I quickly forced myself back to how I was before, going out of my way to make Ventus jealous and furious. That's when the fights started to happen. But there were still those few moments when we were completely alone, and I just let my guard down, and pulled him in. He loved those moments, and, at the time, I did too. Though the next day, I would loath the moment, and take it upon myself to me a complete and utter ass. Ventus deserves better than me. So making him jealous and mad constantly seems like the easiest way to make him hate me.

Looking up, I realized Sora was still staring at me. "Well? What are you waiting for? Go to him! Go tell him everything!" my eyes widen slightly, but I nod and run out the door, actually taking an order for once.

A few hours later, I arrived at Ven's front door, panting. I just had to give Riku my keys for safe keeping. God, I forgot all about that by the time I got to the car, and without even thinking, I just took off running. Brilliant. After I caught my breath, I pounded on the door, and before long, I heard footsteps, and the lock unlocking. When the door opened, I froze slightly.

"What do you want?" Ventus hissed at me, eyes full of hatred.

-Ventus-

I was just about to call Aqua and Terra to see what they were up to, when suddenly loud bangs irrupted from the door. Nearly tripping trying to get off my over-sized beanbag chair, I scramble over to the door. I quickly unlock the door, and fling it open, only to be disappointed by who stood there. Vanitas. The boy I broke up with 9 days ago. "What do you want?" I hissed at him, my eyes full of the false hatred being forced upon them.
"Please, Ven, just let me explain before you slam the door in my face, though I'd understand why you did it if you decided to, I deserve it after all.." Vanitas replied rather hurriedly, eyes pleading me to let him talk. I sigh, and look him dead in the eye.
"You've got 5 minutes." I said, opening the door wider and letting him in. Once we were both inside, and the door was shut, I decided to study Vanitas. Why is he here? What does he want? Is he here to torture me again? After looking him up and down a few times, I notice there's something different about him. Usually, he stands straight and tall, with a cocky smirk plastered on his face, but right now, his shoulders are slumped and his usual cocky smirk has been replaced by a nervous frown. There are slight dark circles under his eyes, and his clothes aren't as sharp as they used to be. His hands are fiddling with each other, which he never did, and he's toeing the side of his left heel with his right foot. His hair doesn't even have it's usual glossy gleam. Something's wrong. Something is seriously wrong with him.
"Look, I know I shouldn't be here, and to be perfectly honest, I'm not entirely sure why I'm standing here trying to explain myself to you," he started, so I looked up to meet his eyes, and for the first time, I noticed how they were turning pink and he blinked back tears. This just looks so wrong. I've never seen Vanitas like this before.
"I'm sorry, Ventus. I'm so, so sorry. And I know you probably think this is complete and utter bull, and I honestly wouldn't blame you. But I need to tell you this at least once, I need to tell you everything. You have the right to know, and I just can't hold it in any longer.." Vanitas lowered his head, his bangs covering his face from my site, but I still saw a tear roll down and plummet to the floor. "I love you, Ventus. I didn't when we first started dating, but after a while I just fell in love with you completely, and I never realized just how much until you didn't come back. At first, when you confessed to me and asked me out, my only thoughts were that I was bored, I had nothing better to do, and that you were extremely attractive and the last cute boy left that I hadn't toyed with. So for the first few months, that's all it was to me. For the first few months, I was just playing with you. But about 4 months in, I developed a crush on you, but I refused to admit it until that crush turn into pure love. 6 months dating you, I realized I was completely and utterly in love with you, and that didn't sit well with me. I was that player, that asshole who broke hearts, and toyed with people's feelings, that guy everybody hated, but wanted anyways. And suddenly, I was dropped violently into a world I didn't understand. I wanted to punish myself for letting it happen, so I started forcing myself to be even more of a dick than I already was, hoping to make you jealous and mad at me.. hoping to make you hate me. Cause that way, I would be able to deal with pain, something I actually knew how to handle. I was being selfish, I know that now. Heck, I'm still being completely selfish. But I needed to tell you this, because after I realized you weren't going to come back, I couldn't do anything properly. I could barely sleep, and I only ate enough to keep myself alive. All I did was laze around my apartment and watch boring tv, hoping to make myself sleep so I could lose myself in my dreams. I couldn't get you off my mind, no matter how hard I tried. I couldn't even have the luxury to cry because I lost you. I just felt so.. so numb, so empty.. soo... alone... I miss you so much, Ventus. I miss your smile, your laugh. I miss the way you clung to me even though I said I hated it. I miss the way you'd cuddle into my side when we finally got to be alone and watched a movie.. I miss tangling my fingers in your soft hair... I miss kissing your soft lips... I miss everything about us... but most of all, I really just miss being near you... Just being near you made me so happy.. it made me feel like I could be human again, like I could stop being an asshole and finally be a real man... I miss the way you make me feel, and even as I tell you this, I still have butterflies in my stomach, I feel like I'm going to barf I'm so nervous, and I'm fearing the rejection I know is coming..." Vanitas trailed off, and just stared at me, eyes wide, probably only realizing that he had just revealed his deepest fears to me. Taking this moment, I quickly sort through everything he just said. One thing stood out. He said he loves me. He's never said that before. Whenever I said it, he'd either say 'I know you do' or he'd just ignore it. But he actually said he loves me.
"I'm sorry.. you probably didn't want to hear any of that..." I stared at him thoughtfully, my face blank and emotionless. Stepping closer, and looking up at the slightly taller, raven haired boy, I wrapped my arms around his neck, and kissed him. It seemed a fitting way to tell him I still love him, and that I'll accept him if he just asks. As I tangle my fingers in his hair, he slowly, and cautiously, snaked his arms around my waist, as if not quite sure this is really happening. I was about to deepen the kiss when he pulled away, resting his forehead on mine.
"Does this mean.. you'll... take me back..?" he asked nervously, failing to keep his eyes locked on mine. Slowly, I bring my right hand down and cup his cheek,forcing him to look at me.
"Of course.." I breathed before roughly kissing him again.