MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. Sorry I'm late posting this, I've been busy. I wanna personally give a shout out to the two people who put this story on their alert list. I'm glad you've liked it. BTW I haven't read the Bloodlines series but I read up enough on it to keep my story as close to original story line but I don't plan on reading it anytime soon. I hope you all enjoy!

Rose's POV

Where is that man!

I paced his room multiple times before getting to the point of self awareness. Lissa had went to bed "early", and I wasn't going to stand in her way not after the morning I had. I took her up on my chances to not stay up all night watching boring people talk about dhampir policies, which me and her both stated novice advancement act, which will in turn destroy what the late Queen Tatiana left to us and, essentially allow schools like St. Vladimir to choose a group of twenty dhamipiers to be forwarded if their skills are above average and seniors graduate six months into the school year to become guardians. Like I'd said I was okay being out on my own protecting Lissa at 16 but I wasn't even fully capable to defend against strigoi.

I walk to the bathroom where I had to push the thoughts of this morning away. Looking in the mirror I thought I looked bad ass for someone who spent the last night saying goodbyes and making runs. With my dark brown hair in a tight bun with and my new and improved charmed silver infused chotki around my forearm I felt important again. An official Dragomir guardian. I laughed to myself and it echoed off the walls reminding me of the empty apartment. Where is that man! I glanced at my watch. 6:15 Am. Fuck it. To bed I go! I started removing the pins out of my hair and taking it out of a bun. I headed out to the bedroom and yawned. I kicked my shoes off towards the door. Everything felt tight, so I started undress leaving me just in my bra and panties. Forcing myself up to Dimitri's dresser to find one of his shirts and putting it on before passing out from a sudden exhausting feeling.

I hadn't known I was sleeping until I saw a pair of green eyes filled with hurt.

"Oh finally passed out from the nights of continuous love making with your craddle robbing soul mate?" Adrian had said with a straight face. He reached in his pocket for a cigarette and lit it.

"I wasn't continuously love making with Dimitri. I just got home from guarding Lissa. My shifts over it's her night time staff now." he looked at me, then at my outfit Dimitri's shirt and only his shirt.

"So now you're the type of girlfriend who wears her boyfriend shirt to bed?! Whatever Rose. I don't have time for your bullshit I just wanted to confirm our location. Apparently the alchemist is involved because I just meet some chick named Sydney, is she the one from Siberia?" I nodded. I knew that him, Jill, and Eddie Castile left, with royal permission of course, to protect Jill. They were finally safe and stable and now the alchemist got in on it too. I'll have a talk with Abe before he leaves.

"I've said sorry. I've felt the pain of hurting those around me from not having enough self-control to think about them in the process. I've murder a man that was innocent out of the anger that I held in from the world." I was not blaming Lissa's darkness for the murder of that man. A murder I now knew he knew nothing about. At first he looked as if he was about to hold me like the days when Dimitri wasn't around and I wasn't on rebound from killing the man I truly loved. He stepped back and looked at the ground. His mom said not to break his heart too bad and I fucked that over. But now that the damage is done I feel bad everyday. About everything I've done wrong. Every move I made before weighing the consequences and collateral material behind me. Everything! He was the to break the silence.

"Little dhampir….I…look I can't say that you haven't felt the pain and hurt I have." He plucked his cigarette but across the porch we'd been sitting on. "But I'm hurt and it seems as if this is going to another place and about things I shouldn't know about. As long as it wasn't any of my family, I don't care."

"How many times do I have to say sorry?" I asked for the first time tonight knowing once I ask for a third time that he will end this dream before he answers. He gave me those eyes that told me everything; pain, heartbreak, love, betrayal.

"You said it plenty. It won't help with you saying it again." I paced the porch, stopping at the railing to look up at the sky. It was almost blocked by a large tree. I took in our setting. We were sitting on a huge southern style house porch. It had one of those porch swings and a whole bunch of patio furniture everywhere.

