A week later, I stood still as a statue with tear stained cheeks, as the Ootori and Hitachiin families watched Kaoru's casket lower into his grave. The stone at the head of the hole read, "Kaoru Hitachiin and Sarah Ootori" Under Kaoru's name was the year he was born, and the year he died; the space benieth my own name was left open, beging for me to die along with him. My chest hurt. It hurt so bad.
Hikaru and I were the last standing as my love was being burried benieth the surface of the Earth. We were silent the whole time, giving Kaoru his due respect.
When grass seed was being spread over the bare dirt, Hikaru put his hands on my shoulders. "Sarah, we need to go, I think it's going to rain..." All I could do was nod. If I tried to talk I would choke on my tears. I turned to Kaoru's indentical twin...Seeing him only made it worse. His arms wrapped around me as I colapsed into him, turning into a lump of gloom.
He held me for a few minutes until my hickups came to a halt and I pulled away from him. I bit my lip and let more silent tears fall. It seemed like these tears would fall forever...A never ending cycle of depression.
"...Let's go..." I whispered and walked toward the only car left. Hikaru was close behind me, giving me the feeling of comfort and knowing that I wasn't going to go through this alone. We would both make it past this time of mourning. We would move on.
For months after the funeral I stayed in sweats and moped around the Hitachiin home. Without Kaoru there it didn't even feel like a home anymore. I slept for hours on end everyday, the exhaustion would never rest. Syd and Hikaru would constantly complain about how I did nothing to help myself or either of them get over this. When I started to stop eating even someone had to hit me over the with a frying pan to wake me up, and Hikaru himself was about to do it. Litterally.
"Sarah I'm sick of this!! Yes, Kaoru's gone, yes we're all sad about it! But he wouldn't want us to do this! He would tell us to go on with our lives!! You know that for a fact!!" Hikaru huffed in my face.
I stared up at him like a total moron, like this was all in a foreign language. "...Yes, I know..." I couldn't come to admit to myself how rediculas I was being. It'd been almost six months since Kaoru's death. "I...I'm sorry...I just...I'll get over this...I'll still remember him, but I'll be happy when I think of him...I'll remember the good times we had together, and not think about his death...I'll think of it as though he's left on a trip, and I will eventually join him some day...." I finished with a smile and got out of my mope couch. "I'm gonna go get dressed in some normal clothes...and do my hair and makeup..." Then I jogged up the staires to my perminant room in the Hitachiin Residence. I found the one outfit that Kaoru liked on me most, and wore it with pride, hoping I'd made him happy; I applied my usual amount of makeup and straightened my long black locks of hair.
When I returned to my friends they looked like they didn't even recognize me. It'd been so long since they'd seen me with my face put together, they were just a little shocked.
"So...What's on todays agenda?~" I said with a big grin, showing the dimples I hated, but Kaoru thought were so adorable.
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