second chapter is up. Please review. It will help me get better and you guys can give me ideas too. Most of all, it will motivate me to write more. Many thanks to the two people who review my story so far. I might stop the story if it doesn't get any input because I have no one to edit this for me except for myself. This is still my first story, so go easy on me. Thank you for reading! ^_^
I looked at you, not knowing what to say. So I just sat there, with tears still falling from my eyes.
"Kyouya, please don't cry." You sat down beside me on the bed and gently hold my face, using your thumb to wipe my tears away. I looked at you, trying to stop my tears yet again, though it obliviously did not work. You pulled me closer and hugged me. Patting me on the head and soothing me like you always use to do when I was a child. It brought up the memories of when I used to get beat up by father in training. I felt like a child again when I cried in your arms. I felt so useless. I couldn't stop the only one I loved from leaving me. I'm just a kid who can't protect anything that's important to me. I felt so stupid for trusting Dino. I… I…
"Kyouya, do you feel better now?" You asked when I finally stopped crying.
"Yes, so can you please let go now?" I squirmed around in your hold and looked up at you like I always did after I stopped crying.
"You're so cute, Kyouya." You hugged me tighter. I guess this became a habit for the both of us. I feel so much better with you here.
"Let go of me!" I pretended to get angry at you and you whispered your reply into my ears.
"I know you want to stay like this." I was blushing hard and totally embarrassed. I was so glad no one else saw this as it would make it even more embarrassing for me. "N-no I…I don-don't." I was stuttering from my embarrassment. This is totally not like me. I can't believe I was still like this in his presence even after all these years. I'm an adult now, not that kid that always cried in his older brother's arms. Right?
"So cute!" You ruffled my hair with a grin on your face. I stared at you with a blank expression, thinking that you were an idiot. My heart starts to hurt again. You've remind me of that idiot horse. Stupid Dino, I need to stop thinking about him.
"What's wrong Kyouya?" You looked so concerned.
"…" I didn't want to tell you. I didn't want to admit that I was wrong for choosing Dino.
"Kyouya, please tell me." You begged me with puppy dog eyes. I couldn't resist, but kept my mouth shut. I guess the training I went through was helping more than I thought it would.
Silence…
"Tell me." You looked so worried and unhappy. I felt that I should tell you but I can't bring myself to do it. I don't want to face it. I don't want to face the cruel truth. I can't face the fact that he has left me for good. I don't want to admit that he threw me away. I don't want to admit that this is real. I want to believe that this is all a horrible nightmare and when I wake up, he would still be with me. I want to pretend that nothing happened. That's why I can't bring myself to say it; because if I did, I would have to admit the fact that this is real. I would have to face the fact that Dino broke his promise and is going to get married with some woman I don't even know about.
I felt so bitter and jealous. I'm so jealous and hateful of the woman who gets to be with Dino. I'm not allowed to be with him, and yet she is. I hate her for that. But most of all, I hate him for throwing me away when he liked and taking my whole world away from me. It might be stupid but ever since I fell in love with him, Dino was my whole world. No, it was since the first day I met him. Yes, my whole world revolved around him after that moment. Why? Why does it have to be him? Why can't he choose to be with me? I guess I'm not his number one after all…
My heart never stopped hurting. It only got worse. It hurt more and more but at least I'm not crying over him anymore. Or so I thought until a tear flow down my face. I quickly moved my hand to wipe my tear away but you grabbed my hands, stopping me from what I was going to do. Instead, you licked the faint trail that the tear drop left behind and kissed me on the eye. My face heated up incredibly. When I realized what had happened, I tried to get away from you. You used your weight and pushed me down on to the bed. I tried to move, but you used your weight to pin me down under you.
"Tell me." You whispered into my ear in a low and seductive voice. You waited for a reply but I didn't answer. I couldn't even think straight anymore. The only one who was able to make me feel like this is Dino and of course he was the only one who I allowed to do it. So why are you making me feel like this too? Why is it not Dino that's here? Why is it you?
With one move, you snapped me out of my thoughts. I desperately tried to get out of your grip and run away, but found it impossible. I felt your warm lips on mine. It felt like one of the kisses that Dino and I have shared except for the fact that your scents are different, your lips feel different, and that you kiss in a different way. But still, it was gentle and full of passion, lust and desire all at the same time like every one of Dino's kisses. As I recall more and more of the time I spent with Dino, I felt pain. It felt like someone is carving my heart out piece by piece. I couldn't breathe because of all the pain. It was suffocating.
