Authors Note: Well, I don't know if I'm going to do this for every chapter but here's Paul's point of view about what went on. Let me know what you think.

Also thank you so so so so so so so much for the reviews and adds! I was so blown away with the feedback, you are the best! Keep it up!

OH and for the title, i was listening to that song when I wrote this and decided that's going to be the main theme of my story. you should listen to it by leann rimes, it has the best lyrics.

ONTO the story =)

PAUL POV

"We have to go get Jacob," Sam said. It wasn't like we had a choice so Embry, Jared, and myself followed. We were getting ready to have a quick meeting about Quil and then we were going to run some patrols because we definitely smelled a new leech around.

Running through the forest really was like nothing else in the world. Yeah, I'm the mean, sarcastic, sometimes violent, Paul Meraz but there was just something about running full speed through the trees.

"How poetic Paul," Jared teased. Ugh, I hated this whole mind reading madness.

"Who doesn't hate it tough guy," Embry said. It wasn't like Embry to be sarcastic, I was clearly a bad influence. We got to the edge of the Black property and phased, throwing on a pair of cutoffs real quick. Sam was done first and started walking up to Jake's door.

I followed him up and when the backdoor opened I expected to see Jacob. Damn, was I wrong. A girl with long brown hair and deep brown eyes came storming toward us like she was on a freaking mission. My mind immediately registered that she was mine. There was nothing in the world that was more important then that simple fact. I wasn't born to be big or strong or powerful; I was born to be absolutely everything she ever needed, ever wanted. I was going to be the man she wanted and give her everything the world has to offer. She was going to be my wife, the mother of my children, my soul mate. She was the steel cable that was tying me to this world, the gravity that held me to the Earth, my sole reason for living.

I caught her beautiful eyes in mine and knew she felt something for me too, the pull was too strong for her not to feel it.

"What did you do!? What did you do to him!?" She screamed. Oh this isn't good. I wanted to kill whoever made her so angry… oh, that probably had something to do with me and the boys. I was so angry with myself that I caused her pain, that I lashed out at anyone and anything in the area… that so happened to be her.

"Watch it little girl," I said lowly.

"Easy," Sam said, more to me then her I think. I had started to shake slightly.

"He didn't want this!" She screamed at me.

"What did we do!? What did he do!? What did he tell you!?" Did she know about me? Did she know the legends already? I was actually kind of excited.

"Both of you calm down," Sam warned, again more to me than her.

"Nothing, he tells me nothing because he's scared of you," she said desperately. I had to laugh at this. To be honest it was a bitter laugh, what she said wasn't really funny but that was the reaction my body responded with. Then she did the thing I never expected… ever.

She wound up and smacked me right across my face. I was so shocked I started to phase. "Paul, don't." Yeah, thank you Sam.

"Too late now," and thank you Jared.

"Bella, get back! Paul- PAUL, get back now!" I tried, I really did but I was just so upset with myself, I was mean to her. I made her eyes well up and then got her so mad she hit me! Then Jared had to go run his mouth. It was inevitable, I turned into a wolf and looked into the eyes of the girl I was destined to love for the rest of my life.

Not only that, no, Jacob decided to phase and come fight me. I really wasn't in the mood. He jumped on me and sank his teeth deep into my shoulder. I tried not to howl in pain but was horrified when I saw Bella put a hand to her shoulder. Shit, it was the real deal.

I returned to the fight and got some teeth into Jake's leg. His thoughts were just the color red and we took our fight to the woods.

"You phased in front of her Paul! What the hell is the matter with you!"

"Jake, man, you don't know the whole story," I pleaded. I realized Jake was looking through my thoughts as he had his teeth on my throat, I wasn't going to fight him; it would hurt Bella.

"NO!"

"I can't help it Jacob…"

"She's supposed to be mine!" He said sadly.

"I'm sorry man," I said. He sighed defeated and let me up.

"You two kiss and make up yet?" Sam asked cheekily. Neither of us returned the joke, "Jacob you know he can't help it."

"This blows," he answered.

"I'm sorry Jake," Sam said and I said the same.

"Whatever let's just go home," he said. We nodded our muzzles and followed him out the door. Me and Sam hung back and kept our thoughts to ourselves and let Jake deal with this on his own. I did just imprint on the girl he was in love with; that had to suck.

We got back to Emily's place and phased, Jake bumped into me and I knew I was sort of forgiven. I pushed him back and we screwed around until we got into the house. I looked at Bella and saw the expression on her face. I was so upset that I made her upset; I made her anything less then happy. I was failing. I saw Embry and Jared make puking noises behind me and glared at them. Bella slapped Jared up side the head and if possible, I fell even more in love.

"Bella, uh, can I talk to you…" Jake asked Bella.

