A/N I don't own anything.
Bella/Alice/Leah
Rated M
Chapter 1
Running my fingers through my messy hair, I signed heavly wishing I was anywhere but here, my mother Renee had dragged me to this get together with her friends and their daughters. My mother knew that I was some what anti-soical and she still begged and pled for me to go with her because, she didn't want to be the only one there without their daughters. I couldn't say no and now I'm here stuck sitting here surrounded by fake, bleach blondes talking my ear off about complete shit, at one point, one of the girl fucking grabbed my ass and that was it for me, I had to get the fuck out of here. Wanting to be polite and not disrespect a woman...not that I will call these girls here woman but I was rasied to always respect a woman regardless...even if they were acting like sluts. Making my way to the living room, where the old hags where gossiping I slowly made my way to my mother
"Excuse me for the interupt, but can I talked to my mother for a moment" I asked with a low husky tone in my voice, as expected all the hags fucking smiled and swoon over how polite I was...only if they knew.
"Yes, sweetheart you may" The leader of the hags said as my mother and I dissappeared from roaming eyes and nosy ears. As we were walking, I saw one of the girls I think her name was Nevia but I'm not sure look me up and down like I was some type of steak on the grill waiting to be eating. I shuddered and looked at my mother who was trying not to laugh but was failing.
"It is not funny" I mumbled but that just made her laugh even harder, the attention I gotten throughout the years hasn't been anything new for me or my parents, according to the teenagers around Jacksonville I was sex on legs.
"Awww, my poor baby scared of attention" she said as I rolled my eyes at her and folded my arms, just as I was about to open my mouth to talk, a girl came up to us all flustered and shy...
Here we go again!
"Can I help you with anything Miss" I asked, even when I'm annoyed I'm still a polite bitch. the girl looked like she was about to faint, I was worried that she wasn't breathing. I didn't have the time for people fainting on me, seriously I'm a nobody...a freak.
"..." Luckly her mother came up and save the girl a world of embarrassment, the girl signed in relief as her mother spoke
"Isabella right" she said, I wanted to smack the innocent look off her face but restrainted myself and kindly corrected her
"Bella, I perfer" she nodded and opened up aother boring ass conversation I wasn't feeling up to having, so I tried to get my mother's attention and tell her we needed to leave but she was acting like she was so into the fucking conversation as the girl kept eye-fucking me...I felt used. I was so into my thoughts I didn't hear the woman ask me a question.
"Bella, do you hear the woman asking you a question" my mother voice held a hard tone but soft at the same time, I quickly threw a smile to her and looked at the woman.
"I'm very sorry, Ms. Livingston I zoned out a bit, excuse my manners, what was the question again" I said making sure to give her the panty dropping smile my friends say I have.
"No problem, I asked that where you going to try out for the basketball team again, they really would need your talent. You're such a good student and a marvelous and well mannered young lady" she sure know how to stroke someone ego, I saw my mother rolled her eyes at her friend...she didn't know if she wanted to laugh or slap her for pushing up on her daughter.
"Don't forget, how beautiful her ass looks"turning my head to the new voice I saw the same girl who grabbed me in the living room, I was as red as the tamato, while the girl and ass grabber glared at each other, I quickly leaned down to whisper in my mother ear.
"I think we should leave before a catfight breaks out" I told her and she bust out laughing, making the three woman eyes travel towards us.
"We should probably go, I need to have dinner ready for Phil before he gets home so, I will see you guys next week". I signed and thanks who ever heard my prayers. I swiftly made my way to the closet to retreive our coats when I felt myself being push up against the coats as the door slammed shut.
"What th-" I was cut off by someone lips crashing into mines, I suddenly started to panick because, first I never kissed anyone before and secondly...I fucking never kiss anyone before and I don't know what the hell to do. Her tongue was trying to invade my mouth but I wouldn't let her after the third try she huff and pulled away.
