Blunt.
I reach my car, a green Chrysler Lebaron with a beige top, it's a convertible. Before my dad died, almost two years now, we use to watch Veronica Mars together. I always told him I loved her car and I wanted one. So when I turned 14 he went and got me a green Chrysler Lebaron with a beige top, just like hers. Of course I couldn't drive it so my dad said he would work on it till my 16th birthday. Daddy promised he would be the first to go for a ride with me; that never happened.
My dad died in a motorcycle accident, the roads had been too wet, from the rain we had all week and he skidded out of control. Ever since then I've refused get on a motorcycle. He died the night before my 15th birthday. My mom left me, she couldn't handle being around a constant reminder of the man she loved and lost. I don't know where she is right now; I expect to never see her again. Before she left at least she had the decency to as a family friend to take me in. Sam Uley and his fiancé took me in; Sam's dad and my dad were the best of friends. I couldn't be happier than I am living with them they took me in and helped me through so much.
I see the Welcome to La Push sign knowing I'll be home in just 5 minutes. The sun is gone and the stars have taken its place. I notice there is no rain tonight, it's foggy instead. When I pull into the gravel drive way I know the people inside can hear my arrival. I sit in the car for a few minutes longer, trying to figure out a plan on how to handle the situation.
I guess I sat in the car for too long, because I watched has the front door was roughly pulled open and the towering figure of Sam is in the doorway. I sigh and open my door I can see some of the pack in the windows, all their heads are turned towards the window. As I start walking Sam stays on the porch with his arms crossed so I know he's not only worried but he's pissed.
"Kassandra Jolene Sage! Where the hell have you been? Do you know how worried we have been? You are way past curfew! No call or text, no answering your phone. Never do this again do you hear me? And where the hell is Jacob, wasn't he supposed to be with you?" His voice is panicked, and angry.
I just look at him. The tears that I had kept at bay till now are streaking down my face, evident to Sam in the light of the porch. Sam's eyes widen and a frown comes over his face. I stop before him hoping he'll realize that it's not something I want to discuss with him. No questions, just move out of my way. No luck.
"Kassandra. What- what's wrong?"
I hear no noise in the background, I know they are listening. I don't like it, it feels suffocating.
Ugh fuck this. I push my way around him and through the door. I see the boys in the living room, Embry, Quil, Jared, Kim and Paul. He's at not here I can't tell if that makes me happy or sad. He's with Billy he has to be.
I see their faces all looking confused and alarmed. Its Paul's face that sticks out though he looks mostly concerned than other emotions. Oh God he knows, he knows. I love that boy the most, he understands me the best. We are complete opposites but we get along perfectly. Sometimes I wish it was him who imprinted on me. Sometimes.
Out of the corner of my eye I notice Emily, my second mother, come to stand in the door way of the kitchen and living room. Her beautiful face is turned into a frown. I shake my head letting my eyes fall to the ground and fly to the stairs heading up to my room. I can hear someone shout my name but I keep running. I slam the door shut, even though I know that's Sam's biggest pet peeve. Who cares right now!
I take off my dress while heading to my closet to change into sweats and a cami. Once done I grab my dress from where I dropped it on the floor and throw it in the trash. I climb into bed, sitting against the head board. I hear my door creek; I know its Emily and Kim so I look over at them. They both come sit on the bed. Emily is next to me and Kim in front of me, Emily wraps her arms around me so I rest my head on her shoulder.
"What happened?" Her voice is soft, and caring. I don't answer I don't think I can yet.
"Is it Jake? Did he do something?" I shake my head. No it's not him, but it'd be so much easier if it was. Well some of it is.
"Kassie? What's wrong? Can you tell us?" Kim's voice holds panic and kindness. I want to tell them, my mouth opens and closes, but nothing comes out. Okay find a way to do this without talking then.
