Moving on….
The lifeless corpse that I have become is nothing more, than my seemingly useless existence. My past, my present, and my future destroyed by that one person whom I now know as Satan. He destroyed
me, took all I thought I needed. It is now time to leave all of that behind and move on with my life. After the divorce papers were filled out only two months back he made the stupidest mistake of his life.
He tried to take my son away from me. I was beyond furious I was ready to kill. In court he told the judge I was an unfit mother, he said my appearance said everything. Yes I was disheveled yes I had
reminisce of tears in my eyes, plan and simple I looked like hell. I hated him more than eve I remember clearly turning to the judge in my own defense and spewed the words that secured me my son. I
turned and spoke from the soul. I told him that of course I looked like hell but what is to be expected when the one you though you loved betrays you and then tries to take everything from me how would
he feel if it happened to him. I saw the look in the judges eyes and new I was winning. I turned to "the devil himself and spoke." Who was there in the midnight hour when he cried for food ME!!! Who
was there when he was sick ME!! Who was there when he gave his first laugh, his first smile, his first steps!! ME! And where was he your honor with that tramp there with him now. I turned to the judge
and looked him straight in the eye I carried that child for nine months, I bore him, loved him and I cherished every moment I had with him. The only incompetent parent in this room is that excuse for a man
sitting there I pointed to the silver haired jackass. If you can even call him a parent. He was never there he was to involved with his tryst to even know he had a son At that point I was out of breath and
fell to my knees that took every ounce of my being, I looked over to that son of a bitch and saw the shock on his face. The judge then deliberated and when he came back he granted me full custody of
my child. At that I was relived. I ran out of the court room and to my mother's house only a few blocks down. When I got there I smiled my little boy on his uncle's lap smiling without a care in the world.
I walked to my room and into the bathroom. I stared into the mirror. Who was that disheveled women, that gazed back at me? I took a shower and then fixed myself properly. I walked downstairs and right into my worst nightmare. There he was standing in the door way.
"What do you want?" I questioned hate laced through my every word.
"You can't take him away from me he's my son to." He spoke sharply.
At that I let out a small laugh "Your son. As I so wonderfully pointed out to the judge you are no father to him, you may have helped create him but being a father is totally different. Your brother was
more a father to this child than you ever were. And now I would appreciate it if you left my house." I said and stormed right past him.
He turned and left out the front door. I was proud of myself but my heart still ached, seeing him here was so very hurtful. The thought that he could walk in here and act all high and mighty was just stupid.
If only he knew. He hated me for having gained control of his son whom he thought belonged to him, but he would hate it even more if he found out that I had two things of his. One just wasn't here yet.
Two more months pass and I feel like I am living in a dream world. His face is every where on TV on magazines, in newspapers, but I could care less. They all talked about his big fabulous wedding to
her. I laughed at it in front of the others playing it off as if I had fully moved on. But inside I was breaking again. But I knew that I had to be strong for the three of us now that I was alone. I spoke to
Sango about it. She thought I should tell him. Like I could, I could not just call him up and say hey guess what I did not tell you before but I am pregnant with your second child now could I? I mean I
guess I could but I won't he left, me and now I have to be strong or at least that is what I keep telling myself. I had to quite my job seeing as how we both worked in the same law firm. So I got a job at a
bakery for a while, it works out for me I get paid and I get all the snacks I want for free. The owner of the bakery is a sweet old couple. They depress me. Four months down and five to go before he or
she gets here. I have been saving money for a home for three, but with the expenses of a child I might end up in a one bedroom apartment with two kids. My mom, Sango, Ayame, and Rin have all
offered me a home with them but I can not accept. My mom has my brother and my grandfather to look after; Sango and Miroku have four kids I could not impose. Ayame and Koga have two kids so
that won't work either. As for Rin she's married to "HIS" brother so the possibility of seeing "him" thought it might be low since "he" and his brother do not get along, it's still possible and I won't take
that chance. So now I am working my hardest to get the money and no I don't take money from others I am going to do this on my own.
Two more months have passed and I sit here on a hospital bed reading the morning paper. I am now six months pregnant, the doctor said I work to hard for a pregnant women and that is what I can
account the false alarm of pregnancy to. I felt horrid when he told me this I felt like the worst mother in the world, how could I put my unborn child to risk Like that. I was even more distressed when I
turned the news paper to the next page there was a large picture of "him and her" getting back from there honey moon. Tears stung my eyes as I looked at my overly large stomach. I had to persevere.
The doctor told me to take it easy when I was let go from the hospital today. And I told him in earnest that I would be very careful. I went to the bakery and told the elderly couple my dilemma and The
sweet old lady to me that it would be okay if I was to stay home for the duration of my pregnancy , and she would pay me for my absence. I was thrilled. With my last pay check I bought a small house in
a decent neighborhood. My little boy's birthday was two days away so I had to start planning for a party he would be two, I could not wait.
To day is my little boy's birthday he was full of smiles. When I went to wake him he was already up bouncing on his bed giggling like crazy because he knew today was his special day. It was going to be
a surprise birthday party at my mom's house. She insisted she throw the party for him, I could not refuse my mother. At three I took him to my mothers and as we walked though the door the shouts of
surprise rang through the air. My little boy giggled and laughed and ran about kissing and hugging every one. My eyes darted to the corner where one of my old high school friends stood. He was Hojo.