"What's wrong, I thought you wanted this" she said rubbing her hands up my stomach, it felt nasty and dirty. I grabbed her hand but she quickly pulled it out of my grasp and bent down to unzip my pants, that's when I really started to freak out.
"W...Wait! I d...don't" I was stuttered my ass off, she had my zipper already down and reached her hand inside...and just when her hand reached inside my boxers I saw her face turn from delight to horror within two seconds, I felt the tears cloud my vision as I pushed her hand from skin.
"W...What the f...fuck are you" she asked scared, and That's why I don't like to socialize because, when they found what I am...there running to the nearest exit. Zipping my pants up and wipping the tears from my eyes and bust out the closet door on a mission to find my mother and get the fuck out here...
When we got home, my mother kept apoligizing and I kept telling her it wasn't her fault but she wasn't hearing it. I felt so dirty and vulnerable, I couldn't stop crying and Renee tried to cheer me up by buying my favorite ice cream but it wasn't working...nothing was going to stop me from feeling what I was. When Phil came home and heard about what happen, he was angry at Renee for not leaving when I told her early, and now we where in the garage fixing the battery on Renee's car.
"What did you feel like when she kissed you" I was whipping the windows down and signed, I didn't want to talk about this but I knew I had to, so I dropped the towel and sat down by his legs as his upper body dissapeared under the car.
"I felt like I was being fucking rape in the mouth, she wouldn't stop, she tried to push her nasty ass tongue inside my mouth and I wasn't having that shit...so I kept my mouth shut, dumb bitch, it took her two minutes of fail attempts to finally understand that I didn't want whatever she was trying to give me" I heard Phil give a booming laugh and pulled his self from under the car.
"What else happened" he asked he knew the rest of it was what made me upset and on the verge of having a panic attack.
"She had bent down and unzipped my pants, I never felt so scared and vulnerable in my life, I felt the tears well once again in my eyes, She fucking scarred me for life.
Fucking Bitch.
"S...She put her hand inside my zipper opening, I was panicking to the point that I was going to pass out. The look on her face made my whole body seize up and I pushed her...I never laid a hand on anybody like that, I was disgusted with myself...shit I still am. I was fucking crying my ass off after that, she asked what I was...like I was some type of freak" and that's when it fucking hit me right in the fucking face.
I was a freak.
"Phil..."
"Yeah Bella" I was playing with my fingers, scared out my mind.
"Do you think I'm a freak" when he didn't answer, I felt my heart dropped as the tears fell out my eyes at fast pace, after all the late nights helping him rebiuld cars and having this bonding time with him all this time...he thought I was a freak.
I wonder if my mother thought I was a freak too.
OH
GOD!
"Bella..." I ran, not letting him finish his sentence, I was hurt and I wanted my Dad, he was the only person I know who love me for who I was and never had to second guess it. I ran to my room, my mother kept yelling my name but I couldn't stopped, I wanted to be alone. Feeling the anger rise inside of me to the point that I punched a hole in my wall, All this time.
He was fucking playing his role as Daddy and all this time he fucking thought I was a freak, God that hurts so bad. I started to snatch all the toy cars we built when I was growing up as the tears flowed so easy. I heard my door open and I felt two strong arms wrapped around me
"I'm so sorry Bella, I don't think you are a freak. You're my daughter and always will be and I love you, can you forgive me...please" I want to so bad but, I knew deep down he only meant a small portion of what he just said, I snatched my self from and glared at him.
"Why did you take so long when answering my question" I asked wipping my eyes, I saw him look out the door and than shut it. He turned around and glared at me, I was shocked at the dangerous look that was on his face and his voice match it.
"Listen you fucking ugly ass he/she, your right I didn't mean none of that shit I just spilled to you. The girl was right you are a freak and nothing else, nobody will want you so I suggest you go kill yourself now, because Renee and me are tired of being embarrassed by you, now go to sleep and don't fucking open your mouth about this little conversation or that little dick of your will be cut off" he smiled and left, leaving me there shocked and scared out my mind but, the only thing that was running through my mind was calling my Dad.
I wanted my Daddy.