"Kyouya, did you hate it that much?" No, I didn't. It just brought back too much painful memories.
"Kyouya, please don't cry." Apparently, I had started crying again. I hadn't even realized it until it was pointed out to me. You licked my tears away again but I didn't do anything to resist this time. I just laid there under you. My tears stopped soon after.
"Kyouya, can you tell me what happened now? I want to help you. I can't stand seeing you like this."
"Di-Dino…" I tried to talk as I sobbed. Tears fall from my eyes again. I can't run away anymore. I have to face the truth. Now!
"Him again! Urgg…"
"H..l..t..e"
"What? What did you say?"
"He le-left me." I had finally said it. I had accepted the truth.
"He did what!" You yelled angrily. I just kept on sobbing.
"After all you did for him too! That liar! What I'll love Kyouya and treasure him forever. I'll devote my life to him. I'll make him happy. I'll take good care of him so please leave Kyouya to me." I blushed. Stop repeating such embarrassing things.
"How dare he do that to my precious Kyouya!" You were so angry that veins popped on your head. I was surprised by how much you cared even after I had once run away from home. I wiped me tears away and stopped myself from crying.
"I'm going to kill him, just you wait!" You sounded so serious that I started to worry for Dino's safety. Why am I caring for him when he just threw me away without even considering my feelings? But I'm selfish aren't I? I knew this was going to happen and yet I didn't do anything to prevent it. I just waited for the inevitable and hoped that he would choose me like he promised. No one would choose someone like me. I'm just a selfish brat. It must have been hard for him to stand someone like me. I could have been nicer to him. I could have expressed my feelings for him in words no matter how embarrassing it was. There are thoughts that would never be sent across to him no matter how obvious they should be or how much I thought of it. He was not a mind reader.
"Its fine, I knew this was going to happen someday." Tears fall once more. I don't know was gotten into myself. I'm crying way too much for that bastard.
"Kyouya, I can't stand this." You embraced me. "I don't want to see you suffer like this. I love you Kyouya."
"I do too, Aniue."
"Not like that, Kyouya."
"What do you mean" I was confused. Did you mean you love me like the way Dino meant it?
"I…I love you the way you love Dino!" You blunted out so fast that I almost didn't hear what you said. Your face turned bright red and smoke came rising out of your head. You grip on me became loose and you leaned on me. I expected you to be heavier after pining me down, but you weren't that heavy. I was shocked. I never thought that the day where I had to take care of you would come. Wait, weren't I the one that needed to be comforted. Well, not that I mind. I kind of liked this, knowing that you could count on me too. I could feel your breath on my bare skin. It sent shivers down my spine. I wasn't annoyed by your closeness for some reason but I didn't want to show it. You're making me feel weird like when I'm with Dino. I don't like this.
"Too close…"I mumbled under my breath.
"But I like being close to you." You stared at me and moved in trying to kiss me. I annoyingly pushed you away. I haven't given up on Dino just yet. Now it's my turn to prevent the inevitable. It's my turn to use these hands and pull him back to me once more. I won't let him go. I won't... because I can no longer live without him.
"Kyouya, at least give me a chance." You tried to convince me. You make me feel weird like Dino too so I might love you, but I can't give up on Dino. I clung on to the hope of being about to stop Dino from leaving me.
"My heart belongs to him, you know that…" at least for now. I didn't tell you that last part. How could I? I didn't want you to hope. It might never happen after all. I might have convinced Dino to stay with me. I know I'm not acting like myself, but I'll never forgive myself if I let this chance go.
"I know, but all he has done is hurt you. I don't want to watch you suffer." You were sincere, I could tell that. I wanted to give you a chance, but I couldn't. It was too late for that, my heart already belonged to someone else since long ago. Someone else who loved me. Someone else who was going to selfishly getting married.
"Not now…" I didn't know what to say next.
"Then give me a chance, even if I have to wait for it. If it's for you, I'll wait." You seemed sure of yourself. There wasn't any hesitation. My resolve weakened, if only I could stay with you like this. I couldn't find it in me to turn you down.