"Yeah Jake," she replied. A growl came out of me before I had time to stop it. He was making Bella leave, if she had feelings for him I didn't know what I would do.

"Oh," Emily said simply and my heart pulled when she walked out the door.

BELLA POV

I followed Jake out the door but couldn't resist the urge to glance behind me. I vaguely noticed Jared smirk and Embry looked like he was giving him something, Emily and Sam were looking at me in approval, and then I saw Paul. His green eyes seemed to reflect everything he was feeling. They got dark and intense and passionate and I knew that mine probably looked something similar.

During this whole experience I had been unconsciously following Jacob. I was trying to figure out my feelings because they were new and pretty unwelcome. Edward was gone, Jacob was here, and I was broken. I didn't need a hot-tempered, sarcastic, mean… gorgeous… werewolf screwing me up even more.

While I was sorting out these thoughts I missed the rock that was in front of me and yup, you guessed it, fell flat on my face. Not even Jake was fast enough to catch me before I got a face full of dirt. Actually, when I looked up he was laughing at me. I heard laughter coming from inside the house but saw the three wolves cower under the glare Paul was sending them. Even Sam backed up a step.

"I hate you Jacob Black," I said bitterly and was going to get to my feet but was picked up and put down before I had time to put my thought into action. Without looking I knew who it was, the electric current that shot up my arm was proof enough.

"Are you okay?" Paul asked putting his hands on my shoulders, studying my face.

"Fine," I said shortly brushing my shirt off. Paul looked hurt at my response and even more hurt that I wouldn't look him in the eye. I did this for two reasons 1. I didn't want to feel the things I felt for him, I didn't want to feel the pull, the desire, the overwhelming need to run into his arms, and 2. I didn't want to hurt Jacob. The same Jacob who was looking at me with hurt etched into every feature. Shit.

I let out a breath and turned from Paul to follow Jacob again. I felt his arms drop from my shoulders and almost cried out in pain. My hand went to the hurt in my chest, right over my heart, but I ignored it and followed my best friend to the beach. The sun was out, a rare occurrence in the Pacific northwest. I found it ironic that the world was shining with sunlight and happiness, and I was more sad and confused then ever.

Jake stopped and took a seat on the bone white tree that we knew so well. I followed and took the seat next to him and followed his gaze to the ocean. He lifted his gaze to the sky and shook his head.

"Jake…" I prompted. He shook his head again and starting talking to me, he stared at the waves the whole time.

"You see the horizon, where the sky and the sea meets?"

"Yes," I whispered, confused to where he was going with this.

"See how dark it's getting?" He asked.

"No?" I questioned, it looked fine to me.

"Yeah, you wouldn't be able to see it yet" He said almost bitterly, "There's a storm coming, a huge one."

I looked to where he was and while I couldn't see the darkness, I could hear the waves pounding harder into the sand.

"Jake… what's wrong?"

He took a deep breath before turning to look at me, "In case you didn't notice, I turn into a wolf…" He wasn't happy about this fact.

"Yeah, I got that." I said with a small smile, "you don't seem too happy about it."

He snorted, "Yeah because who doesn't want to turn into a giant dog every time they get pissed off. Who doesn't want to run around every night looking for bloodsucking leeches and half the time we're not allowed to kill them because of the precious treaty."

"Jake… what?" I said, not knowing what to say to that.

He glared at me, "Don't act like you don't know Bella, you can't lie to me anymore!" Uh oh.

"What are you talking about Jacob?" I said squaring up to him.

"Vampires, Bella, your precious little Cullen's," he spat.

"Oh." Defeated.

"Yeah, you know what Bella I don't understand how you could've been near them, LET ALONE DATE ONE, when you knew what they were!"

It was my turn to get angry, "they're good people! They never hurt anyone!"

"Bullshit! They aren't people Bella they're freaking unnatural, monsters," he said running his hands through his short hair.

"And you're what exactly?" I said and immediately wish I didn't. The hurt look that washed over Jacob's face was replaced by anger. A huge amount of anger. I realized in that moment why his emotions were always so passionate, they were purely animalistic. He started to shake and I knew what was happening. "Jake, I'm sorry calm down," I said but that just seemed to make it worse.

"Calm down!? Calm down!? Are you-" but he couldn't finish because the next second he was a wolf, a huge red-brown wolf. He tried to stop the phase but that just made it more violent. His got up on his hind legs and when he came down I got a paw right to the face.

I felt claws rip down the side of my face and neck, stopping just below my shoulder. Without my approval, a scream was ripped from my throat as blood went everywhere. I tried to bring my hands to my neck to stop it but found that only one arm worked. The other one was hanging limply at my side, unmoving. My legs decided they weren't going to hold me anymore and I fell to the ground crying my eyes out. I looked up to see Jacob, still in wolf form, staring at me with eyes wide. The only thing I remember before sinking into blessed unconsciousness was a horrified howl and an angry growl.

