Chapter One.

Bella Cullen's Point Of View.

I kept going through last night's events in my head.

Edward looking at me wide eyed before the door was shut in my face that was the last time I saw him breathing...living...being Edward.

He all asked in his room one by one to give us his last bit of peace. Esme and Carlisle, Alice and Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett and then Charlie, he saved me for last.

He told me he loved me and that he wants me to move on, to be happy. But how can i be happy when he has been my life for so long, he has been there always, through everything. My mum dying, to when my dog Jacob ran away. Except now this hard time im facing, is because he's gone. Who's going to be my rock? Who's going to be the person i confide in. Everyone else has someone, now I'm on my own.

I gave him one last kiss, i put everything i felt for him in that kiss, i murmured that i love him and always would. He barley whispered his I LOVE YOU. His eyes fluttered and a single tear trailed down his cheek, his machines started going off wildly. They dragged me out of his room kicking and screaming. He was gone, i just knew it. I just wanted to go back in time and tell him that, he didn't have to go out and get me bread, if he wasn't on the road that night he wouldn't of been hit. He would be here with me right now.

It felt like the whole world had stopped, but i was just hoping for some sort of miracle that he would survive. The doctor came out and said the words none of us wanted to hear "I'm soooo sorry...we tried everything that we could. It just...it just wasn't enough. I really truly am sorry for your loss."

I was in a state of denial, I believed to hard that he would miraculously survive his injuries, that it was all just some bad dream.

I strode right up to the doctor, looked at him in the eye and laughed.

"You're kidding me right? Edward is right down the hall...Waiting for me to come in...Waiting for me to tell him I love him. "

"He isn't down there waiting for you...Bella he's gone." The doctor said softly.

I turned to Charlie and he wrapped his hands around my upper body hugging me closely to him. I sobbed into his chest, he just kept whispering over and over again that everything was going to be alright.

How is it honestly going to be alright when Edward is gone? He is my reason for everything.

Something snapped in my head I pushed away from Charlie. I ran from him, from the heart ache, from what my world once was.

I was rushing down the street and stopped in a park. I sat on a bench it was situated between two trees that covered the bench from prying eyes; I wanted to fall apart with no one watching. I sat there thinking over everything that had happened.

The sun was starting to rise. I could see the beautiful colours swirling around in the sky.

It looked just like the first sunset we experienced together on our very first Valentine's Day when Edward took me down to La Push beach.

(FLASHBACK)

I was starring at myself in the mirror looking at my reflection. I was wearing a pair of comfy jeans and my blue sweater, but for some unknown reason to me Alice insisted that we put a belt on top of the sweater to 'show' off my curves, try nonexistent curves if you ask me. Alice had insisted that she apply just a subtle amount of make-up.

You can never deny Alice anything so eventually after a long and heated debate she had won. I was put through 37 minutes and 17 seconds of torture. Yes I timed it. So what. I don't care. My hair was up in a twist that turned into a bun. There were some strands of hair that were coming lose and I hadn't even left the house yet. GREAT. A HAIR DISASTER ALICE IS GOING TO KILL ME.

I had everything ready I think. Edward did say dress warm. It was Valentine's Day. He was surprising me with what we were doing. It was our first Valentine's Day together. We were only 15. But been together for nearly 6 months.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

OMG he's here. I should have worn something different. He always sees me in these clothes and it's somewhat of a 'SPECIAL' occasion.

"Bella..." Charlie shouted up to me.

"Yeah?"

"Edward is here are you coming?"

"I'll be down in a minute. 'KAY?"

I can't go down there I look like...I don't know what I look like. But what if he doesn't like they way I look.

No that is silly Bella he likes you.

No it's not silly it's Valentine's Day. He would expect me to put more effort into it. Wouldn't he.

Stop working yourself up. It will be fine.

No it won't be fi-

There was a rasp at my door. Charlie peered in. Interrupting me form fighting with my own thought. GREAT. I'm crazy as well.

"Bella you have been up her for 10 minutes. Poor Edward is worrying you're having second thoughts."

"I'm sorry dad, I'm coming down now. 'kay?"

"Yep sure."

He shut my door mumbling something that sounded like 'better keep his hands off of her'.

It's now or never.

I was walking down the stairs and I saw him. He was sitting on the couch, his back to me and when he finally turned around when his smile lit up the room. His eyes roamed over my body, making me feel very conscious of myself. He met my eyes and stared into them, walking over to me never breaking eye contact.

"WOW...I...you look..." he fumbled.