He was tall and muscular broad shouldered he looked more mature than he did in high school where he was the school nerd . He approached me and smiled giving me a hug and presenting me with
flowers. We talked of the past, and our present, and possibilities of the future. He made my heart flutter with each word, he had me in a trance that I wish would not have been broken. But as all my
hopes wishes and dreams it was dashed with the sound of a knock at the door. The party raged and I excused myself from Hojo and answered the door and to my horror there "he" stood poised and
confident.
My heart sank to the floor and I felt the sting of tears in my eyes. I slammed the door in his face and walked as fast as my body would allow to the room upstairs. My mother followed me and held my
head as I cried. "How "I sobbed "Why" I sobbed louder. " Kagome no matter how much you hate him he does have the right to see his child." I looked at my mother who wiped my tears away. She left
back to the party and I went into the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and fixed myself I knew this was a test from the almighty above and I would pass it.
I walked down stairs and I saw him speaking to my son. Yes my son not his that bloody bastard.
"Mama mama" came his sweet sing song voice.
I walked over to my son and "the devil" and looked directly into my sons eyes "daddy is here" he said pointing to his father, my heart dropped at my sons smiling face.
"I see mommy will be back she has to go get some water." I said as I retreated to the kitchen to get some water. I felt his stare as I retreated but I dared not look back.
As I entered the kitchen my heart slowed Rin was in there pigging out because she recently found out that she was expecting. Sesshomaru was delighted as hell and tended to her every need. I had to
admit I was a tad bit jealous but only a small bit.
I stared at Rins small frame she had not changed since high school. As I looked I felt a hand on my shoulder and I jumped, I knew that presence.
I turned around an met the gaze of the "golden eyed devil" "What do you want?" I asked indifferently.
He looked my form up and down before speaking "To talk."
He was impossible "look I really don't want to talk to you ever so leave me alone." I stated with an edge in my voice.
"I can't until we talk." He said I looked into his eyes they looked hurt, but I could care less.
"Why should I speak with you? Give me a damn good reason." I looked at Rin who was staring at us.
"Look I am sorry about everything I know that I hurt you, but I did not mean to it just happened." I looked at him and laughed.
"Oh that's a good reason it just happened." I was starting to get stressed
" I never meant to hurt you, I am sorry but I can't help that I fell in love. Could you expect me to just forget that and live a miserable life?" he said and that broke the last straw.
"Oh Ya you live a miserable life, you left me for some one else you walk in here with a lame excuse what do you want? If your asking for forgiveness you'll never get that from me leave me alone, Like
you said you fell in love with some one else, and you did not want to be miserable so you left me, but you being her is making me miserable and I HA……" I was screaming so loud and hard I felt a sharp
pain run through my body and I screamed I clutched my stomach and fell to the floor in pain. The next thing I know Sesshomaru put me in car and was driving me to the hospital.
This was the worst thing every the pain subsided and I was fine. The doctor said I was to be on bed rest for the rest of my pregnancy. I laid in the hospital bed Every one came to visit at one point or
another and as I lay there my thoughts turned to "him" it was all his fault everything. When we were young he hated me, when we were in high school he begged me to be with him, in college he told me he
loved me. He ruined my life, because I trusted him At that point my mother came in.
"Kagome Inuyasha wishes to speak with you and I think you both should talk I will send him in but if you want him out call for me okay.
I did not say a word she left and he walked in I made no effort to look at him or anything I laid there still as a statue emotionless and quiet.
"I am sorry about this Kagome." He said softly
I did not speak nor look just laid there.
"When I saw you earlier I guess I did not see that you were pregnant."
If he expected me to say something, I disappointed him.
"Is it a boy or a girl?" he asked quietly.
I laid there still then words just escaped me
"I don't know. I wanted it to be a surprise." I said quietly
"Oh, who's the father." At this question I was stunned. The room was quiet for a moment as I thought about what to say.
" I don't know" In all honest I did not know, I mean literally I knew it was him but, it was not the "him" I loved.
"That's not like you kagome, I mean if you don't want to tell me its okay I….." I cut him off.
" Its I guy I used to know we don't really talk to each other, we both made a mistake although he visits often we both know this should not have happened." It was not the truth but it was not a lie either.
"Oh, well at least he is involved. I mean, that's good." He said some what with a disappointed expression.
"Ya its good. So what did you want to talk about?" I asked
" I came today to say goodbye to Kyo" He said slowly I felt my heart stop for a moment before he continued.
"Were moving away and well I probably won't see him for a while." I looked into his eyes.
" Oh well you can go spend time with him now if you want to and whatever." I said my eyes closing with drossiness
Its been a year to the day when that conversation happened, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl Aiko. She has "his eyes black and silver hair and cute puppy dog ears like her brother. Since That
goodbye he has not called or written Kyo is three now and he hates his father with a burning passion for missing his birthday. It hurts to see him like that but there is nothing I could do about it. I am now
engaged to Hojo we are planning to marry in the fall. Hojo loves the children and he loves me and that all I can ask for right? As I read the paper this mooring I came upon an article ." Inuyasha the
famous attorney has divorces his wife Kikyo." I was shocked to say the least but I put it in the back of my mind when my beloved walked through the door with our children.