"Where are we?" I asked. Clearly this was not a spot I've choose. He sighed and sat down on one of the porch chairs.

"This is our place. This was supposed to be our home." He looked up at nothing and ran his hands through his hair. I stepped off the porch to get a good look at this house. I liked this house and I could see where Adrian and I could make a life here. Our kids sitting on that porch or in this grass lawn petting some stray dog Lissa saved. Adrian bringing me chocolate eclairs knowing my cravings for them. And me, little old me, laying in the porch swing reading over what looks like important papers, pregnant with another child smiling as Adrian kissed the top of me head.

I shook myself out of the fantasy Adrian was forcing me to see. Tears fell from my eyes before I could stop them. This guilt! This fucking guilt!

"Do you see what you took from me? From us? I would have done anything for you and you used me and broke my heart! And I blindly let you!" He shouted. Now I was getting pissed. "But no it don't stop at that but then you had the audacity to go and say I'm was acting like a victim and need to get off my ass!... I want you to stop saying sorry!" He was now walking down the porch steps headed my way, stopping only an arm's distance away.

"But i am sorry." I looked him in his green eyes. How many times do I have to say it for you to forgive me? I'm trying here! Through the madness." I'd let my emotions get the best of me. We both grew tired and silent.

"Look I'm fucking tired of this argument. You won't hear from me unless Jill is in trouble or we're on the move again." He finally said. His face wore a masked expression that didn't show any feelings.

"Are there any threats?" My guardian skills suddenly kicking in. He looked as though he heard someone behind him.

"No, but I got to go. I need to get some sleep. Good night little dhampir." He walked up the porch steps and opened the black netted screen door. Just before he stepped into the house I asked him one more time.

"How many times?" I whispered. He turn just slightly enough that I saw his emotions. His face was grave and his eyes were fixed on mines.

"I don't think there will ever be enough times for me to forgive you." He left me no time to respond before he entered the house. The dream ended at that moment and I jumped out of my sleep. I called out to Dimitri, but no one responded indicating I was still alone. What the hell! The room light was still on so I couldn't tell how long I had slept. I looked at my watch. 6:54 AM. So I hadn't been sleep long.

Jumping up I headed to the dresser. Lissa had been wrong about surprising Dimitri in one of his shirts being sexy. We were too complex for that type of childsplay. Stupid me for taking 'sexy' advice from someone in a such prissy protected relationship. As soon as I was striping Dimitri's shirt he walked in. He eyes grew wide and whatever was on his mind was gone at the site of me almost naked. He quickly shut the door so no one outside could see me if they walked passed and placed a plastic container filled with meat on his kitchen counter. His clothes were bloodstained and he was packing some serious heat.

"What the hell happened to you?!" I nearly shouted. I knew he was going hunting but for what? What would you even catch out in Pennsylvania? He to stripped from his clothes just as I found a pair of grey sweatpants and a black sports bra from 'my' drawer in his dresser.

"Hunting." He simply said. "Why are you half naked?"

"Changing from my uniform." Smoothly coming up with a lie, to cover my embarrassing truth, he was quick to believe. He nodded and tossed his clothes into his dirty clothes hamper in-between the bathroom and his open kitchen. He put his sniper rifle and bullets in his closet next to me. I quickly dressed and headed towards the kitchen In his studio apartment it wasn't that far from his small living room set and huge bookshelf.

"I'm going to take a shower and come lay down." he called.

"What's in the container?" I asked opening the lid and sniffing the contents. It smelled good. And looked almost like beef. Maybe leftovers from the work meeting. Sometimes guardians bring food in for everyone. Receiving no other answer but running water, I took a piece and closed the lid. Returning to the bed I started nibbling on the piece of beef and Turned on the TV. Some horror movie was playing and once the first guy was killed I was hooked. I hadn't even heard Dimitri come out the shower. He came to sit on his bed after grabbing a pair of sweatpants for himself, already having on boxers. He laid next to me and started playing with my hair.