I couldn't help but blush at his words. He wasn't even really saying words as such. But it was really quite adorable. I had to look at the floor it was kind of becoming a bit too much with him constantly staring.

I mean I was only in my everyday clothes, the clothes he sees every single day.

"You're not looking so bad yourself Edwardy."

"You and that nickname. Why do you use it? You know I hate it."

"I'm the only one who get away with it and everyone hates that only I can get away with it and just cause you love me."

OMG I just said 'cause he loves me. We haven't even said that we love each other yet. Oh Crap, Oh Crap, Oh Crap.

I looked up into his eyes and really all I see is love. But because I'm me I don't want him to feel awkward or upset or mad or any other negative feeling for that matter, especially towards me.

"I...I really really didn't mean...ummmm...to put you...you know on th-"

He placed his fingers on my lips and told me to be quite.

"Bells...I...I love you forever and ever. I have for a while now and I'm sorry it's taken me this long to tell you. It's just that I was scared you wouldn't return it back."

He was seriously incredible thinking I didn't return the feelings. Okay I would have dumped his ass by now if I didn't love him, he should have realised that.

I stared back into his eyes.

"I love you Edward Cullen forever and ever. My heart, my life, my everything is staring at me and it's more than I deserve."

"You deserve more than what I can give you. I LOVE YOU. Forever and ever."

Then there was a throat clearing to my right and it was Charlie.

"Alright, you kids need to go. The night is still young and go and have fun and live for a while."

"Okay were off Charlie, I'll take good care of your girl okay."

"You just go have fun. If I hear you hurt her though that will be end of you though. You do realise that right?"

"Yes, Charlie...umm I mean sir?"

Charlie nodded and walked back into the kitchen.

Edward grabbed my hand and dragged me out of the door. Being the gentleman he is, he opened the door for me to go into the car.

"Hi Bella. How are you?"

"I'm very well Mrs. Cullen and you?"

"Please call me Esme and I am very glad to hear that and I am fine thank you for asking."

At the stage Edward had hopped into the car and was sitting next to me. He reached over and grabbed my hand and started to play with my fingers.

"Mum, you know where to go yeah?"

"Yeah, I know where were going okay. Don't worry. Love you Edward"

Edward goes really red and looks at me from the corner of his eye. "Yep mum, love you too."

I couldn't help but giggle. That was really cute. He wasn't afraid to say he loved his mum. I know for a fact that when I go to my mates houses and their parents say they love them they go 'yeah whatever'. They are going to regret doing that one day when they are no longer there.

We were driving to La Push where Esme drove us to the beach and told us to have fun, and then drove off.

We both slowly walked down the beach over the sand. Hand in hand. The sun had started to set.

Edward stoped walking. "Isabella I'm sorry if this is really corny but I don't really care at the moment. You are the most beautiful girl in the world. Every sunset, every sunrise, every beautiful thing cannot compare to you."

Okay. Where the hell did that come from?

The heat in my checks was rising and I probably was redder than a tomato at that very moment. But no one has said that to me and that was very special.

"Ummmm...Okay...Thank you." I didn't know what to say. Because you tell me what do you say to that?

I have no idea but I just started laughing and I had to sit. Edward did not look very happy I can tell you that much.

"How can you be laughing? My god...what the hell?" He was screaming by the end of his little rant.

I had to muster up my best looking puppy dog eyes.

"Edwardy...Edwardy...Edwardy look at me please?" I pleaded with him.

He wouldn't look at me. Drastic times call for drastic measures.

"Fine whatever, just so you know, I have no idea how you can even look at me sometimes you see people like Jessica and Lauren and they are constantly throwing themselves at you. Then there's me I feel small and insignificant to them. To hear someone say that I'm beautiful is different and to be honest I though you where lying a bit I mean I'm me. Look at me, and I mean really look at me. This is it, this is who I am. I don't see how that is attractive, but I like being who I am. But whatever I suppose." I paused looking at him, his mouth hanging open for the world to see. "Now I'm going. I'll find my own way home." I said in embarrassment.

I laid it all on the table for him, yeah we've been together for six months but, he puts me on this pedestal sometimes and I just don't see why, and he needs to know how I feel about myself. Hopefully he'll come to his senses because I have no way of getting home unless I walked all the way and Charlie would not be very happy if I showed up by myself.

I started to stroll down the beach looking out to the sunset. It really was beautiful. All the mesmerising pinks and oranges swirling in the sky. Truly breath taking. I was there at the beach I may as well just watch the sunset, I guess that was the reason we came here anyway.

I sat to watch the sunset over the water. The waves were crashing and colliding with each other.

