It had been a few days since Isabella last spoke to Mary Alice. This served to make Mary Alice very upset, as anyone would be in a situation like this. Isabella apparently didn't like what Mary Alice had done, that much was obvious. Now she had lost her friend, her only friend. She was left alone with her thoughts once more, seeing that the rest of her family saw her as an outcast.
So it was a particularly hot night when Mary Alice lay awake in bed, wondering why she had to kiss Isabella. Her window had been opened to let the cool breeze in. The sound of crickets and other nocturnal creatures were heard in the distant. The noise only made her stay up longer, with constant thoughts of Isabella going through her head.
She is only across the road, not that far away. Why can't I just go ask her for forgiveness? I don't want to lose my friend. I don't have anything else but her. I can say it was a mistake, or an accident. Maybe she will believe me then. Mary Alice thought as she held back tears. Frustration and heat made Mary Alice throw the blanket off of her body, and punch the pillow to a more comfortable position. Anger threatened to spill out of her, but she had to keep it in for her own good. Lashing out at all the wrong things in her life would do her no good. It would only bring unwanted attention to her, and right now that was the last thing she needed.
Why is it wrong to show someone that you care about them? Why does it matter whether I love a girl or not? Mary Alice continued to ramble in her brain about what was so wrong, that she didn't hear something moving around outside her window.
The rest of her house was quiet, as everyone else had gone to bed. Mary Alice was lucky enough to have a room of her own, though the only reason she had one of her own was because her little sister was given a bigger room. Her step mother and father didn't want the girls to share a room, and Mary Alice was perfectly fine with that.
Mary Alice wiped the small bead of sweat that formed on her forehead, and tried to close her eyes in attempt to sleep once more. This proved to be useless, especially when she realized there was someone standing outside of her window. Her eyes shot open at the sound of leaves crunching, and she lifted her head up toward the window to see what it was.
Maybe it's just an animal. Mary Alice thought, a feeling of fear starting to form.
"Mary Alice?" A soft whisper came from among the crickets in the night. The soft and innocent voice caused any sense of fear to vanish, whoever it was, certainly wasn't going to try and kill her.
Mary Alice sat up in bed, now squinting to see who was outside. The moon was bright enough to shine through her window, and that's when she saw long flowing hair appear in the corner of her window. Light brown eyes were staring back at Mary Alice. The wind blew Isabella's scent inside the room. Immediately Mary Alice leaped for joy, and a smiled appeared on her face as she answered Isabella.
"I'm in here." Mary Alice whispered, moving her hand around for emphasis. She had to be sure to be quiet so she wouldn't wake up her family. Who knows what they would do if they caught Isabella in Mary Alice's room at this time of night. Although they knew nothing of her love for Isabella, they still didn't like visitors coming in at the dead of night; especially when the visitor was for Mary Alice.
Isabella's head popped up at the base of the window, she was crouching down beneath it as if to cover herself from the other windows.
"What are you doing down there?" Mary Alice asked, honestly shocked at Isabella's presence.
"I needed to talk to you, and I couldn't wait any longer. May I come in?" Isabella asked as she finally stood up and looked inside. She had never seen Mary Alice's room, but from the looks of it she could see why she hadn't been invited. The room was bare except for a bed in the corner, and a small desk on the other side of the room.
Mary Alice came closer to the window to meet Isabella's gaze. Isabella was taken aback when Mary Alice's shimmering blue eyes appeared against the moon light. It was almost as if they were glowing, she had never seen someone with eyes as beautiful as Mary Alice's.
Mary Alice saw Isabella's eyes widen as she appeared next to the window, and she held out her hand for Isabella to enter. Isabella took her hand and as quietly as she could, climbed through the small hole. Mary Alice pulled hard on Isabella as she came through the window, and crashed against Mary Alice's body. This had been the second time in a matter of days where Isabella had ended up in Mary Alice's lap. She had no complaints about this, but thinking of what happened just a few days ago made Mary Alice's mood dampen a bit. She now wondered why Isabella was here in the middle of the night.
Both of the girls were quiet as they listened for sounds in the rest of the house, and when none were heard, Isabella apologized for her crash landing, "I'm sorry, I can be a tad clumsy at times."
