RPOV

I just sat on the floor crying until I had no more tears left. I had a lot of thoughts running through my head. I was seventeen turning 18 in a few months and Im pregnant, cant my life just be simple for once.

How am I going to tell Dimitri that I am pregnant when I don't even know how it happen…. Well I know how it happen but genetically it is impossible. I know he wants children more than anything but could he believe that this baby was his? Would he still love me & want to be with me? Would he hate me? Oh god what have I done? What am I going to do?

I pulled myself off the floor and crawled into bed fully clothed, I really didn't care at that moment. I don't know what time I fell asleep or I had any at all when my alarm clock starting buzzing. I rolled over slapping the clock with my hand. I walked into the bathroom splashed some water on my face waking me up a bit before heading out the door to the gym.

I entered the gym doors calling out to Dimitri. No answer, did I really get here before him. Shrugging my shoulders I headed for the change room. After changing I headed to the track to stretch, then my laps.

I lost count of how many laps I had done when I looked up and I saw Dimitri leaning up against the fence with a puzzled look on his face. I started slowing down my pace as I entered the turn, now at a walking pace I headed towards him.

"Roza how long have you been out here?" his voice sounded very concerned which brought out his accent. God I could of melted right then.

I shrugged "My alarm went off at 5 so just after. Why what time is it now?" as I reached down grabbing my water bottle.

I was coming back up when I started feeling dizzy. I looked up into Dimitri's eye seeing him reaching for me as I blanked out.

"Ssshhh Roza it is alright, I've got you my love" his voice was a whisper against my ear.

"What happened and where are you taking me?" I asked quietly urgently.

"You fainted Rose and im taking you back to your room, unless you want me to take you to the clinic?" he asked looking down at me raising one eyebrow.

"NO! My room please, you know I hate the clinic" I said sternly.

"I figured as mush" Dimitri sighed.

I knew he wanted to take me to the clinic and get me checked over but I couldn't risk him finding out that im pregnant.

I snuggled into Dimitri resting my head against his shoulder as he carried me back to my room. I felt him grip me tighter pull me more into his embrace as he climbed the stairs being so careful not to drop me.

"I can walk if it makes it easier" I stated knowing fully well he wouldn't put me down.

"Roza you just fainted and you think I am going to let you walk, anyway were are here" he bluntly replied

Proving his point he shifted my weight in his arms now holding me now with one arm under my but while the other retrieved his keys from his pocket to open my door. He pushed to door open with his foot entering my room. Dimitri walked over to my bed laying me down very carefully like I was going to brake. Once I was safe on the bed he stood up going back over towards the door closing and locking it.

I was staring at the wall knowing he was going to ask what happened. How was I going to answer him? Should I tell him I was pregnant, god what am I going to do?

I was deep in thought that I didn't notice that Dimitri took off his shoes and duster climbing on the bed pulling me into his embrace.

"Roza my love, please tell me what is going on?" his voice was filled with worry.

"Im sorry I let you down comrade I didn't sleep last night is all, my body hasn't rested enough" I tried sounding convincing as I looked up at him.

Dimitri looked into my eyes like he was look into my soul.

"Roza you didn't let me down at all. You prove yourself everyday and then some more. I could never be more proud of you. I just want you to know that you can tell me anything, I won't let anything bad happen to you" he said while stroking my cheek.

"I know Dimitri, I love you too but it's the truth I didn't sleep, ill be fine" before kissing his hand.

He still can't bring himself to say the word "I Love You" like I am going to vanish if he does. It doesn't bother me as I know he does love me and when he does decide to say those words it will be perfect.

"Princess Lissa?" he said still looking at me with worry and knowing I am still holding something back.

"Yeah, but she can't help it" I said looking away.

Lissa can't help it when her emotions come through so strong that I get sucked into her head especially when she is alone with Christian. Dimitri knows about the bond, he was the first person to figure it out. I hated lying to him but this was the easiest way out of this situation which is so what I need. I still have to figure out if I want this child before speaking to him.