"I think you asked me something but I couldn't hear you." He said breaking my staring contest with the TV. I looked at him finally hearing his words.

"Oh. I asked what was in the container? It was kinda good." I said. He laughed. "What? What's so funny?" He looked at me.

"Nothing's funny but it was deer leg or veal. I'm glad you kinda enjoyed it." I had mixed emotions about finding out at ate deer but I shook it off.

"It was okay. How was your hunting with my parents?"

"Not as bad as you anticipated." He shrugged. " I've missed you."

"Lies! You only miss my hair!" He arched his eyebrow and sat up on his forearm. I kissed him fully on the lips and reached for the back of his head to pull his hair out of the rubber band he had in it. Slipping the rubber band on my wrist I ran my hand through his hair. He pulled me on top of him while simultaneously moving to the center of the bed and sitting up. Our kisses deepened and his hand were all over my back and waist. A moan escaped my lips and he growled in response. He broke the kiss and went to my neck then to my lower ear. I started to pulled my pants down before his whispered in my ear.

"Roza are you sure? Again?" I gave him a meaningful look. Now you question me? When I'm practically sitting on his lap! I answered his question by getting off of him and taking my panties and my sweatpants off without getting off the bed. I returned to our previous position and pulled his pants down just a enough to see his penis. I positioned myself to where the head of his penis was just at my already wet opening. I resumed kissing him and he reached for my perfectly round C-cup breast. I lowered myself onto him as reward for him playing with my breasts. We both stopping moving and moaned at the pleasure of being together after the long day. With me instantly cuming on him from our moment of pleasure, I was wet enough to move up and down on him more easily. Him sitting up with his back to the wall it made achieving orgasms much easier. His hands snaked through my hair as was one of mines was in his. The other was on the wall, holding it to keep me steady, sometime allowing it to drop down and rub his back. To take in the touch of the smoothness of his skin. I went faster up and down his shaft, stopping at the head of his penis a few times to tighten my wall around it.

"Roza… stop! Oh god yes!" I didn't listen. I was to wrapped in my own pleasure to let stop. Waves and waves of pleasure shot through me. He kissed me fiercely from my mouth to down my neck. Little moans were escaping by now from me. I surprised myself by how much I was holding in until I felt his hot wet tongue at my nipple. I moaned louder and threw my head back. He took this as our chance to change positions. He carefully flipped the both of us. His hair falling down his face just a few inches towards his shoulders. Once on top he got rid of his pants and tossed them on floor next to mines. He returned to me, his face beatific but I knew he wanted more. We both couldn't get enough of each other. He slowly re-entered me and I gasped ecstatically as he hit my g-spot.

"Oooohhhh…. Mmmmyyyyy…. Gggggoooooooooodddddd!" It was hard to get my words out with him rushing in and out of me. I came undone all over him and the sheets. He must have been close to cuming because his pace quickened and he pull out. His seed going on the already wet sheets. I pulled him to kiss me and as he did we both had hair stuck to our faces.

"Mhmm, I love you Roza." His voice was like butter. "Go take a shower, I'll have new sheets on the bed by the time you come back." He kissed my forehead and got off the bed, headed towards his dresser. I rolled of the bed and stumbled to the bathroom door.

"Rose." I turned to him just before opening the door. He tossed me a tshirt and some black boy shorts.

"Thanks." I gave him a lazy smile and he nodded and proceeded to the bed to take the sheet off.

Once in the bathroom I started the water for my shower. I noticed that Dimitri's rubber band was still on my wrist, so I used it to tie up my hair so it wouldn't get wet in the shower. I washed myself with my bottle of Amor body wash that Lissa had found and bought online, after I had ran out if the perfume that Adrian had sent me long ago and said it fit well with my scent. She too said it made my scent irresistible especially to those who tasted from my blood. After I felt clean enough I stepped out the shower and dried off.

Dimitri, once again walking in on me being half naked, stop and stared in awe.

