So, I was lucky and didn't get any flames. I was sure that I would...
Then again, not many have reviewed. But that doesn't matter
Disclaimer: Prince of Tennis is not mine, but Sawada is. Not that that is something to be proud of.
Yes I have also realized that Sawada reminds of Sanada. Also Ive just watched Gokusen, and there was a nice Sawada there...
Beta: May-Linn87
Warning: Rape, violence, ooc, yaoi and sex. Also there's a lot of crying. well, a lot as in a lot considering that it's the Rikkaidai regulars.
Enjoy
I looked up at the now familiar ceiling. I was lying in the same hospital as I had a few weeks ago.
I looked beside me, and noticed that Yanagi wasn't there.
'He is probably getting something to eat or drink' I thought. After all he had been sitting beside me ever since he brought me to the hospital.
I sighed and tried not thinking about what had happened, but I found it hard to forget Yanagi's scared face.
Flashback
"Please help me" I sobbed into the phone.
"Akaya? What's wrong?" Yanagi's voice asked, sounding alarmed.
"I...I have been..." I have been raped.
The words were difficult to get out. I couldn't say it.
"Where are you?"
"I think I'm in a warehouse" I tried to gather myself and look around for clues.
I suddenly discovered a window and looked outside.
"I'm in the warehouse beside the Catholic Church"
There was only one Catholic Church in this city
"I'll be there right away" Yanagi said and hung up.
Please hurry. I don't want to be here any longer.
For what seemed like hours later, Yanagi stormed through the doors.
The relief I felt when I saw him was indescribable.
Yanagi looked with me with absolute shock written all over his face.
"Akaya…What happened?" Yanagi asked, though I'm pretty sure he knew.
I started crying again, and hid my face from him.
"Don't look" I yelled in-between sobs.
Yanagi didn't say anything, but pulled me into a tight hug. I clinged to him and cried loudly for a long time.
"I'm here for you. Relax, I'm here now" Yanagi muttered sweet nothings into my ear to make me calm down. When I did, he called a taxi and took me to the hospital.
End flashback
And that's how I ended up here. Again.
I heard a knock on the door. "Come in"
The doctor who had treated my concussion entered.
"How are you feeling?" he asked with a soft voice.
"Fine" I muttered uninterested. Just fine.
"I'm sorry. I know that's a stupid question" he said knowingly. "I have treated many patients like you-"
"Please don't pity me" I snapped at him "I just want to forget about it".
The doctor nodded. "That is understandable, but you have to tell the police officers everything when they come".
"I'm gonna be interrogated?" I asked boredly
"Yes, they will ask you questions about what happened yesterday night. I know it'll be difficult to talk about, but you have to do it".
I didn't answer him.
"Ah..And my name is Shigure Hayato. I've realized that I've forgotten to tell you"
"OK" I answered uninterested.
"By the way, your friends are here. They are currently standing outside, talking with the guy who brought you here. Shall I let them in?"
I felt my stomach cringe. I didn't want to see them right now. I was embarrassed.
"I don't want to see them right now".
"Then I shall send them away" he said and walked to the door.
"Wait" I said fast "Tell Yanagi to come in"
The doctor didn't ask questions and walked out.
A few moments later Yanagi entered. I don't know why it was ok for him to see me like this. I'm not sure about what kind of relationship we have, but I guess I consider him my closest friend.
"How are you feeling Akaya?" I winced as the same retarded question was asked, but didn't snap at Yanagi.
"I'm tired" I answered truthfully.
"The sleep for a while. I'll stay here as long as you want to".
I gave him a short, but honest smile.
"I wish I could, but I'm…I'm afraid" I whispered and didn't look at Yanagi. I don't want him to think of me as a crybaby, but I was afraid.
"What are you afraid of?"
"Nightmares…"
Yanagi didn't say anything for awhile.
"Why didn't you want the others to come?" he asked
I bit my lip thoughtfully.
"I guess I didn't want everyone to stare at me with pitiful eyes".
"I understand".
"How did they act?"
Yanagi snickered a little.
"Well, Marui and Niou protested. Demanded that the doctor let them in. Jackal and Yagyuu tried to calm them down while Genichirou just stood there. They will come back tomorrow".
My eyes widened. I don't want to see them yet, feel their eyes looking at me like I was a freak.
"I don't think they will accept a no next time"
"But I don't want them to look at me like I was some freak. I can see it all in my head" I shouted at Yanagi. "Nobody will know what to say and we'll all just sit in silence. As I don't feel bad enough as it is" I felt tears gather in my eyes and I cursed loudly.
I'm not some stupid girl.
Again I felt Yanagi wrap his hands around my shoulders. I relaxed and blinked away the tears.
"I understand why you feel that way, but you're not being fair to the others. They are worried too, and they want to be there for you. Don't push them away, Akaya"
I knew he was right. Damn it, he was always right.
----------------------------------------------------
I must have fallen asleep, because when I opened my eyes, it was dark outside.
Yanagi wasn't beside me. I guess he went home. It was after visiting hours, after all.
I suddenly felt a little pang of fear and turned on the light. I had my own room, so I wasn't bothered by strangers.