"I've noticed." Mary Alice whispered back, watching the blush grow on Isabella's cheeks.
Isabella remained in Mary Alice's lap for a few more seconds, not realizing that she should have gotten up. Her blush only grew as she finally lifted herself up, and offered a hand to Mary Alice for support. Mary Alice stared up at Isabella for a second, before she gave Isabella her hand, and was pulled up mostly by her own doing. She didn't want Isabella to fall back out the window, especially after she just tried so hard to get in.
"I really need to talk to you Mary Alice. It's about what happened by the creek." Isabella's voice was quiet, almost as if she were afraid of what she was saying. Her eyes were turned away from Mary Alice, and were now focused on everything else but her.
Mary Alice motioned to the bed so they could both sit down and be more comfortable. Isabella saw the signal from the corner of her eye as she hesitated for a second, and sat down against the very edge. She was now fiddling with her hands, as Mary Alice curiously watched. With a more relaxed motion, Mary Alice sat down next to Isabella, and tried to get the girl to at least look at her.
"What about what happened by the creek?" Mary Alice asked in a soft voice.
Isabella sighed, and mustered up enough courage to look at Mary Alice, "What did it mean to you? When we kissed, why did you do that?"
Mary Alice wasn't sure if this was a good or bad thing. Her premonitions weren't controlled or very strong, so she was clueless at which way this conversation was going to go. Isabella had to have known why Mary Alice kissed her, wasn't It obvious enough?
"I wanted to know what it felt like to kiss your lips. I was caught up in the moment, and I apologize if I upset you in anyway. Can we still…" Mary Alice was trying to finish her sentence, but Isabella interrupted her quickly.
"So you wanted to kiss me? It wasn't an accident?" Isabella's voice was rushed, as if she were searching for something specific for Mary Alice to say.
I…yes, I wanted to kiss you Isabella. I wanted to know if my imagination was right." Mary Alice replied, checking the door to see if anyone was threatening to come in.
"What do you mean by that?" Isabella asked.
"I wanted to know if your lips tasted as sweet as I imagined." Mary Alice was being rather bold by saying something like this, but she felt it was time to stop hiding from Isabella. She doubted Isabella would be as open about it as she was, but she at least deserved to know how she felt.
Isabella was quiet, but the shade of her cheeks told what she was thinking. Mary Alice watched quietly as Isabella turned as red as a beet, and pushed her hair back nervously. The bright light of the moon made the room illuminated, allowing Mary Alice to see everything Isabella was doing.
"So the kiss wasn't an accident?" Isabella asked, in a lower voice than before. It was so quiet; Mary Alice could hear the cracks in her voice. She didn't want to be heard by anyone else, and Mary Alice understood.
Mary Alice wasn't going to move closer toward Isabella, because she wasn't quite sure how she felt in return, but that wasn't going to stop her from telling the truth. "I wanted to kiss you Isabella."
Isabella nodded her head, and turned her gaze away from Mary Alice as she sat in silence for what seemed like ages. There was nothing Mary Alice could do but wait, and hope that she would say something soon. She examined Isabella closely while she waited for a response; it was obvious that the girl was nervous about something.
Why would she be here in the middle of the night if she didn't have anything important to say? Mary Alice thought.
A soft mumbling came from Isabella, and Mary Alice snapped out of her thoughts to hear what she had to say. Isabella dared a glance at Mary Alice, her light brown eyes full of worry as she said, "What if I liked it?"
Mary Alice wasn't sure what to say, Isabella's comment had caught her off guard because she was sure she wanted nothing to do with kissing her. But she just admitted that she liked it…now what happens?
"Did you really like it?" Mary Alice asked in a hopeful tone, her features instantly softening at the revelation.
Isabella nodded her head, forming the right words to say was a difficult task for Isabella, "I'm afraid to like it."
"Why? What's wrong with liking it? I really do like you a lot Isabella, more than I should, but I'm not afraid to show you." Mary Alice pressed her hand on Isabella's thigh, to which Isabella gasped lightly, but continued speaking none the less.
"My parents would disown me if they knew how I felt about you. I shouldn't feel this way about you, it's not right to feel this way, is it?" Isabella said.