I look around the room my eyes landing on my mahogany colored desk. I get out of bed and make my way over grabbing my notebook and I flip it open to a blank page. I look on the desk top again and search for my purple pen. I decide to sit down at my desk and write what I want to say. My eyes notice my walls, my white walls. That's going to have to change soon.
"Kassie, hunny? What-" As Emily talks, I can hear both women shift on the bed as if to start moving over to me. So I hold up my hand in a wait a minute gesture, without even looking at them.
There is only one way I can go about this and that's to be blunt. So I start to write what happened in my note book.
-"I went to Port Angeles today, I was supposed to go with Jacob but he never showed. I was so mad I tried to call but he didn't answer, so I left. Once I got there I parked close to a short cut I know, as I was walking into the alley a man grabbed my arm and put a hand over my mouth. I tried to scream but he gripped my arm really hard and told me to shut it or he'd hurt me even worse. He pulled us further into the darkness of the alley before shoving me against the wall. With one had over my mouth and the other one moving I tried to shove him but he pushed his body against mine. He was so strong, I watched him reach into his pocket and pull out a knife. He smiled at me before lifting up my dress….he raped me. It hurt so much I could feel all the blood. When he finished he ran, and I sat there before making my way to my car. With all the blood I knew I needed a hospital, so I went to Forks. They did tests I have bruising on my upper thighs and a slight tear….. The doctor then proceeded to tell me that I had been 12 weeks pregnant, and the rape caused a miscarriage. I lost my innocent baby."
A waterfall of tears are falling down my face I can taste the salty water on my lips. I can also see that the paper has tear dots. I pick up the notebook and make my way over to the bed. I scoot over back to where and but lean against the wall next to the window. I give the notebook to Emily and I look at Kim letting her know its okay for her to read too. Kim moves off the bed to kneel on the other side of Emily.
I look around my room not wanting to see their reactions. As I look around the room I can't help but have visuals of me walking around the room, holding a baby and singing to my baby. I can see the crib its mahogany just like rest of my furniture. The vision is too painful so I close my eyes and open them once I turn to look out the window. I try to focus on listening to see if I can hear the boys downstairs. I can't hear words but I hear mumbling so I know they are talking.
I feel the bed shift and I feel Emily wrap her arms around me before once again resting my head on her shoulder. I start letting sobs and whimpers come out of my mouth. Not hiding any more, Emily runs her hands through my hair. While Kim tries to sit on the other side of my but since I'm against the wall she's somewhat in front of me. She starts rubbing my arm up while her other hand reaches down to grab my hand. I can see tears in her eyes and I can feel Emily taking shaky breaths so I know she has tears as well.
We sit like that for a long time, I don't know how much time before I can hear Emily break the silence but her voice is just a soft whisper. I wonder if she's trying to speak low enough so the wolf ears downstairs don't hear anything.
"I'm so sorry hunny. I'm so sorry." I just nod against her my tears aren't as heavy now though.
"Who was the father?" I get quiet at Kim's question and I can feel Emily shake her head.
"Sorry wrong time to ask that. I'm sorry it just slipped." I know Kim is really sorry so I give her a smile.
"Jacob was. It happened once, it was nothing planned. He never mentioned it again so neither did I."
"Did you know? I mean I never saw you get sick or anything." I'm actually surprised at how stable my voice is right now.
"No, I had absolutely no idea. My period has always been irregular." I wish I did though, and then maybe I would have been more cautious about going somewhere by myself. Maybe this could have been prevented.
"Are you hungry? I'm going to whip something up okay sweetie." Emily's changing the subject weather for me or for her and Kim I don't know. Knowing Emily it's all three of us.
I can feel the bed shift and I watch her walk to the door. She turns to look at me before she goes downstairs and I can see the promise in her eyes that she won't mention anything downstairs. I hear Kim sniffle and I look over at her she's wiping her tears but they aren't stopping. I force a smile at her and she does the same. She knows this is going to very hard on me and she's scared too.
