The Rivera Estate
Saturday April 1st
7:48 pm
Josh ran his thumb over my hand as we walked through the tall rose infested hedges in my backyard, he looked like a perfect eleven in his all black Armani suit with a simple silver chain. His brown curls were free from its usual Yankees cap and he looked like the model I always thought he should be. He was undeniably sexy and the more he went through puberty the more I found myself having thoughts I use to giggle at when I saw it on tv. His body wasn't the only change He had over the past year , he was still his quiet self but like me beginning to come into his own. He was goofy in a cute I'm famous but relatable kind of way true to his shy self in a sense given he'd shine with small side comments that made everyone laugh. It's how he got me talking to him again after our last breakup and how he's gotten through our anniversary dinner with my parents. "These roses remind me of you" he spoke stopping by a hedge picking one off careful to not prick himself. My heart leaped at the comment Roses were my favorites after all "why?" I fished for some more butterflies in my stomach "I dunno red has always been the most fitting color for you is the color of love and everything...sexy" he gave a goofy smile like he always did when he complimented me in a rated R way. I made a mental note to wear more red as I kissed his cheek ironically enough I was wearing a new VS red lace set underneath my dolce and gabbanna goddess dress. "You look sexy in black" I whispered while his forehead touched mine "and the chain was a nice touch" I assured him.
"Well I guess I have you to thank. Us swearing off Ralph for the summer was challenging but we emerged with better style if I do say so myself." He chuckled his Adam's apple moving as he did so. I laughed along with him remembering the day I had a Ralph Lauren intervention with him over a lunch date. He began to tell me all about the stuff going on with his favorite show which we had started watching together over Skype the past month and I listened in awe. How did i get so ah-nnoyingly lucky he was the perfect boyfriend from the movies. Loving him didn't hurt the way every other relationship with people my age did , it didn't come at a cost like it did with my friends. It use to when we were younger, when this was a perfectly plotted plan for the madness of it all. When there was rules from massie to ensure we were all miserable at the same time and didn't move ahead of her when it came to boyfriends. But we were and there was nothing she could do to stop us as long as she was pretending Derrick was her perfect accessory and the lack of romance didn't hurt her. She'd have to expose herself and I knew better than anyone it would be a cold day in hell before she ever admitted her boyfriend didn't infect adore her. "Hey , Ali" josh waved his hand in front of me and I snapped out of it , we were at my frint lobby now. "Sorry I was just thinking" I apologized he then ruffled my hair which I only allowed because I was going to bed it had kept itself presentable for as long as I needed it to. His hands slid down from my shoulders to my elbow resting for only a moment before he grabbed my hips pulling me closer. "It was a nice dinner" he began staring into my eyes "I couldn't chew my steak" I reminded him getting a laugh that made him throw his head for of brown curls back displaying his perfect teeth. "You looked adorable trying" he assured me making me blush " but you look adorable doing anything I guess that explains why I love you so much"
That. That's what sent electricity through my body , the whispered declarations of his devotion towards me. "I'm just in it for the free jackets" I joked poking fun at how I'd always end up wearing his during school to the point where he'd ask what I was wearing so it would coordinate well. "Ah, heartless yet I just feel more compelled to keep you around and give you my clothing" he mumbled before pressing his pink lips against mine. His tongue begging me to open up to him , I liked the waythis felt tonight. It felt real those movies no longer seemed cheesy now that I had gotten the butterflies and the high that came from loving a boy. I didn't want to ever lose him and I would make sure of it by never letting PC drama interfere with us. He pulled away our noses still touching "i honestly feel so lucky" he said pushing a strand of hair behind my ear. "I was going to say the same thing" I smiled , I didn't want him to get any farther away from me I wanted to stand like this all night and just live in this very moment. The lighting, the Armani suit, the oddly satisfying full feeling from the champagne we were allowed to taste with our dinner.
"Josh"
"Hm?"
My heart was pounding in my ears as I began to speak without filtering myself "my parents are going into Manhattan until tomorrow afternoon they only stayed to have dinner with us" I told him. He smiled politely clearly unsure why this random information was coming out now "can you go to my room for a minute I wanna talk in private" I lied pointing to the housekeeper with my eyes. "Uh Okay he said kissing my on the forehead before jogging up the marble staircase. I let out a sigh of relief walking towards the lounge where my parents had purposely runaway to leaving me and josh to have dessert alone. "I thought you guys left already without saying goodbye" I fake pouted, they were in full work attire now ready to leave. "Never, did josh leave already?"
