Authors note: sorry its a little short, im trying to break it up in the best way possible cause i wrote it all in one without working out chapters : (
It was Maddie, 'Hey tils hope you didn't forget about that coffee after college were waiting on you hope your still coming, its Friday relax, forget about assignments for a few hours! See you soon Maddie x'. Tilly read her message and clicked reply. She had really hoped it was Jen saying she had made a mistake and that she wanted to be with her again, but Tilly knew even she wasn't that lucky. She shook out of her fantasy and replied to Maddie 'Hey, how could I forget! I'm nearly there just walking through the village shouldn't be long x
Walking through the door of college coffee Tilly heard a familiar voice shout, she looked over to see Maddie and Sinead over in one of the booths with they're coffee's in hand. Tilly waved and walked towards the counter to order her coffee.
Tilly was lost in her thoughts when she heard a very familiar voice from behind her ordering a tall cappuccino to go, she knew this coffee order quiet well, in fact she knew it a bit too well, she glanced over her shoulder to see the person she least wanted to confront, it was Jen.
In that one glance all of Tilly's memories came flooding back, the day at the beach, that magical kiss they shared, every single touch they shared, Jen's soft, warm touch on her face. Thinking of this made Tilly upset. It reminded her that this would never happen again, this thought truly upset Tilly but she was adamant that this wasn't going to get to her she wiped her eyes and coughed to clear the lump that had formed in her throat. During this she didn't realize that Jen had been watching her every move.
Tilly saw a hand reach out beside to grab the coffee cup of the counter she knew that hand, it was Jen's she knew that it was hers cause of all the bracelets she wore Tilly knew the sound of her bracelets jingle as she had heard it quite a few times she remembers mostly that one time at the hospital after the fire. Jen had still been angry at Tilly for lying to her, but Jen didn't stay mad for long, she never did when it came to Tilly.
Tilly froze she didn't want to look at Jen. Tilly ordered her coffee and waited for it. She had thought Jen had left so she had let down her guard, lifting her coffee from the counter she turned to go join Maddie and Sinead who were lost in conversation and didn't see what was going on. Tilly was shocked to see Jen still standing behind her. So shocked in fact she spilled her coffee over herself burning her hand, Jen jumped up from her seat in complete panic grabbing napkins to dry of Tilly's hand. Tilly jumped back at the shock of Jens touch.
Tilly looked at Jen with bewilderment at the fact that just a few hours ago Jen had made it clear there was nothing going to happen between them yet here was Jen holding her hand and having so much concern for her.
"Jen what are you playing at" said Tilly in a hushed but anger filled tone
"You just burned your hand I feel partially responsible for this so I thought it was up to me to help" said Jen wondering why Tilly was acting like this around her.
"I think you've done enough today, don't you? Leave it out Jen I'm sick of your stupid games I've had enough" Tilly had reached breaking point she was sick of Jen doing this to her, she couldn't take much more of it. Tilly turned and walked out of the coffee shop.
Tilly got home to find and empty house, her parents both work late and on this occasion they had both went on a business trip for the weekend, which gave Tilly the whole weekend to mope about the house and think over the events that that day had unraveled.
Tilly hung her coat up on the coat rack and placed her bag at the foot at the rack just like any other day, but this day was different, Tilly turned off her phone and made her way up to her room. She didn't want to talk with anyone not even her friends. Tilly wanted to be alone to sort out her thoughts. As usual Tilly took her journal out of her bedside cupboard and began writing in it.
I wish it didn't hurt this much, I can't believe she would have been so small minded. So much for breaking boundaries and defying convention. It's killing me to say this but I really miss her, her soft touch, her lovely deep brown eyes, her long brown hair the sweet smell of her perfume, her heart warming smiling and her great laugh. I know it's not ideal to keep remembering why I miss her and it's not helping me in the slightest but I can't help it , my hand hurts like crazy but her touch almost made the pain completely disappear I can't believe how everything is different when she is around, it's incredible. I can be in the most horrible mood ever and I get a cheeky grin from her and it makes my day. I can't deal with it; it breaks my heart to see her smile I can't deal with the pain I'm feeling. I just miss her so much.
Tilly put down her journal and crawled into bed, sobbing into one of her pillows she gently fell into a deep slumber.