Dimitri hand went under my chin lifting my face to look at him. His eyes were so loving and understanding that I nearly burst out in tears, oh no not the hormones! He leant down kissed my lips softy then said "Sleep my love"

I snuggled up closer to Dimitri falling quickly to sleep listening to his heart beat.

I woke up hours later, rolling over in my bed feeling for Dimitri but he wasn't there. I opened my eyes to find a note on the pillow.

My Darling Roza

I have excused you from all your classes today explaining you overworked yourself at training causing injury. So rest easy.

Sorry I couldn't be there when you woke up but I had a shift and you looked like an angel I didn't want wake you.

Always

D.

Oxoxoxoxox

I smiled to myself while I ripped up the note into small pieces. I wished I could keep them but I didn't want to risk anyone finding them. I sat up in bed looking at the clock, 3:00am dinner would almost be over and I can't be bothered to change. I was heading into the bathroom when I heard a knock at my door.

"Rosemary Hathaway you open this door right now" said a stern voice behind the door.

I knew instantly who it was….. My Mother!

I stubbled over to the door unlocking it, turning and making my way back to bed. My mother opened the door walking in with her guardian mask on.

"Well hello stranger" I said in a sarcastic tone.

But my mother wasn't going to have any of that from me; I just love pushing her button even if I wasn't well.

"Rose enough, I didn't come here to argue with you" my mother the famous Janine Hathaway stated.

Oh she didn't just say that!

"What so you decided it was time to acknowledge that I existed and want to bond? Well frankly mother it is about 14 year to late for that" I snapped at her.

My mother just stood there staring at me, and then she walked over to the door.

"No matter how much you hate me Rose I am still you mother, nothing can change that" she said almost pleadingly before walking out of the room.

God she always does that, makes everything out to be my fault. GOD! I can never do anything right in her eyes. Even with all the training session with Dimitri, keeping out of trouble and everything that has happened in the last month I still am not good enough in her eyes.

I hate it when she gets too me like that.

I once again headed to the bathroom stripping my clothes along the way. I filled up the bath tub soaking my now soar body, when I heard another knock at my door. Christ can't I be left alone?

"It's opened" I yelled

"Rose?" came a quiet voice, which I only just managed to hear

"In the bath tub" I said loudly.

I looked up to see Lissa in the doorway. Seeing it was her I let out a sigh.

"Hey Lissa, what up?" I asked concerned.

"Always concerned about everyone else instead of yourself" she sighed with a soft mother look.

"I was worried when you didn't show up for breakfast, then I started freaking when you weren't in class. I missed my first class looking for you when I ran into Guardian Belikov who told me about your training session." Lissa said

"Sorry Lissa I didn't mean to worry you, I was running laps, lost track of time until Dimitri showed up. My body just gave out, plus I didn't get much sleep last night" I said the last bit quietly looking at the ceiling.

I looked out of the corner of my ear to see Lissa blushing as realisation set in on why I didn't sleep.

I cut her off before she could say anything "Lissa it fine, im fine, you can't help it"

"To make up for it I got you some dinner as you missed out" she said smiling but still blushing slightly.

"Thanks Lissa you can leave it on my desk as im going to be in here a while. All that running made me legs really sore, remind me never to do something like that again as pay back is not good!" I chuckled.

"No problems, Ill see you tomorrow at breakfast ok" Lissa said before leaving my room.

I leaned back further in the tub closing my eyes letting my muscles relax. Strange Lissa didn't offer to heal me. I shrugged it off thinking she probley didn't want to darkness to affect my test coming up. Thinking about that I still had no idea what I was going do to. I could tell them that I am pregnant but then Dimitri would be end up in jail. Could I do the test and not hurt the baby?

I sat in the tub for about 3 hours thinking of what I was going to do. By the time I finally dragged my arse out of the tub I had decided I was going to keep the baby, complete my test then tell Dimitri.