A/N: I want to thank everyone who is willing to give this story a chance. I know it is difficult for some readers and I understand it believe me. I knew I would find some readers who wouldn't want to read it but I never thought I would find so many that would be willing to give it a chance. I want to thank you for keeping an open mind and giving this story a chance. For those who think that it will be a constant partner swapping it will not be like that. I didn't get a chance last chapter but I want to thank Little Miss Nicap for making the icon for this story.
Alex dropped her briefcase by the door and kicked her heels off. She was shrugging out of her jacket when she heard a noise coming from the bedroom. She knew Olivia should still be at the station so she quietly went over to the side table and pulled the hidden gun out from under it. She was checking to make sure it was fully loaded and clicking the safety off when she heard the bedroom door open and saw a shadow fall across the living room.
"Alex, is that you?" Olivia called out as she gripped her service weapon tighter and steadied her breathing. She had thought the noise she heard was Alex coming home but when she didn't come into the bedroom she was beginning to think it was intruder. She knew that the element of surprise always worked in home invasions but the last thing she wanted was to point her weapon at Alex no matter the circumstance.
"Jesus, Olivia are you trying to scare me or get yourself killed" Alex called back turning the safety back on and sliding the weapon back to its hiding spot before turning and facing her lover "How long do I have you for?"
"Till the Monday morning" Olivia said smiling when Alex's face brightened at the news "Capt said he doesn't want to see either me or Elliot till oh nine hundred hours on Monday. Since I have this hot blonde waiting for me at home I figured I would take his advice and go home, besides that will give us some time to talk."
"About" Alex asked as she tried to rack her brain over anything that had happened or they needed to discuss over the past week but was coming up empty.
"The possibility of swinging"
"Oh" Alex said suddenly feeling her throat go dry.
"I have a couple of questions and concerns I would like answered." Olivia stated as she cocked her head to the side and studied Alex "Have you changed your mind?"
"You haven't brought it up since that night so I assumed you didn't want to participate. You threw me for a loop just now asking me about it."
"I didn't mean to" Olivia answered pulling Alex against her sighing when she felt her body mold into hers "I have just been taking the time and thinking about it and now I have some questions I need answered before I can decide."
"Let me get a glass of wine and I will happily answer any questions you have." Alex said as she pecked Olivia's lips and headed into the kitchen "Want a beer?"
"Sure"
Alex pulled the cork on the bottle of her favorite wine and poured some in the glass as she pondered over the questions that Olivia could possibly ask. In the past the questions she had received from partners went anywhere from what type of freak are you to what if I want to take them to bed alone. She knew without a doubt those weren't the type of questions she would be receiving tonight and would never receive from Olivia. She grabbed Olivia a beer as she took a deep breath and headed back into the living room to face the unknown, something that she hated to do.
"Here" Alex said as she handed Olivia her beer and sat down on the couch folding her legs under her "So, questions?"
"What if you want to swing one night and I don't? What if I don't like the partner you chose or vice versa? What if…" Olivia started running through her list of questions without taking a break.
"Whoa" Alex said holding her hand up to stop Olivia's rant "Honey there are two things needed for this to work. One, we both have to agree to do this and number two is the same thing any relationship needs to survive, communication."
Olivia nodded as she exhaled the breath she had been holding.
"We have to communicate before, during, and after. If I tell you I want to go to the club and you don't, say so. If you're afraid I'll go without you, forget it. Swinging doesn't work like that, at least for me. If you see me with someone you don't want me with then say so. She will not be joining us in the bedroom. But that's not really something you have to worry about because having a single partner is against my rules.
"Rules, there are rules?"
"Yes there are rules." Alex sat her glass on the coffee table and pulled Olivia till she was laying against her "Each person or couple has certain rules that they follow. The longer you are in the swinger lifestyle you will alternate or change some rules. For me the rules that never change are: I never go to the club without my partner if I am in a relationship. I never offer a single woman to be our swinging partner only couples. I never invite our swing couple over or meet with them if you can't and my number rule is I never swing with our couple if you are not there. This one is a given but I always, always, practice safe sex."
"Why don't you ever offer a single woman to be our swinging partner? Wouldn't that be what you wanted instead of a couple?"
"Some couples may prefer that but I don't simply because I have a preference of swinging with couples. The purpose is to heighten your sex life and whether you believe it or not it can be quite a turn on watching your partner with someone else or simply making love with your partner in the same room as another couple. I will be honest one of the things I have enjoyed in the past was watching another couple with my partner. Believe me it is way better in person than just watching porn."
Olivia simply nodded as she stared off in space as she tried to absorb what Alex was telling her.
"Hey" Alex said waving her hand in front of Olivia's face trying to catch her attention "Why don't you tell me what your biggest fear is on swinging."
"Besides being found out."
Alex nodded more than understanding the fear of being discovered, especially with their jobs.
"What if you prefer the other women to me? What if you fall in love with them and leave me for one of them?"
"Olivia Benson that will always be the least of your worries" Alex whispered as she cupped Olivia's face in her hands and stared into her deep brown eyes "I love you and only you, till the day I die. You are my soul mate and no one could ever complete me the way that you do. Each woman will pleasure another woman differently but that doesn't mean I want her instead of you. No one has ever turned me on the way you do or has ever made me as wet as you do. If you don't believe me then I will gladly give you the numbers to my ex's and you can ask them yourself."
"But you still want other people?" Olivia said as she stood and started to pace their living room.
"No" Alex stated standing and pulling Olivia to her "I want you and that's it." Alex waited until she had Olivia's undivided attention before she continued speaking "I am going to cancel my membership to the club and we will never speak of this again, ok?"
"Before you cancel your membership let's go to the club."
"No, I will not have you thinking that I want someone else or you don't satisfy me. The club is out of the question and so is this proposition." Alex said releasing Olivia and turning to get her cell phone.
"Alex," Olivia said carefully taking her cell phone from her hands and setting it on the coffee table "You have tried different things in the bedroom for me that you had never done before. You were willing to open your mind to the different possibilities and I want to do the same for you."
"Olivia"
"No, I want you to take me to the club for one night. There will be no swapping of partners or bringing anyone one home but maybe we can watch another couple together. Let me experience that and see where it goes."
"Are you sure? I mean one hundred fifty percent sure." Alex stated "There is no doubt what so ever in your mind. Because if you have just the smallest amount of doubt then it's over right now and I'm ok with that. Please don't force yourself to do something just because I like it. I can live without swinging what I can't live without is you."
"Alex, I'm not forcing myself to do this and I promise you I'm sure about it. I want you to take me to the club and allow me the chance to experience it. If I don't like it or just can't handle it then it's done for and we will never speak of it again like you said. But if I do like it then we can start experiment with swinging but I can't guarantee that or how far I would be willing to go."
Alex smiled as she looked at Olivia "If you're that sure I will take you to the club on one condition."
"Which is?"
"If you change your mind before hand let me know and if at any time after we arrive you want to leave just let me know."
"I can do that." Olivia whispered as she began to unbutton Alex's blouse as she guided her to the bedroom.