Then I see from the corner of my eye that someone is walking up the beach with their eyes looking to the ground kicking a stone along the sand.

I turned and just watched the sun. It was going down slowly. Then the foot steps were getting louder and louder. Until someone was standing next to me.

I knew who it was from their extremely large feet that were situated next to me.

I looked up and I see he's looking out to the ocean watching the sunset just like I was.

"I'm sorry; I didn't mean to lose it back there. But you where laughing and I did mean what I said how you are the most beautiful everything compared to everything else in this world."

"You shouldn't be saying sorry I should be saying sorry, I was the one that made you mad because I laughed. So I am really really sorry." Insert puppy dog eyes "Please forgive me? I love you forever and ever and I am sorry."

He sat down next to me and put his right arm around me, pulling me to his side and started rubbing my arm to try and comfort me. I must admit that it was working.

"Please?" I probably sounded pathetic but I didn't care.

He looked down and met my eyes.

"I could never be upset with you...I'm sorry...I love you forever and ever." His face slowly started to descend towards my waiting lips. He brushed his lips past mine. "I love you Bells. Forever and ever."

He came down and kissed me passionately. I have never felt that much passion and love before. I could feel how much he was sorry, how much he cared for me in that one kiss.

He bought his hand up and stroked my check while his tongue was gently caressing my tongue.

He broke the kiss and we stared at each other. I was getting very tired so I gently placed my head on his shoulder. I stared out towards the sunset and it took my breath away. The sun was barely visible over the horizon but it was giving off a very nice variation of colour to the sky.

I could feel my eyes getting heavier as we watched the stars start to sparkle in the night sky. I remembered hearing the waves crashing against the rocks. Then nothing.

(*)(*)(*)(*)(*)(*)(*)(*)

I heard sea gulls squawking very close to where I was. I could still hear the waves crashing on the nearby rocks. The sun was rising and it had the same beautiful colours swirling around the sky as it did when it was setting. This date has been the best in the history of forever.

I opened my eyes and saw we had never left the beach. We slept at the beach. Crap Oh Crap Oh Crap. Charlie is going to kill me.

I saw that we were covered by a blanket. Edward was actually just laying there watching me I guess staring at me in awe. "You're really beautiful while you're asleep. You know that right?"

"No, I didn't know that but thank you for telling me I guess."

His longish Cullen hair was so messed up I couldn't help but laugh because he was looking so damn fine. His teeth were so white compared to his rusted coloured skin.

This was heaven and I loved it. There was no one around and it was extremely cold. But I felt safe, I felt warm. Knowing my big strong protector was with me all night. I didn't want to wreck the temporary heaven that we had, but I had to.

"You do realise that Charlie is going to kill you right?"

"Shit, you don't think he has his gun ready to shot me when we get back do you?"

"Oh, I don't know maybe."

I couldn't pass up the opportunity to make him squirm.

"Maybe Rosalie or Alice could cover for us and then Charlie won't kill you and definitely won't kill me or hang me by my balls."

Let's just say we called Rosalie and she helped us out saying that we spent the night at her house with her fiancée Emmett. She said something along the lines off "They were watching a movie when we went to bed and when we woke up they were cuddled up on the sofa asleep in each other's arms. It was so cute. They where adorable."

The condition was that we had to tell her what happened. Let's say she wasn't very happy with Edward at all but I told her that he shouldn't take all the blame and it was also my fault too.

Charlie was very angry and well he kind of grounded me for 2 weeks. Edward got grounded for 2 weeks as well. We were quite the pair at school never leaving the others side. We would always try and procrastinate after school just so we could be with each other.

The best date in the world, had consequences, but doesn't everything that we do in life have a consequence.

(END OF FLASHBACK)

The sun now had finished rising. The birds where chirping happily away in the nearby trees. Kids were playing on the jungle gym. Couples were walking through the park hand in hand or staring longingly in the other's eyes.

I slowly got off the park bench my eyes were so heavy from the crying. My head bent down, not wanting to look anyone in the eyes I began to walk back to the hospital.

I was walking down the corridor in the hospital when I saw that everyone was still sitting in the waiting room. They all looked up at me as I entered; staring at them I all saw emotions that showed that they felt sorry for me.

I went to the other side of the waiting room not wanting to be near any of them.

I heard the chair next to me move. Then a hand was placed on mine in a loving comforting gesture. I looked up to see who it was. My breathing stopped, but my heart beat was frantic.

I was looking in to the eyes of the one I love.

It was Edward, he was looking at me.