I looked outside the window. Beside it stood a large tree. Its branches almost touched the window, like it wanted to come and take me any minute.
I laughed at my thoughts, and turned off the lights again. And almost screamed.
On the street right outside the window, stood a person looking right at me.
A person I would never forget. Could never forget.
He smirked when he realized that I saw him. Just how long had he been standing there?
I closed my eyes and tried to relax. He can't harm me here. He won't come here I kept telling myself.
I slowly opened my eyes, afraid of what I might see.
But he wasn't there anymore.
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Shigure-san opened the door and looked at me.
"Did you get any sleep tonight?"
Not at all
"Yes, a little" I lied
I don't think he believed me. After all, I had dark rings around my eyes.
"I've heard that your friends will come back again today" he said
"Yes"
"They weren't too happy when I told them you wouldn't see them yesterday"
"I know. Yanagi told me"
Shigure-san smiled at me. He always smiles, doesn't he?
"I'm just going to ask you a few questions before they come" he sat down on a chair beside my bed.
"We have informed your mother. She's taking the first flight she can book. Also I wanted to inform you that you are entitled to a head shrink psychologist if you want to talk to someone. I highly recommend that you accept that offer. Now, it is decided that you are to attend at least two meetings with Yamato-san. He will question you about what happened that night.
If you feel like his sessions are helping, then you can arrange to meet him once a week".
I just nodded when he finished. Like I want to wail about my feelings to a stranger.
Shigure told me to think about it and left.
I sat in deep thought when someone knocked on the door.
"Come in" I said when the door didn't open.
"Hallo" Yanagi said as he entered. "We are all here now. Will you let them in?"
I nodded.
Yanagi waved for the others to come, and soon after they all stood around his hospital bed.
Great. Just as I thought it would be.
"Stupid brat" Niou suddenly yelled and smacked me behind my head. It wasn't hard or anything, but I was rather surprised.
"Like we'd blame you for what happened" Niou's voice was a little softer now.
I looked ashamed at the others. They looked at me with the same expression in their face.
I relaxed when I realized that the expression was not pity.
"Sorry" I muttered almost inaudibly.
Suddenly Marui hugged me tightly; "It's my entire fault. If I hadn't asked you out that day this would've never happened".
I tried to push him away as he, rather rudely, tried to invade my personal space. "Don't be stupid. I don't blame you. Not anyone of you".
Marui sniffed and pulled away. He looked at me and smiled.
"So…how are you feeling?"
What is it with that question?
"Never been better" I joked and we both laughed.
I heard a relieved sigh and turned to the other regulars.
"I'm glad you're fine Akaya" Sanada said and smiled briefly.
"And I am to send a message from Yukimura. He would have come too, but he is not allowed to leave his hospital room."
I nodded. "What is the message?"
"I am here for you" Sanada said. "And so are we" he added.
Every one of my teammates smiled at me, promising protection and help.
I felt tears brimming in my eyes again, but didn't try to suppress them this time. I let them fall as I cried silently, all the time thanking them.
----------------------------------------------------------------------
After much crying, on my behalf, and comforting/hitting, on Jackal and Niou's behalf, they left.
Visiting hours were almost over when I heard a knock on the door and Shigure-san entered.
"We have one more visitor if you're up to it"
"Sure" I replied "Who is it?"
"He says he is your brother. I'll let him in now" Shigure-san said before leaving.
I was confused. I don't have a brother.
The door opened again and a tall dark man entered.
I froze. Sawada.
Sawada closed the door behind him and locked it. He walked over to my bed and bent over me.
"You've been a good pet" he said smiling and stroking my cheek.
I slapped his hand away and glared daggers at him
He stared angrily back and lifted his hand to hit, but stopped in mid air.
"I guess I can't harm you, when you are in the hospital" he said and pouted slightly.
I was so scared that I could barely move, but I would never let him know that.
Sawada bent down and licked my lips. I jolted back and tried to hit him, but he held my hands in a vice grip. He pressed our lips together and forced my mouth apart.
I felt like throwing up ad he stuck his tongue into my mouth. It felt like a wet eel was swimming inside my mouth.
Sawada pulled away and panted a little.
"You taste good" he said before he dived into another kiss.
There was nothing I could do but to let him carry on. He was practically lying over my upper body and I couldn't free my hands.
'Relax, he won't do anything as long as we're in the hospital' I thought to calm myself.
Sawada let go of my lips again and I spit him in the face. This time he did slap me across the face.
"You feisty little whore" he sneered at me "I will tame you" he said as he slapped me again.
My head felt strangely heavy and I had to focus not to wince.
"You think I'll ever let you go?" Sawada whispered into my ear.
He laughed loudly and got walked over to the door. "Be sure to visit me when you're free to leave" he said with a suggestion smile.
He unlocked the door and left. I stormed from my bed and locked the door. I then ran over to the window and made sure it was locked before pulling for the curtains.
I leaned against the wall and slumped down on the floor. I pulled up my knees and hid my face.
When is this nightmare going to stop?
Nightmares in broad daylight...O.o
I'm currently sick. I have no idea of what's wrong, but my stomach is acting weird, I have pain shots through my body and I'm tired.
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