"Your beautiful Roza." He said. I could see his erection coming back and it turned me on for more. I dropped my towel, giving him a perfect view of my semi wet body. To that he smiled and went over to start his own shower. I stopped him with one sly move. And he knew I was starting with him. "Roza this is not like this morning we need to sleep. We have to be up soon." I stopped listening at 'morning', I knelt down and pulled his penis out of his boxers. "Roza what are you….?" I kissed the head and stuck my tongue out to lick it in small circles. He leaned against the shower glass, which was strong enough to bear both our weights. I flicked my tongue over the head of his penis until I started to taste pre cum. He moan for me not to stop so I put his leftovers in my mouth and sucked at the head.

"Oh shit! Roza more! American girls are so full of surprises." He laughed and it pushed his penis in a little bit further in my mouth. I heard him grunt as I took him in fully. I bobbed back and forth slowly, quicken when I felt his hands on the back of my head. I stopped when he let go of my hair. He gripped me up and bent me over the sink.

"Your water is going to get cold babe." I said in a small voice. He laughed and spread my legs wide.

"After making love with you I'm going to need a cold shower." He positioned his wet penis to my opening. "You're going to be sore tomorrow Roza." He said before pounding into me. I moaned and shuddered as waves and waves of pleasure passed through.

The next day(night)

The smell of coffee was in the air when I woke up the next day. Last night ended with me cuddled up with Dimitri right beside me. It was beginning to feel like something normal, sleeping in a bed with someone other than Lissa.

I walked to the bathroom to brush my teeth, but took a peek in the kitchen to see what Dimitri was doing. He was in the kitchen, grabbing something out the fridge.

"What's for breakfast comrade?" I asked. He picked up a half gallon of milk to show it to me.

"Syrniki." He said. I stared blankly at him. Do it look like I speak Russian! He laughed and kissed my forehead. "Russian sweet cheese fritters. Trust me it good."

"It smells good, so we'll see! But I meant to ask you if you had you clothes together for tomorrow's going-away dinner?" He poured me a cup of coffee and added milk and sugar. "I take it we're out of creamer?" He looked shocked by my question.

"My clothes are my uniform, and yes we're out of creamer." He picked up my hands as I sat the cup down after taking a small sip. "We don't all get the royal perks of being best friends with the queen." We'll see about that.

I'm quite sure you're going to need something nice anyway, so stop by the tailor after work." He looked at me seriously and I took a long sip of coffee. I knew what was coming next. Master zen bullshit about codes and honor.

"There are codes and rules and…." I zoned out trying to reconnect with Lissa. I walked towards the russian cheese sweet things, Syrniky? Syrniki? I sniffed it and took a bit. I resume listening to Dimitri. "Unless Christian wants me to dressed up, I will be wearing my uniform."

"Okay." I said with a mouth full biscuits. He nodded and walked off to the dresser to get dressed.

"You got 40 minutes it's 7 PM. And I'm supposed to be with Christian at 7:30." Escorting him from the Queen's rooms not doubt. I chugged the rest of the coffee down and went in the bathroom to do my morning routine that I had got accustomed to; brush my teeth, brush my hair, etc. I was about to walk out when Dimitri knocked on the door. I opened it. He smiled and kissed me on the forehead.

"I got to go. See you later, And Roza?"

"Yes?"

" Wear your hair up. I love you." He kissed me goodbye.

"I love you too. See you later." Dimitri walked out the door. I quickly dressed and put my hair in a messy bun high enough for anyone to see my tattoos on the back of my neck. Realizing that it was 7:40pm I rushed out the door. Headed towards the Queen's room.

Happy holidays everyone. I hope you're all filled with joy and enjoyed this chapter. No lemon in the next chapter. I'm thinking about adding a PG version of this story but it will only be slightly different. Tell me what you think! Im dieing to hear!

P.S : I'm also looking for a beta reader if anyone is interested! Pm me and let me know!