"Kassie, I know you don't want to talk about it and I won't ask you to. I want you to know that you are my best friend pretty much my sister. Emily and I will be here for you, so will the pack. We are all going to be with you through every step of the way. Just know that for whenever you're ready" I throw my arms around my best friend. My sister.
"Thank you Kimmie." I can feel words building up in my mouth and know I can't stop them.
"I love him you know, so much. He knows I love him but he's set it straight that nothing will be happening in the near future. It's just I thought after our night that he was showing some feelings for me. I should know better it's never going to be me in HER position. And it fucking kills me inside. I'm his imprint and he doesn't even seem to fucking care."
"I know I'm so sorry. Everyone thinks that Jake is really stupid by the way. I can't even imagine how it feels."
I can hear voices raise downstairs so I know the boys are asking Emily questions. I can hear her in the kitchen its right below my room.
"Kim, have all of you eaten?"
Kim gives a shake of her head no.
"Can you go tell Emily make sure she makes dinner for the boys too; we all know they'd starve." I try to laugh but it's so forced I can tell she knows. All she does though is give me a smile nodding her head.
"Of course. I'm also going to tell Jared that I'm gonna spend the night here okay? I'll be right back."
"No go ahead and spend some time with Jared I wanna be alone for a bit."
"I'm not going to leave you-"
"Kim please."
"..alright"
After she leaves I look over to my purse reaching for it once I spotted it. I look through my purse for my phone but just as I go to grab it I can't help but think to I even want to know? I know it's not likely that he called but maybe a text. Would that make me feel better though? NO. I put the phone face down on my night stand. I don't plan on looking at it for the rest of the night.
I get out of bed heading to my closet to open the door. I look at the full length mirror that hangs on the inside of the door. My naturally curly auburn hair falls at a rest on the middle of my back. My pale skin standing out I wish I'd tan but it's never sunny here. I look at my body I took after grandmother on that part 5'2. I'm not one to work out a lot but I have a pretty toned body that fits well with my height. My eyes stand out the most thought, even if they are so empty right now. They seem to be a dark brown, but if I look closely I can still see the sea green that I love. My dad's eyes.
Against my better judgment I can't help but turn to the side imagining a baby bump, I can imagine how much I would be glowing right now. I'm broken out of my staring by what sounds like a yell but is just normal talking voice. Well for the boys it's normal. I turn my head to look at the door that's partially cracked.
"Come on! Tell me what happened? Is she okay? What the fuck is going on?" That would be Paul.
"Did something happen with Jake? He was supposed to take her to Port Angeles, but then he's not with her when she gets back. " Jared
"I stopped by his house to pick something up from Billy but I saw Bella's truck and decided to leave without interrupting." Well there goes my idea of him taking care of Billy. Way to go Quil.
"What?! It makes no sense I mean last night during patrol he told me he was going to take Kassie to Port Angeles today. I don't understand" Sweet, sweet Embry
"So what? Did he just fucking ditch her like he does with every other time?" I knew it; Paul might get out of control.
"Why is he fighting the imprint? Why is he throwing everything away?" Kim. Oh come on Kim don't get involved in this.
"I wouldn't say he's fighting it. Jacob has accepted that he imprinted on Kassie but because he is so in love with Bella, especially before phasing. His imprint feelings with Kassie are dormant." Sam, oh wise one.
"Alright that's it. This is none of our business- and yes Paul you too, this is between Jacob and Kassie. You all need to just drop it. Do you hear me? Drop it. As for what happened today she'll tell you when ready. Got it. Now no more right now." I close my eyes. Thank you Emily.
I hear the front door open, so I open my eyes trying to figure out if I can guess who just left. Most likely Paul, poor guy his temper always gets the best of him.
However I'm shocked when I hear a voice make a greeting.
"Hey guys! Dinner almost ready? I brought along Bella so you can all finally meet her!"
It gets quiet downstairs. Oh Jacob…
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