"Yep. He said thank you for dinner and that he was definitely taking you up on that deal Dad" I lied following them to the front door. "He's a perfect gentleman isn't he Alicia. I hope that boy is as good in school as he is being a boyfriend" my mother challenged kissing my forehead. "We'll be back around one" my dad told me proceeding to go over safety rules for tonight "how about I just meet you guys in the city for dinner and we can spend the weekend. I'd go now but I'm super tired and didn't pack." I proposed "aw honey that sounds lovely we all could get out of here for a few I'll call you tomorrow" she beamed. I waved them off as dean pulled away making sure they were gone and thanked the housekeeper as she left as well before running up to see josh. "Everything okay? He asked with a raised brow" I giggled sitting him down on my bed "yeah why?" Did I look as scared as I was ?
"You asked to talk I got worried"
"Oh um...well I didn't really mean talk" I said awkwardly sitting next to him. I leaned in finishing the intense kiss we had started downstairs coming up for air after a few moments. "I want to have sex, I'm ready and I'm home alone" I said quickly, he sat up really fast looking at me in shock. "I want to do this with you...I love you" I felt naked as I was telling him this. He caressed my cheek with a unreadable expression on his face "I love you too" he said kissing me again slowly leaning until I was flat on my back. I opened up my legs allowing him to climb in between them , his hands cupped my thighs to keep them in place but slowly traveled down until his fingertips grazed the side of my lace panties. He looked sexy hovering over me chain hanging down and a rose in his pocket. It did something to me, my lower half was throbbing waiting for him to undress me and touch me in ways I hadn't been touched before. He stood up never breaking eye contact as he removed his jacket and began unbuttoning his shirt. I pinched my thigh to assure I wasn't dreaming once the sound of his belt buckle could be heard, I had never seen a penis before. The thought was gross before tonight but now I wanted us to be practically merged together. He slowly slid his pants down revealing his Tommy Hilfiger boxers "you look like you stepped out of a catalog" I said very truthfully making him smile. "Come here" he instructed. I wasted no time getting to him "can I?" He asked pulling at my dress strap as I faced him. "Yes" I granted and he slid them over my shoulders gently pulling my dress down letting it fall to my ankles. "Woah" he said eying my almost naked body , this was different from a bikini it was meant to entice and it was the sexiest color after all. I laid back down "I snagged a condom on my way up here" I blurted as he climbed back over me. "Good call because I would've been to distracted to notice " he told me as he slid his finger down my chest circling my toned stomach before messing with my waistline making me bite my lip. I wanted to jump him and feel everything I was craving instead I felt around for his and yanked down his perfect boxers hoping I didn't seem too eager. "Jesus Christ no warning" he gasped before doing the same to me lifting my hips and pulling until my underwear was hanging off my left ankle. I felt exposed with my legs open while he looked at me , it felt like debuting an awful haircut or bad shoes at school all eyes were on me and I couldn't help but squirm under the attention.
"You're staring"
"You're beautiful" was all he said , but it was as if he wasn't there , his mind was somewhere else. I smiled beginning to close my legs until his hand pushed my knees apart and kissed down my stomach until he reached my vagina. "Fuck" I cursed for the first time surprising myself at the built up tension I had until he finally touched me he kept going until he reached my lips. Spreading them with his tongue before giving them the softest kisses I had ever felt causing me to moan. "I want to make love to you" he said directly to my vagina the embarrassment had subsided I now wanted nothing more than him to give all his attention to my private parts. "Do it" was all I said pulling the condom out of my bra and ripping it open , it was my turn to do a little exploring now. I opened it up and sat up slowly rolling it down his penis , it wasn't some gross thing I imagined it to be. Honestly it looked like the most perfect thing in the world compared to the things I'd heard from students in my health class and the Internet. It felt like one of thise stress balls made from a balloon and flower , he grunted as I slowly slid it on him giving one innocent stroke to make sure it was on properly. "Okay baby lets do this" I smiled letting him kiss me into submission yet again his hand felt around until he found my bra hook and let it come undone I pushed the straps off and let of fall down my arms. Everyone always spoke about my breast , it was something I always hated but it gave me a sudden boost of confidence knowing they were the most perfect thing on me and was bound to impress him. "Fuck" he said running a finger over my nipples with the same dazed look he had before. I pulled his hands placing them on my boobs pressing them against myself with a smirk on my face "congrats on doing something everyone's dreamed about" I said in sultry tone channeling the hot girls from the movies who knew what they were doing. Fake it till you make it. "Forget everyone else this was my dream" he whispered gently pushing me back onto the bed then pushing me further up so we were right in the middle. My hands were by my head as I waited for him to get in position "You're gorgeous Ali" He said to me before adjusting my hips. I could feel his penis touching me and a wave of nervousness took over "Wait ... hold my hand" I said softly , he positioned himself right then placed both hands on top of mine pressing them into my duvet for stability before gently pushing himself inside me. I didn't moan or scream, the sound was unatrual to me and so was the feeling. "Does that hurt ?" He quickly asked "keep going" I said breathlessly nodding to assure him it was alright.
