Lily's POV

Lily walked quickly out of the classroom. What the fuck does that boy think he is doing? Confessing his love to me right before the holidays. Like I don't have enough to worry about. Lily fumed silently as she walked back to Gryffindor tower. Its not like I actually like him. Why would he even say that sort of shit... "I think I need you because you don't need me" What kind of bullshit is that?

Lily knew she was fuming for a reason. Lately she had been noticing James Potter more and more. Little things about him that used to annoy her THEY STILL DO ANNOY ME! were beginning to annoy her in different ways. Sure she hated his guts but there was an inkling in her that she might miss him over the summer holidays. The way he messed up his hair so it looked windblown she now realized was an attractive way of keeping his hair out of his eyes. Not that she had been watching.

No. Lily Evans most certainly did not feel anything for James Potter. But this night as she walked up the stairs she toyed with an idea that she had sworn many times she would rather shag the giant squid than do. I wonder what it would really be like to date James... I mean Potter. He is stupidly, idiotically romantic. He is attractive, well liked, quidditch captain, fiercely loyal, protective, brave, he knows how to make me laugh... not that I would ever laugh in front of him. I'm a prefect, maybe head girl next year. I can't encourage his rule breaking.

What neither Lily Evans or James Potter realized was that Lily Evans was beginning to need James Potter almost as much as he needed her.

Maybe I should give him a chance next year. I'll ask Remus for his address and swear him to secrecy. Maybe write James a letter. Ask to be friends. As Lily reached the common room she did just that.

"Remus! I want to ask you something but I need it to stay a secret. Like take it to the grave not even howling it at the moon secret." Lily grabbed his arm and pulled him out into the hallway and then through the closest door she could find. A broom cupboard... Brilliant. Hope no one finds us.

"Lily... You realize I can't do this right? James is my best friend."

"Oh I'm not here to snog you. This is actually about James." Remus's eyes widened at that. "Look James just spilled his whole feelings to me and I don't know why but I actually felt something... not love or anything but I felt something. I'm confused."

"Whoa. You weren't kidding about the secrecy."

Lily smacked Remus's arm lightly. "Look I want his address. I don't know if I will write him or not but I think I might want to try being his friend. But what ever you do YOU CANNOT TELL HIM. I don't know what it is I'm feeling and these thoughts have been coming into my head for weeks. He is annoying me in a whole different way and I keep staring at him. Its so frustrating."

"Lily, look, I'll give you his address but I can't do it tonight. I might be able to slip away and give it to you tomorrow but we leave the day after. I'll be busy packing. If I can't get it to you before we leave I'll send it to you in a letter."

"Oh thank you thank you thank you Remus. You are the best!" Lily pulled him in for a hug and went to kiss his cheek when the door opened. Shit.

"Oh shit Sirius, I guess this one is taken. Lets go find an other" Some 5th year blonde giggled at his side. Sirius was glaring at the two of them.

"No. I'm done for the night Marie. Go back to Ravenclaw tower."

Remus looked sheepish. Lily looked worried. Marie looked drunk. Sirius looked at Remus and shook his head.

As Marie walked down the hall Lily grabbed Sirius and pulled him into the closet too.

"Sirius first of all this is not at all what it looked like and I will explain it but you have to swear not to tell James!" Lily said in a rush. Sirius merely raised his eyebrows and made a motion with his hand as if to say "Go on" so Lily did. Explaining everything she had said to Remus and only when she had finished did he say anything.

"At least Remmy here isn't betraying his best mate. Also Evans you are sooooo crushing on Prongs. Its obvious from what you said. He says the same things all the time 'Oh Padfoot! You glorious man! Evans is so bloody annoying and I can't stop looking at her! Look at her brilliant carroty hair and her perfectly freckled skin! Oh how I dream of counting those freckles!' Thats a direct quote by the way. I'll distract Prongs and Wormtail so Remmy can get you the address."