Chapter 2 of my new Galex fanfic. Thanks for the reviews for the first chapter, they were really good

Should I Stay or Should I Go

Chapter 2

However much Alex kept denying how secretly good the surprising kiss was with Kim and how comfortable her friend made her feel that night in her impressive living room, in spite of this no matter what in her heart she knew this secret still felt so inappropriately wrong and that whenever the truth would eventually be revealed, it would genuinely break Gene's heart completely. She had been dragging herself away from confessing to Gene about her terrible secret. She honestly tried to forget every considerable thought but afterward around an hour later nothing she carried out; like completing documents or filing documents away in alphabetical or choronological order would take her mind off these persistent worries and this continued to trouble her even when she turned all focus towards the nearly empty kitchen which was presently being used by Gene. She watched him closely as he actively strolled throughout and around the kitchen currently rooting through cupboards to find another bag of sugar. While she kept close enough tabs on him, she tried her best to conceal the constant blushes she felt within both of her cheeks.

"DI Drake? Ma'am? Ma'am...Alex are you feeling okay this morning" after observing her for the last 10 minutes, Shaz had been feeling concerned after sensing how unfocused and contemplative the DI seemed to look. Deserting her unfinished paperwork she walked over towards Alex's desk and tapped her gently on the right shoulder to get her attention.

"Shaz...oh erm...yes...I'm feeling a little under the weather today. Honestly its nothing to worry about." Alex answered, oddly enough she certainly felt like crying right away, always wishing she could bare her complete soul by letting her problems out all at once. She knew if she said anything, gossip would surely spread around the office like wildfire.

"No Ma'am I meant you and the Guv, has he gone and upset you again? like he did the other week. You know he's unbearable whenever he's moody because I reckon he shouldn't be taking out his frustrations on you Ma'am" Shaz besides being an hardworking WPC had furthermore been an honest and kindhearted friend to her whenever she had been feeling unhappy and dismayed.

Alex was reasonably touched by her younger friend constant worries about her , straightaway she partly explained why the reason she had felt sidetracked "Thanks Shaz. Me and Gene haven't been speaking for most of the morning, maybe because of the obvious reason that we've misjudged one another . For some reason I can't help wondering whether he believes I'm trying my finest to shun him" She hardly knew what to consider anymore, with Gene it felt like time was against her as she kept trying to solve the challenging jigsaw puzzle of his wordless behaviour.

"Don't worry Alex. He'll eventually come around, men like the Guv always have the habit of doing so each and every time they think their relationships we like they could be doomed and hopefully he'll open up" Shaz respectfully persuaded the DI on not to blame herself and consider strengthening her relationship with Gene if she feels she has to.

"oh trust me I'm hoping so Shaz" Alex said, she continued to secretly dread the exact moment when she was going to tell him about the secret kiss.

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Later in the afternoon precisely around 4.30pm ; as everyone else for some reason had strangely vanished from the CID office probably because Ray, after earlier that morning having his personally signed Manchester United football confiscated, had no doubt probably gone and retrieved it. She wondered whether maybe he had assembled the team and challenged them to a game of football on the playing fields of Fenchurch East. While the office was pretty much unoccupied Alex picked up the courage and began to approach Gene's office, little by little she knew exactly that she had to thoroughly get this off her chest.

"Gene can I have a word with you please, we have to discuss our relationship" Alex sighed, feeling a little nervous, knowing that she felt like she had suddenly become the unfaithful and untrustworthy girlfriend to him.

"Me too, its all I've been thinking about all day, ways of making it up to you" Gene sighed as well, feeling he hadn't been acting like an understanding boyfriend.

Alex apprehensively bit her bottom lip as she slowly closed the door behind her as she stepped inside his office, still standing with her back placed against the woodened framed and glass panelled surface, Gene was about to hug her when she came out and admitted about whatever had been troubling her. Ohh god, the ill feeling was consuming her thoughts " Gene please don't hate me forever and blame me for breaking your heart, for what I have to tell you right at this moment. Last Friday night when I said I was going out clubbing..." She took a moment to mull over the right words to say before continuing " the night ended with me kissing someone..."

Gene looked flabbergasted, stepping away from her instantly. He couldn't believe it, she had kissed someone else. "So this explains why you've been detaching yourself away from me. You know I thought I could trust you Bolls, you told me when we got together there would be no secrets nor lies and it seems you've forgotten by playing tonsil tennis with someone else, bet your friend Kim encouraged you didn't she, told you to forget about me by telling you to play the field. bet she said I wasn't an good enough boyfriend for you. She must have been having howling with laughter behind your back. "

"It wasn't like that Gene please let me explain myself further. I didn't kiss...a man...I kissed Kim..Truthfully it was one drunken kiss that hardly led anywhere, she pushed me away knowing that what we were doing together was unpardonable " Alex fell backwards against the door, already sobbing and crying her heart out, her long smoothened legs were already feeling unbalanced and threatened to collapse from underneath her.

"One of the male clubbers tried it on with me outside, I thought he might be more of a silver-tongued male. How I was wrong I really was. I got nervous because I was thinking about you at that moment so I shied away, however when I went outside he must have followed me out of the club and then he forcefully tried to come onto me, I was lucky because Kim came along and warned him to clear off. Anyway I found I had a bit of bruising on my ankle and the back of my shoulder. So we headed back to her house and she applied some TCP to do the bruising. Much later on Kim recommended that we ought to have our own party in her house and went to get a few bottles of wine from her kitchen fridge. I don't why but I felt relaxed when I was around her within her living room, she listened so much, listened to me wehn I felt stressed and she always knew what advice to give me. Probably around two hours we'd gotten so pissed that we'd began to forget our surroundings. I must have been getting carried away because the next thing I knew was that I was kissing her with such great enormous passion, my heart kept hammering away immensely as I ran my hands up under her top and pressed my lips softly against hers, I was too busy absorbing the sensation of her lips and my other hand was caressing her cheek, I didn't know what to say or what to think because I felt lost. At first I thought she was enjoying the kiss but then she pulled away. She told me this wasn't the way to forget about you, please don't make matters worse with your Gene. I guess she was right in telling me to rethink about my relationship with you."

"You know Bolls, before you confessed to kissing another posh well-educated bird, I was going to ask you to come to Manchester with me for the weekend just so we could re-establish the true meaning of our close relationship which I always believed was stronger than ever despite our recent differences but I now think instead I'll just need some time away from this place and from you to reevaluate where we go from here" Gene felt he couldn't trust her anymore not after she confessed, which had still left him a little devestated and after he acknowledged that his heart inside was slowly breaking inside.

"Please Gene no, please don't suggest we put our relationship on hold. We can sort this out, I don't care how long it might take, just let me in, let me know what you're wishing to do" Alex grasped his shoulder, trying to convince him not to turn himself away from her.

Gene gazed at her from across the small narrowed office, he couldn't help but feel incomprehenisble towards her, however much sadness and shock he felt he still made an supreme effort to understand her answer.

"Alex look I think you should leave, I can have Raymondo taking over your paperwork. Look please just go home, have enough time off and use it wisely. I really need my space from you at this time, it's really horrible and unlike me to confess this because I know I can't look you in the eye anymore because I feel like you've betrayed me in many ways even though you've told me it was nothing more than a simple kiss" Gene couldn't look directly at her. Alex quickly left his office without saying a word and turned back to watch him through the glass panelled door, he didn't glance up at anytime. She watched her reflection coming into view as he swaggered around the office and then poured himself a glass of scotch, his hands shaking.

End of Chapter

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