"Fine, but no promises." I had agreed to it. I'm sure Dino would get jealous if he ever found out about this, or would he? I'm sure that the Dino that loved me would, but what about the Dino now? Would he still care about me? Or did he already fall in love with his fiancée and forgot about me? If only he still cared, you don't know how happy I would be…
"Thanks." You moved in closer, eyes never avoiding contact with mine. I didn't stop you this time. I'll let you do what you want this time. Your lips were close. I could feel you breathe on my lips. I wait it for what was coming next, but you stopped. You turn you head away and kissed me on my left cheek.
"I'll save that for when you've given up on him." You whispered into my ear. I blushed.
"Don't get your hopes up." Dino will stay with me. That was my only hope, the only thought that comforts me.
"Same to you Kyouya. He might have loved you once, but does he still?" I didn't know what to say. Even I wanted know the answer to that. Even though he did say that he can't live without me, even though he promised that he would always love me… I can't help but worry, does he still love me? I'm so unsure of his feelings now. Would he do this even if he still loved me? How could he even think of marrying someone else? Not that we can legally get married.
"Even you aren't sure of his feelings?" I nodded in response. I felt so ashamed. I loved him and yet not even I'm sure about his feelings anymore. I don't trust him enough, but that's his fault. How can I trust him after all of this? When he has broken our promise, our vow to be together?
"I…" I didn't know what to say.
"It's ok. You don't have to say anything." You patted me on the head and hugged me.
We stayed there like that for a while. It was warm being in your arms like this. It gave me time to think. To think about what I was going to do next. How can I get Dino to come back to me? Would he even come back?
"Do you think he would come back?" My voice was wavering. Pathetic. How far have I dropped because of him?
"Honestly, I don't." My heart went cold for a second. Those words, they struck me hard. I start to worry. It's not like I wasn't worried before. Not that I'll ever admit it, I've always been worried. Worried that he will leave me and never come back again. But this time, it's different. He had left me already and might not ever come back. Not unless I do something about it.
"From what I've seen, you've never been all that important to him, not when he can throw you away like this!" I knew it. The people he cared the most about are the people in his family. I'll never be the person that's the most important to him no matter how much we love each other. No matter how much I love him, it won't change that fact. I've always thought to not ask too much of him so I didn't say but how I longed that I would be his number one, the one he care the most about, his most important person. If I ever get the chance again, I tell him. I'll ask this of him even if that's just being selfish on my part. I'll ask this of him even if he won't listen to my request.
"But he loved me, more than he did anyone!" I yelled. Did he? I started to doubt that I was the one that he loved the most. Did he ever tell me that I'm the one that he loved the most? No, he didn't. Even though he said just about everything else to express his love for me. Come to think of it, I've seen him around with a few girls before. He said that they were just friends but was he telling the truth when I got jealous and confronted him about it? Did he cheating on me? I doubted him. I can't doubt him now! I'll get him back. He loves me! He does, right? "I think…" I'm not sure anymore.
"You just said "loved" didn't you?" You smirked. I was surprise, I didn't even notice. Even I didn't believe in him. Even though I love him, it's only confuseing me further. The love I held for him only made me doubt him more. Jealousy, it clouded my mind. I'm so pathetic. My heart hurts. It hurts. It hurt so much, knowing that I didn't trust him anymore. Maybe it's my fault that he left.
The small glimmer of hope I had starts to fade away…
What should I do next? Please give me ideas! I'm think of some ideas but I'm not sure. Should I speed thing up a bit and make it more interesting? Oh, for the people who doesn't know what Aniue means.*looks around* It means brother. By the way, the reason I can't get people to read this for me is because they cry too much. Not that I'm not crying here myself. *sob* Right now, I'm feeling like I should teach Dino a lesson for doing this to Kyouya. *evil smirk*
Silence...
Five minutes later...
Dino:What are you doing?(tied up by his own whip)
Me:How dare you to this to my beloved Kyouya? (starts psychological attack) I wonder what's going to happen next? *sadistic smile*
Dino:What! Kyouya's mine! What's your relationship with Kyouya! *Set himself on fire somehow*
Me:We just love eachother a-L-O-T. *Burning even more* it's so fun to tease him! Ha, he's stupid! (grabs the bucket and pours water on Dino)
Dino:What are you doing?(soaking wet)
Me:Just putting out the fire. *light blub* I just thought of something good! *evil sadistic grin*
Dino:What are you thinking?(tries to get far away from me but doesn't get to far)
Me:Ohh, nothing. (turns my head away) let's see what becomes of this! *Takes out something*
Dino:Nooooo!
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