One ow two ow three OW four
I had taken to him finally I sighed out of relief as he continued to distract me by kissing my neck and chest. His tongue circled my nipple before gently biting it giving me pleasure as he pushed himself inside me. I felt like I was on could nine my body felt better than it did when I danced and it was all at his touch. "Harder josh" I moaned out to him releasing his hands. He bit my harder while he pushed my knees to the side of my body giving himself more leverage. He was grunting with each thrust "you feel amazing Ali" he moaned pushing my legs down more. I looked around my room my mind slowly releasing itself , I was having sex. I was comfortable and I was happy to know I wouldn't be worrying about not getting a call tomorrow. Handing in my V card felt amazing and the next best thing was knowing I was first. Massie would be envious and the girls would practically swarm me from now on seeing as they were nowhere near as ready as me and josh had been. Sure I was still just Massie Blocks Beta But I felt better than she ever had. I was popular, rich, and smart just like her, Maybe the universe was trying to hand me something better than Alpha. I reached up and held his face pulling him closer to me, he closed the gap between us just as an explosion vibrated through me. We stopped and he rolled over catching his breath staring at my ceiling. We were quiet for a bit until he reached over and held my hand "that was...something" he said "I giggled before turning on my side to face him covering myself with a blanket. "You can spend the night unless your parents will be wondering where you are"
"I can think of something, they probably won't notice they don't go in my room." He smiled turning to me stroking my hair.
I wondered how the girls would react when I told them, a big part of me wanted to keep this moment a secret before I threw it to the wolves that were my jealous friends. Sure they'd be totally stained at first but it would brew into jealous comebacks over time if we ever had problems. It's how we were but we never shared anything this big with each other. Maybe it would be different. I looked back at him and smiled this was just for us not gossip points.
The Rivera Estate
Monday April 3rd
6:45 AM
I looked over my outfit once more hoping it would speak to me , tell me what it needed so I could nurse it to a perfect ten. The floral black V cut dishee dress looked great against my naturally tan skin, perfect even. I had paired it with Cartier chandelier earrings and a pink diamond tennis bracelet my father had given me on Valentine's Day. The final piece was the gold A.H monogram necklace that hadn't left my neck since josh handed it to me last year. Alicia Hotz, it scored him major points with me but the P.C not so much. Claire got it, but of course she did she believed in everything cheesy so Massies response held more weight than usual. Had my relationship turned me into some "LLC, Lame Lovestruck Copy" of her and Derrick Like massie insisted then declaring the A.H meant attention hog. Initially I shook it off I'm still wearing this necklace aren't I? She was just jealous that I was in a relationship like Claire and cam and it wasn't just a power play to score points at school. Sure josh rings true to his last name which didn't hurt my reputation and we seemed to have the perfect public moments together aside from the ah-mazing reputation we had together it was even better behind closed doors. I threw on my black Balenciaga color blocked logo windbreaker a gift from Kristen that was actually cuter than I thought anything sporty could be. "Bye papi" I smiled kissing the side of my dads face and hugging my mothers sharp shoulders. "Have a good day sweetheart" she said as I strutted towards the foyer the confidence in my outfit slowly lowering the closer I got. On the other side of those stone doors the Blocks black Range Rover was waiting for me with the people who knew me best. Would they smell it on me ? Did my outfit scream slut, usually I'd be fighting for the limelight but I just wanted a personal day from being a gold card PC member.
"Sup chicas" I greeted putting on my best front "omg that thing totally hides your boobs" Massie commented with a smirk "but it's an ah-mazing label tag 8.5" she rated me. I smiled back looking Over her outfit she had bracelets on both arms including her favorite charm bracelet a chiffon top beige suede mini and knee high boots to match. She looked good "9.4 a nude lip would've totally made you a ten" I said tossing my hair behind my shoulder a chill running down my spine as I had a flash back to Saturday night. "Where's kuh-laire" I questioned missing the familiar face I was left all alone in a car with massie and for the first time ever the last thing I wanted was her attention. " she got a ride with fisher" she said tight lipped as she smeared gloss onto her lips. It obviously bothered her, all her nonchalant covers read like a book to me but i only used it to my advantage. Since she wasn't bothered about it we could talk about it right ? "Cam picked her up , that's ah-dorable you and Derrick should do stuff like that" I gushed putting my hand over my heart. She scoffed shutting her compact mirror "and look like I accidentally picked a HART that follows me around like a lost puppy" she said in fake disgust. "He's an Alpha like me, we can't leave our groups hanging for each other imagine what would happen without me" she explained his blatant lack of time for her. I wanted to ask how he was so busy attending to his pack when they were scattered amongst us on dates like real couples, but I didn't feel like starting a war today. "Given" I said making a invisible tally mark we averted our eyes to Dylan as she stepped out in her flawless outfit hand picked by one of her families personal stylist. They began discussing whatever drama was happening for Dylan's show this week I nodded and smiled zoning out.