"Bella? Come on honey wake up, don't do this to me," said a voice in my ear. I dimly registered a cold cloth on my head and a big hand in mine. "Don't leave me Bella, come on, I just found you. Don't leave me by myself… I don't know how to live without you now…" I tried to open my eyes, to comfort the soft voice but found it to be too hard. I wanted to badly to just take his pain away. I knew exactly who it was.

I used all my will power to squeeze Paul's hand and smiled inwardly when I heard an intake of breath and some of the tension left my body. My pain was his pain, Paul's anxiousness was my anxiousness. "Emily!" He called before putting a hand to my cheek. He didn't kiss me or hug me or do anything that would suggest he wanted something from me, he just put his hand on my cheek and kept his hand in mine, and let me tell you, that made all the difference in the world.

I vaguely heard a light running and figured Emily had arrived, "How is she Paul?" She asked coming to kneel beside him. I focused all my energy on opening my eyes and smiled when I could.

"Paul?" I whispered, wincing in pain and the movement of my face. I could practically hear his heartbeat speed up and feel Emily's smile.

"I'm here baby, what do you need?" He asked desperately. Wait, baby?

"Jake," was all I said and as hard as I tried to fight it, blackness overpowered me and I was unconscious once again.

What could have been minutes, hours, or days later, my body was screaming for me to get up. Literally, I was screaming my head off. The whole left side of my body just hurt so bad I didn't know what to do with myself.

"SHIT!" I heard someone yell followed by a crash to the floor. It sounded like someone fell off something, someone big. "Bella, what's wrong!?" My eyes flew open and my back arched in pain, something wasn't right. Paul was next to me in a second looking like someone was tearing at him from the inside out.

"Ahh!" I screamed again, the pain ripping through me was unbearable.

"What can I do honey, tell me what I can do to make it better!" Paul was in near hysterics. I couldn't even comfort him, I couldn't even move. "Emily! Sam!" I heard two people come running into the room and felt a soft, warm hand on my forehead.

"Sam, she's burning up," Emily said, "I need cold cloths, new bandages, and a shit ton of narcotics," the boys mouths fell open when Emily cursed. "What are you waiting for?! Go!"

"Shh, Bella it's okay, you're going to be okay sweetie," Emily said stroking my hair.

"It hurts," I whimpered.

"I know honey, I'm trying. Just hang in there," she said. I nodded the best I could but it felt like knives were going into my skin. Sam came running back in and Emily fixed my bandages. "She's lost too much blood Sam, I need more." My head was spinning but I registered a needle going into my skin and then I was gone again.

- - - - - - - - -

Morning dawned bright and early and I felt… better. Much better. Why? I stretched my arms above my head and was shocked when both of them moved. Don't get me wrong, I was sore as hell, but I wasn't screaming my head off either. This was definitely an improvement. My hands went to the side of my face and neck and I let out a strangled cry. I knew in that moment I was going to need Emily more then I had ever need someone in my whole life. We were alike, we were scarred, we were in love.

I took in my surroundings and noticed I was on a bed in a relatively small room. The best part though, was the sleeping man in the corner of the room, curled up like a pretzel in a too small chair. I smiled and tested my legs as I walked over to him, Paul's chest was rising and falling with each breath and I smiled as I put a hand to his cheek.

"Paul," I said quietly. He didn't move, I shook my head with a grin and tried again, "Paul!" I said shaking him slightly. His eyes opened slowly until he saw me, then he literally jumped off the chair and almost tackled me to the floor. That wouldn't have ended well.

"Hey, how are you feeling?" He asked putting a hand to my forehead, making sure I wasn't dying.

"Probably better then Jake," I said under my breath but I know he heard me. A look of heartbreak came over his features and I tried to change the subject. "Where's the bathroom?" I asked, smooth huh? I thought so.

"Out the door and to your right," he said without emotion.

"Thanks," I said but a hand on my wrist stopped my pursuit out the door. I turned with a questioning look on my face.

"You might want Emily to go with you," he said very, very quietly. I knew why instantly.

"Is it that bad?" I said with horror in my eyes. His green ones reflected back the same back to me.

"I think you're beautiful," he said with a sad smile. I tried but couldn't return it. He dropped my hand let me go into the bathroom. I took a huge breath before I turned to face the mirror. Another scream came from my throat and Emily had me in her arms before I could fall to the floor.

Ending Note: Tell me what you think about the Paul POV, I was kind of rushed but I didn't think it turned out TOO bad. Keep up the reviews they're so motivating! You're the best! Love you!

PS points to whoever can guess what happened to Bella, how she healed and what's going to happen next. hmmmmmm =)