"Lost In Paradise"

{{polyvore com / cgi/set ?id= 77267217 what he changes into after he wakes up}}

He woke with a start, hand resting over his still heart. His dream had been so real… like she was there in his arm then her life was gone… He hated the way she made him feel still after all this time. He knew he still loved her, but she was with another, she betrayed him. A ragged breath fall past his lips as he got up and dressed.

I've been believing in something so distant
As if I was human
And I've been denying this feeling of hopelessness
In me, in me

With a soft goodbye to his flat mates his went out to the city, hat and sunglasses firmly planted in his face. The feeling he felt left him with a sense of unease. Like something would happen… but he brushed it aside, knowing that it most likely due to his almost constant thought of her. No more… he told himself that almost every day, but it never seemed to work.

All the promises I made
Just to let you down
You believed in me, but I'm broken
I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting
We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

He looked around. Everywhere he looked he saw what he once more longed to have. Men and women, who were together, he could clearly see that each couple had love for each other, and a few who looked as if they were going to be parents. That made him feel the great pain in his heart. He would never have a child…

As much as I'd like the past not to exist
It still does
And as much as I'd like to feel like I belong here
I'm just as scared as you

He stopped by a small coffee shop and bought a black coffee, picking a dark corner to sit in alone. He pulled out his phone; there was a picture of her. She hadn't been paying attention she he took the picture. She was wearing his blue and black plaid shirt and dancing around her small kitchen with her hair up and headphones stuck in her ears. He still remembered when she finally noticed him in the room, she had yelped and lost her balance but he caught her.

I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting
We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

He remember her kiss, as he lost himself to all of his memories of her in his life. The time they met, he had still been deep in the bad circles, with Herrick. She was the light in his darkened life. She was meant to be a victim, but he couldn't bring himself to hurt her. Instead he asked her out on a date, and the rest was history.

Run away, run away
One day we won't feel this pain anymore
Take it all away
Shadows of you
Cause they won't let me go

He shook his head, clearing his mind and turned off his phone screen, so as not to see her image again, but he knew, he would never change it. With silent steps he left the café, making his way to the park where he had first met her. It seemed that his feet just led him there. The trees swayed in the light breeze. It made him smile and he pulled off his sunglasses so as not to let them affect his view of the park.

Until I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting
We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise

It seemed it was get every kind of reminder of her that day. There before him she sat. His heart broke, he saw her. She was pregnant. As if she sensed him, she looked up. He saw her eyes water up and a sob tear from her mouth. He could hear her from his spot. "Mitch… I…. I'm so sorry…"

Alone, and lost in paradise

"Why didn't you save me? Why!?"

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