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"You're what?" He stammered, not for one second believing that those words had really just come out of her mouth. He could literally feel his heart start to beat out of his chest. Thump, thump, thump. "She didn't just say that did she?" Deeks' confusion was written on his face.

"You heard me..." She said now avoiding eye contact with him, going into default Kensi mode she stood up putting some distance between them. One hand moved to her hip as the other reached up to run her fingers through her hair. "God, what an idiot, why did you have to say that?" She thought to herself.

"I'm not sure I heard you correctly..." He said quietly.

"I'm in love with you Deeks, I have been for a long time..." Kensi sighed sadly wiping away the tears that were falling.

"Why are you saying it like it's a bad thing Kens?"

"Because it is Deeks, I can't feel this way about you, you're my partner I'm not supposed to feel this way, I'm sorry."

"What? Why are you sorry?"

"Because telling you has ruined everything."

"No, it hasn't..."

"Yes it has, I'm gonna go." She started making a beeline for the door.

"No, wait. Please". Grabbing her arm to halt her actions Deeks blocked the exit. "It hasn't ruined anything." Kensi just continued to look at the floor, her head hanging down in shame.

Deeks took a step forward slowly bringing his hand up towards her face, ever so gently he tilted her chin forcing her to look up at him. "It hasn't ruined anything" he repeats, the intensity in his blue eyes matching the intensity of the words he had just spoken. Stepping even closer Deeks takes his life into his own hands moving his head closer and closer until the space between him and Kensi is no more and his lips meet hers. The kiss was short and sweet but full of meaning and emotion.

"I love you too." Deeks confessed, his eyes locked onto hers, his face just inches from her own. She was still frozen to the spot, the words he had just spoken and the fact that his hands were resting on her hips, rendered her unable to move.

Snapping out of her state of inaction Kensi shook her head. "No."

"Yes." He repeated moving his hands up to cup her face, leaning his forehead against hers. She closed her eyes sending tears tumbling down her cheeks. Kensi pushed against his chest trying to put some much needed space between them. "Deeks don't, we can't" she said sternly knowing full well what he was trying to do.

"Why?" He asked stepping back into her personal space, taking hold of her hands, rubbing his thumb softly up and down the back of them.

"Because..." she softly sobbed "we're partners Deeks, we can't have these kinds of feelings."

"But we do, we didn't ask for them, they just happened." Deeks pleaded, trying to make her look up at him.

Kensi pulled her hands away from his. "So they can un-happen." She said resolutely.

Deeks laughed "Uh it doesn't really work that way Princess."

"It can, we just need to try hard and make it happen." She replied, knowing how ridiculous she was sounding but sticking to her guns.

"So uh we just try and pretend that we mean nothing to each other huh? Just go along like nothing has happened?" Deeks asks incredulously.

"Exactly."

Deeks shakes his head, knowing how stubborn she is he would be wasting his breath arguing with her but this was Deeks, he couldn't help it.

"Do you know how stupid that is?" He blurted out.

"I don't care how stupid it is Deeks, we have to, we can't feel this way." She replied getting angrier and angrier as she argued with him.

"Okay, fine, we'll do it your way... like always." He said bitterly throwing his hands in the air and returning to the couch and taking a sip of beer. Kensi closed her eyes, that hurt, that really hurt. Damn him. He always knew how to push her buttons, he knew exactly how to get under her skin. He knew when to pressure her into opening up or when to give her time and space. So why wasn't he pressuring her into this? He hadn't put up much of a fight at all which surprised her.

She turned towards the door yet found herself unable to leave. Was she disappointed that he hadn't fought harder? Would she have caved in? All of these lingering doubts were swirling through her mind as she remained in front of the door.

Deeks was shocked that she hadn't left the minute he conceded to her. Her first instinct is to run away, why hasn't she? He wasn't willing to let this question remain unanswered as he stood up and approaced her. "Why are you still here?" He asked softly, pressing her ever so slightly.

"I don't know." She replied leaning her forehead against the door.

"I think you do." Deeks replied edging closer and closer to her.

She leaned against the door which offered her much needed support and stability. She knew that the second she turned around to face him she would be undone. That those eyes of his would be the death of her resolve. The piercing blue would see right into her soul. "I..." She was stuttering, unable to properly form a sentence, not helped by the fact that Deeks was right behind her awaiting an answer.

"Talk to me." He said, trying to pry out some sort of information as to what she was feeling, what she was thinking about.

"I... I'm so confused right now." She confessed turning around slowly to face him.

"Yeah well that makes two of us." Deeks joked as the two shared a soft, shy smile.

"Isn't this the part where we say that we'll figure it out?" Kensi smiled.

"Yeah but there's nothing to figure out right? You don't want there to be an 'us' so it's figured out..." Deeks replied in a very matter-of-fact tone.

"Right..." She repeated, in a less than convincing manner, looking anywhere but at him.

"Right?" He replied pressing her to look at him and say it.

"I don't know Deeks..." She sighed "I really don't know what to do right now"

"I know what we could do" Deeks suggested grinning while wiggling his eyebrows at her.

Kensi shook her head smiling, he always knew how to break the tension with a stupid joke. "Oh my gosh..."

"Look in all seriousness" Deeks said stepping forward and taking both of her hands in his before continuing "in all seriousness, I think that you should take some time and think about all of this okay, no rushing into things, no stupid plans, just time to think about what's happened tonight and what you want because I already know what I want Kens and it's you. I want you more than anything else in the world." Kensi's breath hitched slightly. "I know you're scared, hell, I'm terrified. I'm terrified that I might lose you, our partnership, our friendship because of this, but Kens, we've been avoiding this for way too long, I think avoiding it anymore is just going to end badly for both of us. But I'm not going to put any pressure on you, I'm going to give you time to decide what you want, what you really want okay?" She nodded in agreement. "Okay then." He smiled softly at her, releasing her hands. "Come here" He said pulling her into an embrace. She was holding onto him for dear life knowing that whatever she decided would change them forever. He could feel her slightly trembling in his arms and felt the moisture of her tears as they fell on his bare chest. That just made him hold onto her even tighter, kissing her on the forehead, running a hand through her hair he whispered "everything's going to be okay" despite not knowing what the future held for them both.

"Thanks Deeks." She mumbled into his chest. "No problem princess." He replied before reluctantly letting her go. "Goodnight." She said softly brushing the mositure away from her cheeks. "Goodnight." He replied closing the door behind her as she left.