Mary Alice was becoming upset with what Isabella said, "Who says it's not right? You or everyone else? How can it be wrong if you feel what I feel? You don't realize how much I care about you Isabella. A feeling like this comes from the heart, there is nothing wrong with loving someone, now is there?"
Isabella stared at Mary Alice in silence; she wasn't sure what to say. Of course it wasn't wrong to like Mary Alice in more than a friendly way, but society frowned upon it. Mary Alice acted on impulse, placed her hand on Isabella's cheek and pulled her in for a passionate kiss. Mary Alice had put everything she had into that one kiss, just so Isabella might feel half of the love she felt for the girl.
At first, Isabella resisted. She was taken off guard but when Mary Alice wasn't letting go, instinct took in, and soon Isabella was kissing Mary Alice back. The sensation of butterflies swarming formed in Isabella's stomach, and she felt a rush of warmth spread throughout her body. The softness of Mary Alice's lips kept Isabella coming back for more.
Their lips were in sync with one another as both girls fought for dominance over the other. Mary Alice easily dominated over Isabella. Mary Alice had her hands firm against Isabella's cheek, but she was now moving them down her back, pushing Isabella's warm body closer toward her. It wasn't hard to feel Isabella's hot flesh against her thin nightgown. It was almost as if she wasn't wearing anything and this excited Mary Alice more than anything. She knew she had to control herself though; it was just so hard to do.
Isabella gripped Mary Alice's shoulder as she scooted closer toward the smaller girl. She wasn't sure what was happening, but she really liked the way it made her feel. Isabella began to quiver from the sensation of kissing Mary Alice, from a combination of nerves and bliss.
Mary Alice pulled away when she felt Isabella shaking, and looked concerned, "You're shivering." Mary Alice said quietly. Her lips were red and plump from kissing Isabella, a look that was magnified by the way the moon was shining against her.
"I've…never felt like that before. I'm sorry; I don't know what has come over me." Isabella apologized.
"Did you like what just happened? Did you find it…pleasurable?" Mary Alice asked, struggling to find the right words to say.
Isabella nodded her head, "Quite pleasurable."
"I don't regret showing you how I felt. In fact, I really like what just happened. I know you felt it too." Mary Alice pushed some of Isabella's hair out of the way of her face, stroking her cheek gently along the way.
"What are my parents going to do if they find out? They'll hate me if they knew what I felt for you. I've never felt this way for anyone else."
The stress in Isabella's expression was evident, and Mary Alice understood her concern. Her parent's still loved her, it didn't matter what Mary Alice did, and her dad would still hate her. "They don't have to know. It can be our little secret."
"We don't have to tell anyone?" Isabella asked innocently.
Mary Alice shook her head, "I don't want your folks getting mad at you; you don't deserve to be treated that way. As long as we both know where our hearts belong, I don't see the harm in keeping it secret. I really do care for you Isabella; I want you to know that."
Mary Alice moved closer toward Isabella, and motioned for her to lie down against the bed. Isabella complied, and Mary Alice wrapped her arms around Isabella's body. The scent of Isabella's hair invaded Mary Alice's senses as she got lost in the intoxicating aroma.
"We can just lie here together, would you like that? I can walk you back home before the sun comes up so you won't get caught." Mary Alice suggested.
"I would love that. I wish things were different, I wish it was okay for us to…love each other." Isabella replied quietly.
"Maybe one day it will be. Someday, far and away from now, we can look back on this moment and laugh, because of how silly our fears were. It'll be okay Isabella, I promise." Mary Alice kissed the back of Isabella's head and smiled. The night turned out to be completely different than what she was expecting, but that wasn't a bad thing at all.
"That would be perfect." Isabella said with a soft yawn. Mary Alice knew she was getting tired, and it wouldn't be long before Isabella fell asleep, but Mary Alice would stay up and watch her. She would be sure Isabella made it home before anyone noticed. Isabella was so precious to Mary Alice; she was going to do everything she could to keep her from getting hurt.
A/N: Thanks to everyone who showed interest in this fic, I hope I can keep you guys interested throughout it's entirety. :) Special thanks to my friend DaniWest, just because she is super awesome. Next chapter preview: A glimpse into the future.