Chapter 2: Yesterday

"I just can't believe you're gone
Still waitin' for mornin' to come
When I see if the sun will rise
In the way that you're by my side

When we had so much in store
Tell me what is it I'm reaching for
When we're through building memories
I'll hold yesterday in my heart, in my heart"

Once I slammed the door the tears were out of my control. I slid myself onto the floor and held onto my chest tightly to try to stop the vigorous shaking. I hated myself for being so weak, I hated myself for being so stupid most of all I hated myself for letting it happen. My sobering cries must've been heard through the hallways because my brother walked through and put hold me in his arms. It only made my cries harder and the pain stronger knowing that no one is able to see me through his arms.

"Macy-Belle I'm here, its okay." He whispered.

I shook my head in his arms crying out 'no' over and over again. I could hear footsteps coming towards me and stopping at a good distance, my family by now was probably surrounding me after hearing my screams.

"Harrison, bring her up to her room please." My mother said gently

"Sure."

Harrison carried me bridal style up the stairs and to my room. He placed me on my bed with the covers over my head. The tears have not stopped nor have they lessen. They just kept coming and I couldn't stop it which made me angrier resulting to me crying even more. My heart was shattering in a painfully slow pace. With every bright memory of him I had broke my heart just that much more and it hurt, so much. I closed my eyes praying for an escape from all of this even for just a little while…

It was a beautiful summer day. The sun was shining bright and the smell of the fresh breeze tickled our skins lightly as the grass danced on our bodies. We laid there staring at the white clouds that joyfully floated around the bright blue sky. Splash. The sensation of cold water splashed all over me woke me up from my day dream daze state.

"Toby!" I screamed.

"Oh, didn't see you there Mace." He said sarcastically.

"Very funny."

"Come on, you should come in the water is great!" He said enthusiastically

"Fine." I gave in.

I jumped into the cold water feeling so alive. When I got out Toby was gone and I looked around for him. He jumped from behind and dunked me down under the water. He pulled me out placing me in his embrace.

"Saved your life, you owe me one." He said playfully.

"I wouldn't need saving if you didn't try to drown me." I told him.

"Or if you were a better swimmer." He joked.

The night fell quickly and we were sitting around a fire roasting marshmallows. He gave me his jacket for warmth as we sat under the stars in each other arms.

"Look a shooting star, make a wish." I said.

"I wish for days like this to last forever. Days where I am just with you." He whispered making me smile—

CRASH

"No! Somebody help please! Please! Help!" I cried.

"Ma'am please move out of the way." A paramedic said.

"Please, please help him please." I begged.

I watched them work on his lifeless body that was lying a blood of pool. It killed me to watch him look so…cold.

"Toby!" I cried out.

"Toby! Please wake up! Please! Don't do this! Not now!" I screamed.

I ran towards him but a paramedic pulled me back. I tried to struggle out his arms but he was too strong and I was too weak. I couldn't reach Toby, instead I was left in the sidelines watching helplessly as they moved his body away.

"TOBY!" I yelled.

I jolted up awake in my dark room in cold sweat. I could feel myself shaking all over again and the tears rolling down my cheeks again. I wiped them away and looked out at the window staring at the big bright moon. Hoping to find sanctuary from all of this.

"We have to do something." My mom said.

I could hear my parents and brothers having a conversation outside of my room. I walked over to the door and leaned in to listen to it.

"She's been getting nonstop nightmares, screaming and kicking in her sleep. Waking up in tears and sweat. It kills a mother to see her daughter like that." Mom's voice cracked.

"I know Jane but what are we supposed to do? You think I can stand seeing Macy like this after what happened to Toby and what it did to her? They were in love for 14 years for crying out loud!" Dad said.

"Then do something about it Derek, just do anything please." Mom begged.

"Dad, I think we should get Macy some help." Kyle suggested.

"Like a shrink? Macy is not crazy Kyle." Harrison argued.

"I know but we have no other choice, this might get out of hand." Kyle said.

"He has a point Harrison."

"Not you too Eric." Harrison said.

"What? If this is the only thing that could help her then fine we should take her to one." Eric said.

"So dad, send Macy to a shrink?"

"Fine we'll do that Evan."

I couldn't believe my family was going to send me to see a shrink. I mean I know I'm depressed and a mess but that is understandable right? I mean my best friend and my love just died in front of me 2 days ago but I'm not crazy.

"So Macy tell me about your family." Dr. James said.

"Well, I have 4 brothers, Harrison is the oldest, Kyle is second oldest, and Evan and Eric are twins. I am the youngest out of the 5 children. My parents are Jane and Derek Misa. What else is there to say?" I said nonchalantly

"Hmm, who's Toby Phelps?"

Her words struck in my heart, stopping my world for a moment. I looked at the floor blankly trying to bring myself back but my mind and my heart were at two different places.

"Macy?" She called.

"Sorry, what?" I asked.

"Who's Toby Phelps?"

"He was my neighbor." I said.

"Just a neighbor?" She asked.

I didn't understand what she was trying to do because she knew who exactly who Toby Phelps was and who he was to me. She knew my situation, so why was she asking me these questions?

"No not just a neighbor. He was…something different to me. I'm sorry but why should I tell you this? You are a complete stranger to me. What makes you think I'll tell you something I won't even tell my parents?" I asked.

"Because Macy, sometimes a stranger is better to talk to than anyone else." She said.

I stared at her looking at her like as if she has gone nuts. But she just sat there indifferent with the same features on her face. I sighed in defeat.

"Well?" She asked.

"Toby was a neighbor of 14 years that I fell in love with since I was 8. I mean 8 years old, at that age who knew what love was? At 8 all that you would worry about is if you missed Saturday morning cartoons! But here I was in love with my best friend." I said.

"Did he love you back?" she asked.

"Yes he did, which is what made things all the better. He loved me with all his heart and not a day would go by without him telling me that." I told her.

"That's nice. What happened to him?" She asked.

"He died."

"How?"

"In a car accident."

"How do you feel about that?"

"I don't know."

"Heaven knows what the future holds
Or least where the story goes
But I never believed until now"

"I thought our days would last forever
But it wasn't our destiny
'Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong"

"They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away but they can never have yesterday"

Song by Leona Lewis

AN: Chapter 2, hope you guys liked it. Review please x