AN: So I decided to give you guys another chapter because I really felt like I needed to write this. I will reveal what happened between Rachel and Quinn later on in the story. Sorry about the short chapter, I wrote this before I had to go to class. And excuse the errors, I'm going to have someone proofread all my work when she gets the chance.
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Quinn's legs had finally stopped moving, by the time she looked around she was far from the wedding reception. She looked up at the bright pale moon and couldn't hold it in any longer. She fell to her knees and broke down, it was all too much. Seeing Rachel, dancing with her to what once was their song, it was overwhelming. The Hazel-eyed woman continued to cry, not hearing the muffled sound of footsteps approaching her.
Rachel finally caught up to Quinn, kneeling down immediately to place a comforting hand on the blonde's back. "Don't... J-just do-on't.." Quinn said between broken sobs.
Rachel's heart broke at the sight before her. Seeing Quinn like this hurt her in ways she thought wouldn't affect her anymore. When Quinn pulled her body away from the brunette woman's touch she cried harder. Rachel sat there on her knees in the sand as the strongest person she knew sobbed into the sand because of her.
"Quinn..."
Quinn pulled herself together enough to form coherent sentences. The blonde woman stayed in her position as she calmed herself down before speaking, she couldn't look at the brunette. Quinn knew if she looked at Rachel she would break down all over again and that was something she didn't want to do; at least not in front of the one who caused it.
"Rachel don't you get it?... You broke me..."
The tone in Quinn's voice sent a pang of guilt and fear into Rachel. She sounded so broken and vulnerable, but her voice still sounded cold and distant. The world around the two of them felt like it came to a halt. The air that surrounded the women felt heavy, the tension was beginning to feel unbearable.
Rachel shifted uncomfortably at the words that left Quinn's mouth. She couldn't find the right words to say. "I'm sorry..."
"Is that all you can really say to me Rachel? Sorry won't erase the way I've felt for the past two years. 'I'm sorry' won't fix two long years of the emotional pain you've put me through," the tiny brunette stayed in silence, unable to really say anything. "I cried every night for months, You closed me out, you basically dropped me from your life as if I were a deadly poison... Do you know what it feels like to have your entire world ripped away from you in a matter of minutes?"
Quinn stood up from her place and turned to look down at the brunette woman who remained on her knees with her eyes glued to the sand.
"Do you know what it feels like to have your heart ripped out? To have the reason behind your smile become the reason behind your broken-hearted tears? Of course you don't because you're the one who walked away from me without a second thought."
Rachel stood from her spot but kept her eyes to the floor. She couldn't respond to anything Quinn said. Quinn turned to face the water to keep herself from looking at the one person she wanted to comfort her.
"After the dust settled I hated myself. I hated myself because I couldn't find the strength to hate you. I couldn't hate you because I care for you so much..." Rachel's eyes snapped up and looked at the blonde who looked at the stars again. Rachel took a step forward to approach her ex, but stopped herself.
"I tried to contact you for months, but you ignored me. Whenever you saw me you turned your back to me. You acted as if I became a part of your past that you were too ashamed to admit happened..." The blonde's voice was quiet and shaky.
Rachel found the courage to walk to Quinn and stand in front of her. When hazel eyes met deep brown, Rachel gasped. That was the first time she really looked into Quinn's eyes since everything had happened. Rachel was so used to seeing bright hazel eyes that were full of love, life, and cheer. But that wasn't what she saw. Quinn's eyes turned into dull hazel eyes, empty, and lost. Rachel felt her heart drop, she did this to her.
Without thinking Rachel pulled Quinn into a hug, as if she tried to right all of her wrongs. Quinn stiffened when the brunette wrapped her arms around her. Quinn fought her body, she desperately wanted to wrap her arms around the woman who was currently pressed against her. But Quinn's mind won. The blonde woman gently pushed herself away from her ex-girlfriends embrace. She didn't want to look into her eyes but she did. Rachel looked hurt that Quinn pulled away, but Quinn kept her ground.
"Quinn... We need to talk about this..." Rachel tried to grasp the woman's arm but the woman quickly stepped back to prevent it. "I know that what I did is unforgivable... But we need to talk about this."
"Rachel, I think it's too late for that." Quinn said sadly while shaking her head.
"Quinn please... I can't lose your friendship..." Rachel's eyes quickly filled with tears, she didn't want her to leave her life completely. Quinn looked into the brunette's brown eyes, she knew she would regret her next words but she couldn't stop herself.
"You should have thought about that before you left me for Santana."
With those words Quinn turned and walked away from Rachel. A sob broke the silence as she walked away from the beach and to her car. She couldn't look back. "What's done is done. There is no turning back for us."